Can abuse cause this?

[Silent Tears]

I know this is weird, and I'm sorry for that... I hope this is the right place for it to. This is kinda embarrassing to. :whoops: But, can abuse cause rape fantasies? Like, only thing I think about is domination, rape, ect. And, it's not like I WANT that to happen. I don't like being sexually abused. It's not pleasant. But, the only thing that seems to turn me on is rape crap. Not like, going out and hurting other people. Just me. I'm a girl btw. Sorry, I know this is stupid. Just.. I really want to stop thinking like this. I want to stop these horrible thoughts. They make me feel like such a horrible person. I hate these thoughts, and the fact that part of me enjoys them. I just thought, that if I find the cause of them, I could stop them... you know? Again, sorry if this was stupid. Just looking for answers.

[Texas warrior]

We all have are fantasy's and are dark sides. Don't let a dark fantasy define you we all have them. And I am sorry to say that they will not go away, I have a fetish that I would pay dearly to get red of, that I have prayed to stop, but nothing. And when the time comes to whack it, that is usually what I think about. But in the end it is just a fantasy, it doesn't hurt anyone, We both wish we could stop but we can't. So just except it, it is all you can do trust me, don't spend years of self hatred and loathing like I did over a fantasy.

[xmojox]

I know this is weird, and I'm sorry for that... I hope this is the right place for it to. This is kinda embarrassing to. :whoops: But, can abuse cause rape fantasies? Like, only thing I think about is domination, rape, ect. And, it's not like I WANT that to happen. I don't like being sexually abused. It's not pleasant. But, the only thing that seems to turn me on is rape crap. Not like, going out and hurting other people. Just me. I'm a girl btw. Sorry, I know this is stupid. Just.. I really want to stop thinking like this. I want to stop these horrible thoughts. They make me feel like such a horrible person. I hate these thoughts, and the fact that part of me enjoys them. I just thought, that if I find the cause of them, I could stop them... you know? Again, sorry if this was stupid. Just looking for answers.

Yes, it can cause that. If you aren't seeing a therapist, I'd recommend finding a good one. It's hard and it hurts (sometimes a lot), but it helps. This site is a good place to ask questions or just to vent if you need to. :)

[candabear17]

I know this is weird, and I'm sorry for that... I hope this is the right place for it to. This is kinda embarrassing to. :whoops: But, can abuse cause rape fantasies? Like, only thing I think about is domination, rape, ect. And, it's not like I WANT that to happen. I don't like being sexually abused. It's not pleasant. But, the only thing that seems to turn me on is rape crap. Not like, going out and hurting other people. Just me. I'm a girl btw. Sorry, I know this is stupid. Just.. I really want to stop thinking like this. I want to stop these horrible thoughts. They make me feel like such a horrible person. I hate these thoughts, and the fact that part of me enjoys them. I just thought, that if I find the cause of them, I could stop them... you know? Again, sorry if this was stupid. Just looking for answers.

I went through that exact same thing. I have PTSD and psychosis so my situation was a little different. Anyways, it is very common for someone who's been abused to fantasize about abuse. It's a way of reliving the trauma. I'd say talk to a therapist so you can figure out a plan and gain control over it :)

[Lofiel]

I am currently "with" a woman like this right now, although we're just friends. She is turned on by being degraded and dominated, fantasies and being forced to do things.

So? That's the way she is. It does not make her a bad person, it's what she is into. It is most definitely a common side effect of abuse, but it does not make you a bad person.

Am I a bad person because I like feet?

[ajp1993]

One of my friends had the same issue after she was abused by her dad and his 'friends' :/
To her sleeping with random guys became the normal thing because that's what she knew. Even now, like 3years on she's only just coming to terms with it.
So no, it's not unusual. And no, it doesn't make you a bad person. It's just going to take time, help and support. But the fact you've made it this far is a good thing. It shows you're strong :) If you've made it this far you can beat it.

[Hermes96]

i'd been wondering the same thing for the last 7 years in till i spoke to a friend about my past after that all those feeling kind of went away. but it might just be the fact the the older boy resposable has left my school so i don't have to see him every day

[muffin with a knife]

I'd been wondering the same thing for quite some time. I tried anything to make it go away. When it did my memories haunted me everyday. I got used to these things now. Just try and ignore it like you would do with a nightmare.