does it help you to track the days?

[Anxiety]

Does it help you to track the days you have gone without self harming, or do you just do something to keep your mind occupied and try to forget about it?

I've been in about 6 different therapy groups over the past year, and at each group they had us log our days and identify our feelings and urges and then track how many days we have gone without self harming and once we self harmed again, our count would start over. But that never worked for me so I never did the worksheets.

No one understood why I didn't do it but thinking about how many days I've gone without cutting just makes me realize how faster my scars are fading and how much I want more.

I don't really remember how I stopped cutting, the last time I self harmed was at the end of December when I had a nasty break up with my boyfriend. But after that I had absolutely no urges. I still look at sharp objects and think "I could do it again if I wanted to." but for some reason I don't have a desire too. I consider myself very lucky, because I have friends who still struggle.

[AmuraVasendiu]

It kind of does, for me. I've got family and a couple friends who know, and they're all trying to help me through this. It helps to think that yes, I've gone ten days without cutting (That's my actual count so far), and then I can feel proud of that, and try to keep going. But other days, when I really want to, it doesn't help that much. I just look at the old marks and think of what it would feel to do it again, and that's when I stop counting my days and get the heck out of the house, into public, with friends. Something, so I don't have to concentrate on that.

[astrid]

I find it doesn't, but that's just for me. I can easily understand how it could be helpful. It gives you a goal, something to be happy for & something to be proud of. I think it just makes me think about it more & honestly makes me want to self-harm even more. Almost as if I've gone too long without it, even if that sounds really bad.. If things are going well & I'm not self-harming, I prefer to think about it as little as possible, even if it's relatively positive.

[Fiction]

I see where you're coming from. When I was cutting everyday or every other day there really was no point in counting days. Sometimes nowdays (I think i'm on about 200) it's nice to figure out how many days i've gone because once upon a time i'd have never have dreamed of getting that far, and now I have, and that's a nice feeling. But it does also make me panic and think that one day i'll turn round and the fall back of cutting won't be there anymore, which doesn't make sense but I know what I mean.