Self Harm Calendar

[Whisper]

Since Heather doesn’t have it in her diary anymore I’m putting one here
Delete it if you want

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07/21/05

~12 times
~Right arm
~Shallow

[Waiting]

i'm making this a sticky, because it provides help and support, for after cutting, not just tryign to prevent it.

IN NO WAY SHOULD THIS BE CONSIDERED PROMOTING SELF HARM


anyways back on subject.
im real sorry that happened bud
whatt started you off?
but look on the brightside, it was 12 shallow cuts instead of 24deepcuts.

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

im so sorry cody, it was my fault :'(

[Waiting]

july 21

-stomach
-6 times
-medium
---------------------------
-right arm
-????times
-deep

why what ahppened man?

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

austin... i have a hard time believing u. sorry :(

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

-right wrist
-2 cuts
-Deep

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

my dad called me...and bitched me out on the phone (alcoholic) and then i hung up on him and he called me back and he's coming up here...and i'm scared that i might get hurt if i see him

[-Silence]

Is there a way to get someone like your mother to be around while he is, someone that would stop anything from happening? I'm sorry. (hug)



July 22nd. (my time)
..Five times on my left arm/wrist.
..Not really deep, it'll scar, but nothing serious.

I can sleep now. Goodnight.

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

no, i can't go around him at all...and like if my mom comes then it'll be even worse...i love my dad but i can't deal with him anymore....


waht happened?

[bjl17]

friday 22nd july
6 times
right leg
medium

after three days without it :cry:

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

o i'm sorry bjl17! were here for you whenever you need it! PM me if you want to talk!!!

:hugs:

[bbychop]

july 26

-15 times
-left wrist/arm
-shallow

[LoSt_n_the_WoRlD]

O no you guys feel free to PM me to talk and get this stuff out of your system, ive been cut free for 4 days and its better! i'm tryin' not to do it anymore so just talk to anyone for help because it better not cutting!

[Waiting]

july 26

-15 times
-left wrist/arm
-shallow

woah ashes, what happened?
i thought u stopped?
or am i mistaken :S
anyway what happened?

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

ash what happened? need to talk...if you do email me or something. ok im here if ya wanna talk

[bbychop]

hmm..
here's what happened...
#1. joe's parents forced us to break up ((age difference))
#2. i'm still confused about that one person i like but nothing can happen with.
#3. i just got really down and i was like trying to control myself but i couldn't.

[bbychop]

july 26 ((again))

3 times
right leg
deep

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

its ok ash. dont worry about joes 'rents *HUGS* itll be ok

[bbychop]

yeah it will. i hope. he won't even talk to me.

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

do i need to give him a talkin' to? i will if i need to its not your fault at all *HUGS*

[bbychop]

*hugs* thanks.
uhm i heard he got some job with ebay or some weird shit like that.
hmmm i wanna do it again.

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

ebay lol lol. do what again? ashes needs more hugs? i gots plenty since no one else will take them *cries and searches for converse with the blade in the sole*

[bbychop]

your converse have a blade in the sole? PIMP! lol
yeah ebay lol.
:hug: there just one big hug!

[CrAzY-TBonE]

sarah what happened??!?! 42 times?? thats bad !!

[CrAzY-TBonE]

ashes im so sorry :( :hug: :hug: :hug:

i hope you get better :)

[bbychop]

Thanks.. :hug:

[grave]

July 26
two times
shallow

[bbychop]

uhm don't know how to do this so yeah

-carved "joe" in my left wrist
-deep

[bbychop]

ex

[bbychop]

oh i'm trying but he keeps coming back so it's like :-( and he found out about it. :hug:

[bbychop]

i don't know. just the thought of the razor in there makes me like em

[bbychop]

Honestly, I think I am going to try to go back to therapy for the ... 5th time? Hey you called me dear! Hehe. :P Later.

[bbychop]

I am so sorry I let you all down.


June 30, 2005 at 8:57 pm
one time
left wrist
deep

bad thing is i have pics of it.


:(

[bbychop]

I'm not. I sent it to one person cuz they thought I was lying but then I deleted it.

[-Silence]

August 10th
..Two times
..Left wrist.

There's also a bunch of little cuts on my fingertips from breaking open the shaving razor.

[Waiting]

August 9th/August 10th

Continuesly held a knife to my wrists
never followed throgh

- i lost this place

[bbychop]

:hug: what happened austin?

[-Silence]

I've been cutting daily since the last time I posted here, but last night was the worst in a while. There were ten of them, about eight of them were deep. My mother's coming, and I couldn't handle it last night.

[bbychop]

I gave up on my thing of almost a month when I was up this morning...

26/8/05
2 cuts
deep
left wrist

:cry:

[-Silence]

Why? What happened?

I'm sorry.
:hug:

[bbychop]

:hug: It's ok. I'll be alright.
I'm just having problems with Wesley again :(

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

oh ash*hugs*

8/24/05
several
left arm

[bbychop]

:hugs:
what happened kashia ?

[6XxRazorBla6deKissesxX6]

i got in a fight with my mama and i had a shitty day i hate school and ya know how mara, whitney, and kayla are like my best friends...well they completly ignore me and like at lunch i was sitting with mara and whitney and silas and all them and like no one talked to me...so i never talked to anyone else and ugh theyre friggin mean...and kayla like doesnt talk to me anymore...morgan still talks to me but she really doesnt care about anything i say so now im hanging out with lindsay, anayla, kady, cynthia and jaylee most of the time...and i sit with anayla and kyle jackson(the deaf one) at lunch now...*sighs* i havnt cut since thursday though...

[bbychop]

:hug:

[Whisper]

I lost count after 32

Did you ever feel so much pain inside you forgot how to cry?
like you'd slipped into hell.....like you wanted to die?

~me~

Shattered heart and shattered cries
Leave me here in full disguise
Deepened agony and deepened sorrow
With no real hopes in sight tomorrow
Bloody hands and bloody blade
All your pain you want to fade
Silent cries and silent screams
Corrupting all your happy dreams
Guilty thoughts and guilty noose
You must put all bad things to use
Painful words and painful tears
All have been seen through this broken mirror
Crimson scars and crimson hate
All wrapped together in her shattered mistake.

~Madison Leigh~

[-Silence]

Are you alright?
What happened?

[Whisper]

.........no


I'm sorry heather :cry:

[-Silence]

No need to be sorry, it's okay, it's alright.
:hug:

What's going on?

[dying-to-live]

august 28th
4 times
left arm
deep
---------------
3 times
left wrist
medium

before that the last time was three weeks ago.

[bbychop]

3/9/2005

2 times
left wrist
deep
*********
carved "hate" and "lies"
right leg and left
deep

[bbychop]

5/9/05

3 times
left wrist
shallow

[Φρανκομβριτ]

5/9/05

30 times
Left thigh
shallow

[-Silence]

I'm sorry, What happened?
:hug:

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

now when u say 30, do you actually just sit there and count?

oh and rudi, so much for telling me and cody you were fine eh?

[Φρανκομβριτ]

im sorry, ok! i just, fuck, i dont no anymore!

[-Silence]

I don't know how many or how deep, I don't want to look. I couldn't sleep my way out of this one, I couldn't push it all away. I kept crying, I needed something, and this was it.

I'm sorry.

[Chrono]

awww Heather, I'm so sorry, you wanna talk about it?

[Whisper]

I don't know how many or how deep, I don't want to look. I couldn't sleep my way out of this one, I couldn't push it all away. I kept crying, I needed something, and this was it.

I'm sorry.

Hunny
you know i'm here okay
i'm always here

I'll do anything to help you okay anything i'll even......go buy fuzzy socks

[Φρανκομβριτ]

yeah. heather, we're here for you! WE LOVE YOU!!!

September 9
25 cuts
Shallow

[///James///]

:( dont call this spam, its not you might no why i have this face on :( :crys:

(btw i havent)

[dying-to-live]

9/7/05
3 times
ankle
medium

[Whisper]

matt i am fine now go to bed

[-Silence]

Rudi, I'm sorry, but why? Hang in there.

Dying to Live (Sorry I don't know your name), what happened?

Cody, I'm sorry. Please know, you are never alone in any of this. I'm here always, even if you don't want to talk (I can ramble on and on if you like), but I'm here even if it's just to keep you company, you're not alone. Ever. Hang in there and please be safe.

Austin, Why couldn't you sleep before? What was going on?

[Whisper]

Cody, I'm sorry. Please know, you are never alone in any of this. I'm here always, even if you don't want to talk (I can ramble on and on if you like), but I'm here even if it's just to keep you company, you're not alone. Ever. Hang in there and please be safe.

i'm sorry sweetie

......27
right arm
shallow

[dying-to-live]

Dying to Live (Sorry I don't know your name), what happened?

i was on msn and one of my old friends told me i was worthless and i should go kill myself because no one there (my old place) acually ever was my friend because no one could ever be friends with someone "like me". i know i shouldn't let her have the satisfaction, but i'm really sensitive and it really hurt.

btw, my names jade.

[-Silence]

I'm so sorry Jade.
:hug:
By the way, if it means anything to you, you matter to us here and you are definetly not worthless.

Take Care :)

[dying-to-live]

:)

[-Silence]

I'm so sorry Austin. :hug:

Why did he hit you? Have you ever thought of reporting him?

[kevin]

Lately I've been feeling alot better, it's kidn of weird, all of a sudden, I just forgot about how I felt before. And this is good, most of my scars (Sometimes i'd cut deep, shallow normally) are faded now. I feel more complete, if that makes any sense.

[-Silence]

That's so awesome Kevin, Keep it up!
:hug:

[bbychop]

15/9/05
Carved "18" in my leg
Deep


I'm so sorry everyone. I need to stop :cry:

[-Silence]

Aww, Ash I'm sorry.
:hug:

Why '18'? (You don't have to answer if you don't want to.)

[bbychop]

it's the worst date on every month and yeah it was making me think :(

[Φρανκομβριτ]

im sorry ash!! :hug:

[Φρανκομβριτ]

27/9/05
left thigh
5, deep

[bbychop]

10/10/05
1
left wrist
shallow - deep

:(

[bbychop]

11/10/05
3 times
left wrist
shallow

[kolte]

oh please stop, we love you here at vt, don't do that to yourself, fight the urge.

[Whisper]

26

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

god i learn about you more from this fucking website than i do from you telling me as;ldkfjsdf;lkjasdf;lksajdf;lkjsadfl

[Waiting]

6 cuts - top of arm. shallow

- depressed

[-Silence]

I'm sorry Patch, but what happened?

Hang in there.
:hug:

[Waiting]

yesterday

twice left wrist -medium depth
twice left forarm - deep

-depressed

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Patch, whats up hun? Why are you depressed? Please, you know better than anyone this wont solve your problems! Im here if you want to talk

[Anonymous]

over 40
arms
My arms look incredibly disgusting now.
Swiss army knife

-Another Day

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Austin :( Come one babe! Why?

[tophat]

30
left arm
medium
yesterday :cry:

[Waiting]

- all around my left arm/wrist aread
- pretty shallow

addictive personality
xx

[-Silence]

26.

I dunno, I just lost it.

[ThePhantom]

Hatred im so dissapointed! Oh noes :(

*Takes out rag and cleaning supplies and begins to solemnly clean up the floor around HatredFalls *

[ThePhantom]

roflmao i bet a whole bunch of people looked at self harm calander and saw i was last poster and came in to see if i actually cut myself ... lol .. sorry for doubel post just kidna that this was funny .. eh..he..

[Whisper]

26.

I dunno, I just lost it.

hun i'm sorry ~Hug~
it's okay alright
you can talk to me okay
i'm always here
ur not alone
never alone

~X~

[nwshc]

roflmao i bet a whole bunch of people looked at self harm calander and saw i was last poster and came in to see if i actually cut myself ... lol .. sorry for doubel post just kidna that this was funny .. eh..he..
I do not see why it is so funny.

[serial-thrilla]

roflmao i bet a whole bunch of people looked at self harm calander and saw i was last poster and came in to see if i actually cut myself ... lol .. sorry for doubel post just kidna that this was funny .. eh..he..
I do not see why it is so funny. yeah, grow up cutting isent a laughing matter

[ThePhantom]

sorry. i was laughing at the thought of me cutting myself.. which is funny to me but i suppose it isnt funny to others...sorry

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

god i dont know how anyone could be more freakishly in love with themselves with you. if you had a twin would u get married and make babies?

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

27
deep
inner thigh


hatred falls hurt my feelings :(

[ThePhantom]

hatred falls hurt my feelings :(

omg get over it, dont be such an ass!

[Waiting]

get back on topic everyone..dont be jerks to eachother...dont make me lock this thread

[Whisper]

24 ~ left arm

[-Silence]

:hug:

I'm sorry.

[xxhunnibunnixx]

*- 13 time
*- left arm
*- deep (very deep)
:cry:

[-Silence]

Are you alright?
What happened?

[-Silence]

Thursday wasn't a good night for me. I messed up, alot. Bad visit with Shelly (counselor), and just really worried about my mother comming, even though I'm not seeing her, worried about my brother.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I'm sorry heather!

december 4
23 left thigh deep
carved LIAR into left thigh

[///James///]

im sorry rudi, xxxxx please please try not to xx

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Dec. 5
Left thigh
7 deep
10 medium
Left wrist
5 shallow

[Waiting]

im so so sorry man
clean up
dont let it all take over
stay safe
you deserve much better

[///James///]

im so so sorry man
clean up
dont let it all take over
stay safe
you deserve much better
ditto
xx love u rudi xx

[Φρανκομβριτ]

December 7th
Left Thigh
12 deep

[///James///]

swettie please please try and not see it as a solution to your problems. your getting help now, just too think about what i said, all those mind things to see it as something else. i know its hard babe, try :hug: <i know its not the same as a real hug but it will be, someday, i promise it will. you can do it, your strong enough to get through anything hun x

[Φρανκομβριτ]

i know babe, I'm getting help, I'm trying to stop I really am

Dec. 8
Left Thigh
15 medium

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

wtf's goin on rudi?

[///James///]

i know babe, I'm getting help, I'm trying to stop I really am

Dec. 8
Left Thigh
15 medium

i know swettie. try starting again from now...change from now on. i know its hard to start things over again mid-week, but like i said the other night, my lunch time is 1:10pm-1:55pm, if you need to talk then i'm all ears! xx

[-Silence]

I'm sorry Rudi, are you alright?

Please, take care.
:hug:

[Φρανκομβριτ]

yeah I'm ok I guess. Thanks hun

Dec. 12

Left wrist
3 shallow
Left thigh
10 deep

[Anonymous]

Rudi,
Something is obviously NOT ok. You are here for everyone at vt. Don't feel like you are just a counselor here. You are also a patient..
(That's sounds corny, but it's true.)
Hun, you need to tell us what is wrong so that we can help you and get you through whatever you are going through! Stay strong. I know you can do it!! :hug:


-Austin

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15 times
shoulder
I can't help myself

[///James///]

Rudi,
Something is obviously NOT ok. You are here for everyone at vt. Don't feel like you are just a counselor here. You are also a patient..
(That's sounds corny, but it's true.)
Hun, you need to tell us what is wrong so that we can help you and get you through whatever you are going through! Stay strong. I know you can do it!! :hug:


-Austin


I agree, babe you can go on like this; you say you dont get addicted to stuff easily, you always told me that, but this looks differnt babe. you need to stop, there is no easy way out of cutting, its just STOP now. Im tired of coming home after a day of thinking about you and just hoping that this one day you will just not do it; that you will just be strong and hold it off, cos i know you can babe. Whatever you use, throw it away. Wherever you go (if its in school) don't go there again. I dont want things to get worse hun, stop please, for me, just before its gone too late, please. xx love u xx

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and austin :hug: im here for ya, hold it off, i know you can x

[Kiros]

[CLEANED UP]

Let's stay on topic :)

[Φρανκομβριτ]

thanks hun

December 14
Left wrist
4 shallow

[ScotsGirl]

Rudi? :(
We are always here for you if you want to talk, k?
Whats happening?
I really hope things get better for you soon! :(
:console:

xxx

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I know. Thanks Lynne
Dec. 14
Left wrist
7 Medium-shallow

[///James///]

aww baby, i though u were getting sick of it? what is happening hun? you should tell your therpist about cutting, you need to hun :(

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Dec. 17th
Left thigh
15 medium
Left wrist
10 medium

[-Silence]

I'm sorry Rudi. Hang in there
:hug:

[Anonymous]

50
I dont know..just guessing.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

dec. 19
19 medium
Left wrist

[Φρανκομβριτ]

dec. 20
15 medium
left wrist

[Whisper]

Dec. 21st
48, medium, long
right arm

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

pft i wont even ask beacuse you wont even tell. :roll:

[-Silence]

I'm sorry Cody and Rudi and Austin.

Hang in there and please be safe

:hug:

[dying lullaby]

probably about ten deep gashes on my upper left arm :|

so much for not cutting any more...but everyone has setbacks, right?

i realized last night after i did it that i have to ware a sleevless shirt on christmas...what am i going to do?! they're not going to heal in that time and i cant lie about what happened b.c my fam knows i do this...my aunts will all come down on me and try to jesus-ify me if they know im still doing it...oh man this sucks

[Waiting]

why do you have to wear a sleeveless shirt?
just change what your wearing...or arm warmers?

[dying lullaby]

b/c my mom went out and got me this really pretty shirt and she would be offended and hurt if i didnt ware it ...but all that doesnt matter anymore b/c now she knows why i'm not wearing the shirt...

[Φρανκομβριτ]

:( you were doing so well Cody. What happened? And why? And Bri, what happened? I'm sorry. :hug:

[dying lullaby]

i have been under alot of stress and i am not blaming my actions on that but it did help me make the decision to cut...im just really depressed again...and everything was building up again and i just knew that if i didnt let a little out i would try to kill myself again, i was just waiting for it to happen. so instead i decided to let a little out. sadly to say its not relieving my feelings as it has in the past...

***

about an hour ago...
1 deep
and
many shallow

[dying lullaby]

are you doing ok Austin?

[serial-thrilla]

aparently not.

[-Silence]

6, it's not working. :cry:

[Fiending_the_freedom]

30
20 deep
10 medium
left arm
x-mas

[Φρανκομβριτ]

christmas
10
medium
left wrist

Tegan. I know what happened wasn't easy, but don't let him take over your life. He's an ass, you know that!

[dying lullaby]

i'm really sorry to hear all of that Austin. its not fair. please stay strong - if not for yourself then for all of us here who care about you...?

none as of right now for today. wahoo

[Φρανκομβριτ]

hun. Aww. Where? It may be true, but it doesn't mean you deserve that

[///James///]

Im so sorry everyone, partiulary Rudi:

28th December
10
Shallow
Upper Left Arm
Depression got a hold on me

[Waiting]

Im so sorry everyone, partiulary Rudi:

28th December
10
Shallow
Upper Left Arm
Depression got a hold on me

why?
that was stupid james
you were never addicted, it was never a big part of your life
so why do it again?

[///James///]

listen, everything was just getting to me. nothing was making me feel good any more. i just got week and i gave up. i just havent been so happy this xmas at all; last night i basiclly was unable to sleep becouse i had so much on my mind. hopefully this will be just one slip, i dont want to make a habit of it.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

babe, you are better than it. Like Patch said, you were never a hardcore cutter. Please don't get into it. It's horrible. It really is. I'l talk to you on msn. xxx

[dying lullaby]

listen, everything was just getting to me. nothing was making me feel good any more. i just got week and i gave up. i just havent been so happy this xmas at all; last night i basiclly was unable to sleep becouse i had so much on my mind. hopefully this will be just one slip, i dont want to make a habit of it.

i'm sorry you feel like that, james. its a horrible thing to feel but in the end cutting only adds to the greif. please listen to us when we advise you not to do this to yourself. we know what its like to have this sickness rule your life, and we truely dont want that for you.

[dying lullaby]

hey mister!
not cool!
talk to me if you have any problems or just if you feel like having a nice uplifting conversation.

i'll PM you more about this

[///James///]

listen, everything was just getting to me. nothing was making me feel good any more. i just got week and i gave up. i just havent been so happy this xmas at all; last night i basiclly was unable to sleep becouse i had so much on my mind. hopefully this will be just one slip, i dont want to make a habit of it.

i'm sorry you feel like that, james. its a horrible thing to feel but in the end cutting only adds to the greif. please listen to us when we advise you not to do this to yourself. we know what its like to have this sickness rule your life, and we truely dont want that for you.

thanks everyone

i feel that was just one slip. thats all.i dont want to get into a habit of it. i know it adds to the problems i have; i really wish i did something else instead but past mistakes only make us learn; this is one that will teach me

-------
im sorry austin :hug:

[Waiting]

sorry for the last angry comment james, i was only angry cuz i care
i dont wanna see you making the same mistakes i do
sorry man x

[-Silence]

2 around 2:30ish this morning. One's going to take a while to heal, the other's not so bad.

I just couln't sleep, I layed there...thinking.And its so stupid because people were around if I wanted to talk they would have been nothing but kind and listened. I don't know, I just went striaght to my razor to you know, clear my head.

I'm sorry.

[dying lullaby]

dont be sorry heather, we all do the same things...passing up one thing or another for the only thing thats ever seemed to work...dont worry you can get past this

[///James///]

sorry for the last angry comment james, i was only angry cuz i care
i dont wanna see you making the same mistakes i do
sorry man x

thanks patch, your so sweet :) although i didnt see it as angry; i would understand it if you were tho

heather, the other nite when i cut, i couldnt sleep. but after i cut i couldnt either and i found a book of puzzles (like wordsearches, suduko ect). possibly if you find you are doing it late at night when you cant sleep, they are the best. To be honest, its good to get addicted to something like suduko that helps rather then making problems with cutting much worse

[-Silence]

I fell asleep almost immedietly, wrapped it up and then I was out. That's a good idea James, but I'm not quite sure that I want to stop anymore. I don't know, I'm sorry.

Bri. Thank you.
:hug:

[Φρανκομβριτ]

Dec. 31
10, left wrist
Medium

[dying lullaby]

talk to someone about it, dont just reach out for the blade.

i know its easier said than done but it can be done!

PM me if anything is up, anything at all

[dying lullaby]

i'm such a hypocrite ...

2 shallow on the left upper arm.
deep enough to ruin my clean streak
too shallow to do any good
:?

[-Silence]

Aww, Bri I'm so sorry.

Are you alright?
:hug:

[dying lullaby]

yeah nothing is wrong...thats how it snuck up on me...its like falling back into an old habbit, you dont even realize you're doing it until its done and you're so mad that you forgot you werent supposed to be doing that thing any more. thats how it usually gets me

[Φρανκομβριτ]

janvier 2
7 medium
Left wrist


_________

+7 more
deep
left wrist

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

good job hun (Y)

[-Silence]

I'm sorry Rudi, please be safe.


Jan. 2nd
5, they'll scar, but whatever nothing serious.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I'm sorry hun. Atleast it isn't many

[///James///]

I'm sorry hun. Atleast it isn't many

But babe its still something :( i know this sounds like bad, but its like your tryin to see the bright side to it, that i cut but there isnt many. please please please, i doubt you want this year to end up any worse then last year do you? dont let it please :( :hug:

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I'm sorry hun. Atleast it isn't many

But babe its still something :( i know this sounds like bad, but its like your tryin to see the bright side to it, that i cut but there isnt many. please please please, i doubt you want this year to end up any worse then last year do you? dont let it please :( :hug:

no babe I was talking to Heather

[///James///]

I'm sorry hun. Atleast it isn't many

But babe its still something :( i know this sounds like bad, but its like your tryin to see the bright side to it, that i cut but there isnt many. please please please, i doubt you want this year to end up any worse then last year do you? dont let it please :( :hug:

no babe I was talking to Heather

i know but im just saying

[dying lullaby]

ehh i cut a few times tonight...my music got me very emotional and i didnt like it none :? oh well tomorrow is another day

[-Silence]

I'm sorry.
:hug:

But your right, tomorrow is another day, I hope it's better for you.

[dying lullaby]

i'm slipping back in to my old habbits...but i think thats better than letting it all build up and doing something 10x worse...right?

[dying lullaby]

thats awesome! keep up the great work!

[dying lullaby]

thats ok, theres always another day

[dying lullaby]

keep your head up

[bbychop]

today -- 3 -- left wrist -- shallow

[bbychop]

it's ok. :)
:hug: thanks hun

[Fiending_the_freedom]

5 on the wrist
15 on the arm (all medium)

30 on the thigh most deep

[Waiting]

8 top of arm near wrist
depressed
worse ive been in a long time

[dying lullaby]

need to talk about anythign?

[Fiending_the_freedom]

07/01/06
carved "fuck" into my arm
carved a heart into my arm
wrist five times.
my neck 5 times
leg 12 times

[CoffeeBeak]

About twenty minutes ago, I sliced my arm to reopen a wound, then gouged out the scab.

I hate doing it.

[dying lullaby]

i cut on either friday or saturday... of last week...not very bad, its just that that was the end of my almost month long span w.o it...i havent cut since tho :)

[Zatch Bell]

I don't like the fact that I did it, but this is the first time I ever cut myself, and I did it pretty bad.

May 8th

-6 times
-left wrist
-deep

[Waiting]

last night
3 to 5 light cuts,
left leg
left bicep

first time in over a year
no blood tho

[mRojas2000]

they deleted last post i was refering to:


what the hell is wrong with you?? you dont even get why they do it... i dont do it, and i have nothing againts them doing it. its THEIR lives, not yours, so stfu

[redcar]

ignore him and his comments. just a spammer.

[-Silence]

I went two months until last night, I fucked it all up. I don't know why, just came crashing down.

Sept. 13th
4 very light cuts, left forearm.

[Barelythere]

half an hr ago, many cuts medium, and a carving of i hate you for doing this to me, feeling v low, and unloved :(

[Peaches.Eoiffer.]

this morning
7 cuts
forearm
deep
its gotten so bad this week

[~Cookie~]

Lastnight Just scratching,no blood.Haven't acually cut in over a week trying to stop all the way.

[Peaches.Eoiffer.]

about an hour ago, wrist and upper arm, medium to deep.

[-Silence]

about an hour ago, wrist and upper arm, medium to deep.

Can I ask why? What happened?

Hang in there :-)

[Barelythere]

Fuck there goes my 22 days. straight down the drain.

cut last night, just 2 cuts, medium, on my hip.

fuck u dad

:( back to square one

[Sapphire]

Fuck there goes my 22 days. straight down the drain.

cut last night, just 2 cuts, medium, on my hip.

fuck u dad

:( back to square one

Aw hun im so sorry to hear that ~hug~
But look at how strong you were, 22 days without cutting, that is something to be proud of.

[Barelythere]

oh huni im so sorry that u went back to it, but hey think before u went 2 years!!! thats awsome! :D just keep trying huni, and thatnks for the support :D ur a star, keep strong hun xoxo

[Barelythere]

not long ago, 10 meduim, wrist, i dont even no why i did it, fuck anther 10 days down the drain :(

[-Silence]

I haven't yet, but I want to so bad.

[Whisper]

I haven't yet, but I want to so bad.
Hun its gonna be okay alright
I'm here
your not alone okay
i'm so proud of you heather that will never change
your kind, caring, compassionate, funny, intiligent, strong and beautiful
you can do this hun
it'll be okay

http://osoprodocoracao.weblog.com.pt/prateleira/c-h-hug.jpg

[-=D=-]

close to 14...
forearm
shallow

[Peaches.Eoiffer.]

last night.
11 left shoulder, right leg
medium to deep
this morning.
27, left forearm and wrist
mostly medium to deep
an entire week gone :(