I just like the feeling of hunger. Does that make me anorexic?

[Silent Tears]

When I was depressed, I would to eat one or two meals a day. Typically one meal with tiny snacks. I usually eat like a pig, but never gain weight. I get bloated often, so I often think I'm getting fat. But, I don't think that I skip meals to lose weight. It's not like that. I just like the feeling of hunger. It was bad when I was depressed, and quit cutting. It was like my replacement. Sometimes, to punish myself.

I've gotten better though, and started eating all the time again. But, I'm starting to go back to enjoying the feeling of hunger. But, not as a punishment, and not really a weight loss thing. I try to add exercise when I feel fat lol

Is it weird that I like the hunger? Well, yea it is weird. I guess, I wanna know.. am I anorexic? It's not like I count calories or anything. I really don't know the difference lol I don't know.. am I anorexic? :what:

Llately, is most of the day my stomach feels uneasy, I feel like I'm going to pass out, and I feel weak. It comes in waves. Yes, my parents know, they just don't care. They hate doctors, and try to tell themselves I'm a hypochondriac. Just thought I would mention it, because I didn't know if it could be related.

Needless to say, if it is a problem, only I can help me. I have no support, no one to turn to, but I'm getting used to it. Self help, all the way.. I guess.

[Ellie_J]

From what you have said above it sounds as if you may have issues with your body image, and possibly you also have a fear of gaining weight. Yes, this is indicative of an eating disorder. Eating disorders are not always just 'counting calories' though, perhaps you should read up a little on the illnesses. Try this link:
http://www.headspace.org.au/is-it-just-me/find-information/eating-disorders

Depression can often lead into eating disorders (and vice versa). I am very worried about where you said that you were feeling weak and like you were going to pass out. It is very important that you maintain a healthy diet, otherwise your body and overall health will suffer. Please consider talking to someone else about this like a trusted adult, teacher or a school nurse.