Self Harm Calendar

[Eclipse]

March 16,2009 Left arm 5 shallow. Planning to make more.

[ShatteredWings]

one...
i know i said id stop posting here. but i can't.

one week... gone.


one of the peoples (noone can see them.. meh. idc this one's awesomness) said i need to stop and start letting myself just try to relax through the urges.
shes proly right

[BuryYourFlame]

3 right wrist/forearm...shallow...
2 half burns on my bac, turned the shower water on rreeaaallyy hot...still warm...will be gone by morning though...

[MysticalBurrito]

:( hope things get better for you
:hug:

[Eclipse]

Like I said, planned to do more, 4 shallow on arm, multiple times in one spot on my leg right above knee

[DarkWingedAngel]

;469905']one...
i know i said id stop posting here. but i can't.

one week... gone.


one of the peoples (noone can see them.. meh. idc this one's awesomness) said i need to stop and start letting myself just try to relax through the urges.
shes proly right
gwyn
do you wanna talk
im on yahoo

[nachtspiegel]

10.
last night.

[DarkWingedAngel]

all i remember is passing out in my own blood

[MysticalBurrito]

I caved 32 days down the drain

32- Stomache
12- Knees

[electric7rocker]

one
deep

its been 6 months and 2 days
wow

[Triceratops]

12 slits on my left wrist.

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug3:

What happen :(

[RaeNose]

Wait... I sent my last comment to the wrong thread. Hahah, I'm such a loser.
Today is... March 21st?
6 on left arm
3 0r 4 on right
It doesn't matter though, no one really cares.
I want to stop so badly.

[Atonement]

2. I'm worried for myself because I don't even make sense to myself. I did two, light, very light, small ones on my arm. I'm sure people will be able to see them. Fuck. It was stupid. I feel even worse now. Hopefully, one time I will feel so bad after doing this that I will never want to do it again...

The stress builds up all the time. I get overwhelmed. Over nothing. I have medication, I can't seem to take it on time. I have therapy, but she doesn't know much of anything about self harm. Plus I rarely get sessions because of insurance. I get anxious over nothing. Just visualizing something that would be a huge step for me makes me freak out. It would be a terrible thing that would help me get over my anxiety and my depression hopefully. I have to see my dad tomorrow, I think. I don't know what I am going to do.

[DarkWingedAngel]

about 10 on my arm deeper than i usually go and 5 pretty deep on my stomach
im also starting to pick at all the scabs on my stomach
fuck i need help

[electric7rocker]

one. even deeper. thursday. wrist. bled for hella long....
i still cant believe i caved after that long.

[ShatteredWings]

*hug*


id say something that could help
but i don't beleive myself



What is it with me, only one cut... always one.
little worse than the last one. not serious though.

[RaeNose]

I've been snapping my rubber band on my previous scars today. The fresh ones, I mean. It stings, but in a good way.

[Triceratops]

6 slits on left wrist
4 slits on right right
3 slits on right leg
the word "alone" carved on my left leg

[DarkWingedAngel]

one big long one on my stomach
i did it last night at around 3am

[Project Delta]

5 in my arm deepest i have done yet. made my arm get pins and needles. family feud. :(

[The Batman]

1 just one and I fucking hate it. 3 weeks gone down the drain I'm a failure at everything i try.

[Project Delta]

Dude i feel the same. But thing is i cant stop. I even cut during school. Short cuts but i still do it. :(

[Cloud]

1 just one and I fucking hate it. 3 weeks gone down the drain I'm a failure at everything i try.

Your not a fucking failure dont EVER think you are. that goes for all of you
thomas you tried and even if you didnt succeed at first so what, just try again and again and again.
now tell me what happened?

[BlackenedSilver]

1 just one and I fucking hate it. 3 weeks gone down the drain I'm a failure at everything i try.

Tom! Your not a failure, You did really well to last that long!
Remember Im here if you EVER need to talk. :)


Just 1, For now. I handled it yesterday but I couldn't today, it was in the fitting room in a shop. On my wrist. Why did I have to have that blade in my pocket. :/

[DarkWingedAngel]

My fuckin life fails me!
I fuckin hate myself!
and yea


anyways
5
really deep
outer thigh

[Donkey]

1 just one and I fucking hate it. 3 weeks gone down the drain I'm a failure at everything i try.

Thomas, you are not a failure.

You are a win. <3 Try the three weeks again :yes:

You'll get there eventually :)

[BlackenedSilver]

A few more on my wrist, About 5/6.

[ShatteredWings]

2.

left handed[therefore on right arm...]... it's shalow.

stupid stupid stupid.

[DarkWingedAngel]

5 on each thigh
pretty deep

[BeautifulSilence]

Aw. Hugs for all.

None of you are, everyone has those down days where it just can't have not happened.

:hug2:

[DarkWingedAngel]

well since i have no knifes(threw em all away)

5 burns
just sorta let my arm sit for awhile on the burner

[Zephyr]

I caved.
Almost 8 weeks clean too :/
I'm pathetic.

9 scratches

[theOperaGhost]

I caved.
Almost 8 weeks clean too :/
I'm pathetic.

9 scratches

It's alright, hun. You made it a long time so you can do it again. Don't give up just because you had one bad night, ok?

[BuryYourFlame]

NOT pathetic Steph, you did so well to keep it up that long :),

after 10 days...4 on the right forearm...shallow...as always...

right in the middle of a skype convo too...didn't even notice...(soz guys)...still wondering if i should tell them now...

damn it, forgot bout 'today's posts'

[theOperaGhost]

NOT pathetic Steph,

after 10 days...4 on the right forearm...shallow...as always...

right in the middle of a skype convo too...didn't even notice...(soz guys)...still wondering if i should tell them now...

damn it, forgot bout 'today's posts'

Declan, you can talk to us, bud. If you aren't comfortable talking to all of us, I'm sure any one of us will talk to you privately (I know I will). You're a great guy with a lot of stuff going on in your life. I hope you find a different release other than self harm. None of us want you to hurt yourself. Keep talking to people, bud, ok?

[The Batman]

Declan you can talk to me anytime my eyes are always ready to read.

[DarkWingedAngel]

grrrr
stupid stupid dumb fuckin life

lighter burn on my thigh
i did it early morning

[Tiberius]

Declan, you can talk to us, bud. If you aren't comfortable talking to all of us, I'm sure any one of us will talk to you privately (I know I will). You're a great guy with a lot of stuff going on in your life. I hope you find a different release other than self harm. None of us want you to hurt yourself. Keep talking to people, bud, ok?

Like Jared said, we are here for you, Declan. Believe it or not we happen to care for you and want to help talk you through your problems and lead you away from self-harm. Self-harm doesn't get rid of the problem, infact it makes things worse by avoiding the problem and hurting yourself in the process. I know too many people who have gone down that path and it has only led them to a life of disappointment... Remember, people are here for you.:console:

[The Batman]

7 alittle deep I bled more than usual. I just didn't care anymore. I want to quit but it's like I take two step forward and four more back.

[BuryYourFlame]

7 alittle deep I bled more than usual. I just didn't care anymore. I want to quit but it's like I take two step forward and four more back.

im sorry you feel that way man...if u wanna talk me and a lot of other people are always open.

7 of the usual...maybe a bit shallower...for once i regret doing it...

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug:
What happen everyone?

[The Batman]

1 long and as deep as i could. In 2 hours I was chewed out by both of my parents.

[DarkWingedAngel]

ummm 2 burns on my thigh

[ShatteredWings]

hugs for all
1 long and as deep as i could. In 2 hours I was chewed out by both of my parents.
They got mad at you? Wow. *extra hug*

[The Batman]

All because I skipped class so I could do laundry would they rather me go naked?

[Krylon]

One - Medium I think.

First time the blood has actually ran down my arm.

[DarkWingedAngel]

uhh yea
about a week with nothing
but them i had a mental breakdown yesterday and today
so umm yea
5
really deep in my stomach
and 5 burns on my thigh

[GreyxRainbow]

Yesterday, it happened before I realised what I was doing. Just one tho, not that deep.

[Triceratops]

6 slits on left wrist
7 slits on right wrist
2 very deep slits on left ankle
1 burn (with fully heated hair straightners) on stomach

Right now, I wish my mum was dead. I don't care how she dies...I hope it will be slow and fucking painful. As soon as we all get home from vacation, she has to start on me. Like always.
I don't have any idea WHY she makes such a huge deal that I threw away a receipt for a £3 carton of orange juice. I didn't realise the orange juice was out of date when she asked me to buy it for her, and I accidently threw the receipt out into the trash. It's only fucking £3! It's not as if I wasted £500,000! We are well off, we're not poor or anything...I just don't know why she started screaming and yelling at me. She shouted "you're no good, you're a stupid girl and you're useless...blah blah blah" right in my face. Then she started to mess my whole bedroom up, throwing EVERYTHING out of my drawers rumaging through them yelling "WHERE IS THE RECEIPT??? WHERE IS IT!!!" when I already told her I accidently threw it away. My whole room is now completely TRASHED like hell, like everything in there is messed up. Then she got right up close in my face and screamed and yelled more insults at me. I then told her I hated her I truly hated her guts and that it'd be better to lvie with Satan himself. Trust me, I'm making this sound soooo much better than how it really is...

I want to go and see my best friend who lives round the corner, I want to go and talk to her and for her to give me a hug and tell me that everything is going to be okay. But then I don't want to because I have mascara dripping all the way down my face and I look like some sort of psychotic mad woman. I also don't feel like running through the busy street in this mental state. I'm a complete moron.

I just need someone to comfort me. :(

[MysticalBurrito]

Marcie :(
I would give you a hug if i lived near you :hug3:

[The Batman]

Marcie no one deserves to be treated like that especially over a something so small. You are a wonderful and beautiful person and if your mom can't see it then she needs to wear some fucking glasses or something. If you ever need to talk send me a pm I'll be happy to help you.

[Cloud]

:hug:
Marcie dont listen to her your awesome your fun, pretty and so wonderful. No one deserves that. you not got anywhere you can go to stay or a while?

If you want to talk just pm me or msn me.

[Triceratops]

Thanks so much guys. God knows where I'd be without you all. :hug:

[Burnthecity]

Marice, wow, i didnt even know, i really hope things start to get better
you deserve better then this
you truley do

msg me if you need anything

all the best
lou

[BuryYourFlame]

dont listen to a word she says marcie! you are an amazing girl, and you dont deserve to be treated like that...seeing as i cant offer a hug...i guess i will just offer ranting time whenever you need it, and i am online...or not. again...pm me, or IM/offline message me anytime...

i hope things get better for you...

[MysticalBurrito]

15 days down the drain
1 really deep on my thigh :(

[Cloud]

Karina what happened?

[MysticalBurrito]

I had a bad day... i woke up mad
i saw the guy i like flirting with some bitch
my parents got in a fight
ARGH

today is better though

[Cloud]

:hug: ever wanna talk about anything you know where il be

[The Batman]

3 long ones just had a shitty night and the blade is still in my pocket just begging for more.

[BuryYourFlame]

Mate, get rid of it NOW, put it in the bin, bury it in the backyard or something, just get rid of the temptation.

[MysticalBurrito]

8 yesterday i know im probly gonna do it again... im just scared what the damage is going to be.........

[DarkWingedAngel]

I started crying last night
couldn't get to sleep
had a mental break down

i managed to get by, by only doing 8, pretty deep on my stomach



fuck im just fuckin pathetic

[ShatteredWings]

NONE of you guys are pathetic
:hug3: for everyone

[Triceratops]

Agreed with Gwyn.

No one is pathetic. You are ALL special<3
Especially to me :)

This is for everybody:
:hug2:

[MadManWithaBox]

10, 5 on each arm, left with razor, right with really sharp knife. i feel even worse now, yet im desperate for more. im so pathetic, i make myself sick. yet i can't stop

[DarkWingedAngel]

well im pretty sure im gonna crack tonight

i can just feel it coming on
if i last that will be really surprising

[MysticalBurrito]

Desi stay strong i know you can do it

[MadManWithaBox]

10, left arm. gonna have to buy long sleeve white t shirt today

[BlackenedSilver]

Some yesterday and some today.
I don't know how many.. and don't particuarlly want to know.

[DarkWingedAngel]

20 on my thighs
10 on each
im so pathetic

[BuryYourFlame]

Agreed with Gwyn and Marcie :) none of you are pathetic.
:hug:

[MysticalBurrito]

Desi what happen :(
You are NOT pathetic you just had a bad morning/night/afternoon/evening

[Triceratops]

20 slashes across my left arm.
All the way up. My fucking arm is covered in huge bright red cuts.
I'm so ashamed.

I have to go to school like this tomorrow, and it doesn't help that it's really hot weather over here right now. I'm going to HAVE to wear a long sleeved sweater or something over them. I HAVE TO!!!!

You have no idea how BAD it looks. Honestly. There's lots of big cuts ALL the way up my arm. Even my mum saw and she screamed at me "YOUR ARM IS SO UGLY!" and she threatened so send me to a mental hospital, and have me locked up in the attic for months and to send me to the mentally disabled department at school everyday instead of my normal classes. I'm not even going to bother repeating the whole drama episode...

Now my whole arm burns and all I can do is just enjoy the burning for now.
Until tomorrow, I'm going to have a hell of a time trying to hide them.
I'm sick and ashamed of what I've done.
I'm an absolute moron and a total waste of a human being.
DON'T convince me any different, because that's just not the way it is.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Awww Marchie... Please dont think like that because its not true!
:hug:

[Project Delta]

Here's a tip for all you guys that unluckily caved. If you think yourself as pathetic and useless, then your not gonna be able to stop cutting any time soon. When you guys realise that you are what you are. And therefore not worthless. You will start to realise otherwise, ALl of you who keep saying that you are pathetic i have to say that if thats how you view yourself, then you will keep cutting. Start to see yourself as beautiful, try and visualise your arms how they were meant to be. CLEAN. and if you keep thinking about it, and stop thinking "I dont want to cut" start thinking "I want to stop" then that is what will happen. Thoughts become things if you do it right. So all you people who say pathetic, try saying... "Ops its a slip up, but i'm still thinking positive " And therefore you will start to think more positively and will feel better without anything. THis is how i overcame my addiction, and you could at least try it.

[MysticalBurrito]

:) that is true

[Project Delta]

I'm nearly cutting. Im just resisting.... i cant believe it after basically 2 months...
Fuck....

[Project Delta]

fuck!!!!
5 arm.
caved after 2 months :(
feel im going to do more :(

[The Batman]

Don't worry we all cave and go through times like this if you need to talk pm me anytime.

[SLABBS]

4/23/09
3. bad scratches. no bleeding

[Spin]

1, on my shoulder, not too bad.

This is probably my most disappointing one, I went about 3 months without a single scratch, and then I finally did it. I have been feeling really bad lately but I wasn't sad at that particular moment so I don't know why I did it. The worst part is it felt so good to do it again, now I know I won't stop for a long time. :(

[BuryYourFlame]

just remember, you have gone once, for 3 whole months, you CAN do it again :)

PM me if you ever wanna talk :)

[Char_x]

25/04/09

1 little cut on the top of my right leg.

Finding it so hard at the moment :(. Cos i,ve not done it for about 2 weeks up untill now i feel like its sort of built up inside of me the fact that i havnt done it when i needed to and like now i proper just feel like going mad on my arm with the nail scissors :(. Hopefully i wont give in.

[Spin]

9 more on my shoulder and 2 on my upper thigh. They're pretty small and thin. :(

[PrincessSarey]

hmm I don't usually count when I cut.

...~infact I usually loose count if I do.

[Maizda]

27.5.09

On my arm, im gutted, i went three days. :( They did it again. These stupid kids were being horrible to me, and it made me feel even more crap. they are quite nasty. I hate myself. I do.

[Project Delta]

Hey Maizda, pick yourself up and keep on going! keep trying to stop, and think positively!
If ya evver need to talk PM or add me to msn :)

[Aηdy]

27.5.09

On my arm, im gutted, i went three days. :( They did it again. These stupid kids were being horrible to me, and it made me feel even more crap. they are quite nasty. I hate myself. I do.

You should just ignore them, or if you can't do that show to them that you don't give a shit about what they say to you. Eventually they'll get bored and move on.

Going three days is good, and you can easily do that again and much much if you stay strong. :hug:

[Maizda]

You should just ignore them, or if you can't do that show to them that you don't give a shit about what they say to you. Eventually they'll get bored and move on.

Going three days is good, and you can easily do that again and much much if you stay strong. :hug:

Thank you. I know i should ignore them. They got me on a bad day. Ive felt so depressed today. I didnt want to get up out of bed. I knew it was going to be a bad day, i could sence it. :confused:

Thanks, i really hope i can. :hug:

[ackmedsgirl666]

cut my left arm open 4 times
bled pretty bad
that was about 2 weeks ago
i have been tempted but i have held myself back

[Char_x]

26/04/09

A tiny one on my finger, i kno that might sound daft bt at least i kno the bf wont notice it, a tiny one on my arm and 2 little ones on each leg.

Finding it so hard not to do worse than that at the moment. Its jst the fact that my boyfriend wud see it if i cut as big and deep as i wanted. Hate feeling like this :(.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

I caved today, I knew I would....

Several small scratches,
2 large scratches,
And one long and deep cut on my arm.

Going to have trouble explaining THAT one tomorrow but... Meh its not too bad... I feel way better now!

[Tankgirlpookie]

Yesterday
1 cut
On my leg
Deep
if i go any deeper im going to start needing stitches!

day one on no cutting! wish me luck guys !!

[Project Delta]

Good luck Tankgirl!! And ouch on the cut, be careful!

[Project Delta]

9 on my arm fucking hell! sorry for being a hypocrit tankgirl :(
Idiota

[Miss Punk]

9 on my arm fucking hell! sorry for being a hypocrit tankgirl :(
Idiota

*hugs*
Don't worry, everyone has bad days.

I cut quite bad too today, in fact, in the past 3 weeks I have only managed 1 day without cutting.

[Project Delta]

its the deepest i've cut yet (only one of them) and i tried to make it 8 but made one more:/

[Tankgirlpookie]

9 on my arm fucking hell! sorry for being a hypocrit tankgirl :(
Idiota

O gosh noo i never would have thought you were a hypocrit you suffer and stuggle with it everyday just like me i only ever looked at that like support and its bad you cut yourself but thats were you are in your life im in a similar place!
i didnt cut yeasterday i feel good about that but today im feeling low!

Why did you cut do you wanna talk about it?

[Project Delta]

re-opened some cuts while at school just a moment ago :/
Angry with myself, as usualy

[BeautifulSilence]

Hmm. Let's see...

Well. There's the five or so on my right thigh, thn I think about three on my left... I have around ten on my left arm / shoulder... And oh! New place - lower stomach and right hip. Go me :/

The funnist thing is that I got less than a bloody tears worth of blood >_> Hmm. And they're sore already.

I was pathetic enough to convince myself that my wrists would've been split open if my blade was deep enough. That' feckin' bullshit. I'm a coward... I'd only take easy ways out.

[Project Delta]

Silence you know that your NOT a coward. Now pick yourself up and keep running towards your goal (of quitting), c'mon you can do it!

[Project Delta]

Another slip up :'(
12 cuts arm :(

[Atonement]

3 left forearm.

[Project Delta]

1 deepest i've done, bled a lot, done in school toilets, used a bracelet and a piece of toilet paper to use as a bandage

[ackmedsgirl666]

had a breakdown 2 days ago alot of stuff going on
my bestfriend found out yesterday
it was rele rele bad and i dunno how to hide them :@

[ShatteredWings]

...
i'm not sure how i want to count it..
only one really broke the skin...

Meh, whatever. i cut, then i slept.

[Miss Punk]

I went 3 days and then today I had to do it again. Well I wasn't trying to quit but I was still pleased about the 3 days. :( Today I made about 7 or 8 cuts, two of them quite deep, and I also wrote some words into my skin from a song that I love. It felt really good. I bled a lot, the cleaning up was awful.

[DarkWingedAngel]

i would rather not say where or how much or how bad
but i did cave
nuff said

[ackmedsgirl666]

oh desi r u ok
and as for me almost 2 weeks
'tried to resurface a couple by scratching
trying to stop

[cool person]

Woo hoo, just cut for the first time in 8 days. What do I feel? I feel ashamed about the size of my cuts. I feel like people o here would be laughing at them if they saw them. I do't know why, I guess I just feel like I don't really belong here and that my problems aren't real. I feel so tempted to just "go loco" and do some serious cutting, but so far I'm resisting the urge. Or mabye I'm jsut a cowhard...i don't know.

[theOperaGhost]

Woo hoo, just cut for the first time in 8 days. What do I feel? I feel ashamed about the size of my cuts. I feel like people o here would be laughing at them if they saw them. I do't know why, I guess I just feel like I don't really belong here and that my problems aren't real. I feel so tempted to just "go loco" and do some serious cutting, but so far I'm resisting the urge. Or mabye I'm jsut a cowhard...i don't know.

Keep resisting the urge...it doesn't make you a coward. No matter the size of the cuts, you still cut. Please try stopping.

[Triceratops]

Guys, don't feel bad. You made a mistake, you can easily start over.
Remember, stay strong as tomorrow is a whole new day. :)

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Am... I dont want to count. So lets just say ALOT on my arm!

[BuryYourFlame]

:( eve...what happened? im here if you ever wanna talk, ok?

[Tankgirlpookie]

Had a extremly stressful evening and after let rip on my leg

4 cuts long on of them deepish took a while to stop bleeding! on my leg!

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug:

What happen?
If you ever need to talk im (almost) always here
I know you dont know me that well but that offer is here for the taking

[Project Delta]

1 cut after a very stressful day, along my arm
3 long shallow scratches/cuts,
3 small shallow scratches

[cool person]

Last night about 8 scratches/small cuts on my wrist. I also took an asprin OD (not serious) and I treated the stomach ache with a ifeprhonae OD and another asprin pill. Luckily I took all the pills I had in my room, and all I managed to do was give myself a stomache ache and feel nausious. Also, I'm getting annoyed at the razor I'm useing, I press down harder and harder, and yet I don't seem to do any real damage. It is getting really really annoying.

[Char_x]

Lastnight did a small cut on the top of my leg. Feeling so down tonight, trying not to but i really feel like im gna let rip and do some damage.

[BuryYourFlame]

:(

if you ever wanna talk PM me for my msn :)

[Maizda]

about 2 am this morning.
mum was bugging me i had had a horrible day, she rang the school and got hold of my councellor. :( and all hell broke loose, mum was going MAD with me for going to see Anna. So i went to see Anna at break. I ended up haveing to stay in school all day (was ment to be off site at 11 cause it was my leavers day thing) so i could speak to anna again after school. Then i went to a mates. Got home at nine. Went to bed Then mum came hassleing me and haveing ago. So then i was awak for hours, stressing. SO i picked up the scissors. And cut, quite a few times, quite bad. On my leg. And i couldnt sleep unless i had the scissors in my hand :( x

[Char_x]

:(

if you ever wanna talk PM me for my msn :)
Aaw thanks, will do :)

[Char_x]

Lastnight did 2 small cuts on my wrist :(

[ackmedsgirl666]

last nite had a breakdown following something i couldn't handle
did 2 small ones across my upper thigh

[Project Delta]

1 on my arm, also punched a wall and kicked my door breaking it
brother really pissed me off after a day at school (Where i NEARLY cut but resisted) and then he came and turned my laptop off and i flew off the handle and cut

[BeautifulSilence]

Umm. 8 on my right thigh. I don't care.

[Project Delta]

another 7 or 8 and punched bed 3 times as hard as i could and totally fucked up my knuckle!
need to see a doctor about it :/
hate my brother

[OnlyByTheNight.]

3 cuts on wrist... Deepest iv ever fone.
A few other scratches on my arm.
I feel better after doing it.

[Tankgirlpookie]

3 shallow cuts on my leg last night! could have done more and deeper but resisted!

[girlygirl]

a few small cuts on the top of my leg, kinda followed a huge break down last night :\

[Char_x]

3 small cuts on my wrist, 1 of them quite deepish. Felt so low though, i just needed to do it.

[ShatteredWings]

it apparently doesnt lik eblood
i barely got one ..then it bit down and dindt let go...

why did i stop?
it might've lelft if i kept going.

[missautumn]

5 shallow on my left forearm.
i was just so frustrated.

also new here.
*waves*

[Project Delta]

MissAutumn, what a way to make you first post. :)
Anyways, next time try to talk to someone on msn? vent your anger out in a post on here, white padded room is always there for you :)
And there are LOTS of people who will add you to msn or yahoo or pretty much anything if you need to talk :)
Msn for me :)

[ackmedsgirl666]

had a very intense mellow breakdown the other day and sliced up my left wrist again
i dunno how to hide it anymore

[Project Delta]

Shot my hand with a HIGH powered bb gun, bruised and bled internally
only once

[Tankgirlpookie]

2 cuts shallow on my wrist

[The Batman]

Just one on my leg and it wasn't even enough to bleed more like a scratch really. It's just enough to hold me over for a few hours at best.

[MysticalBurrito]

:( Thomas what happen?

[The Batman]

I feel like shit and I needed it. I need more if it wasn't for the fact the blade was dull I would have gone deeper.

[Project Delta]

Aw i'm so glad you didnt go deep thomas, but still i wish you didnt have the urges!

[Maizda]

three, on my wrist. Shallow. 7.15 am.
I went two days. Sorry Aaron. :(

[The Batman]

2 more shallow ones on my leg and I honestly have no idea why i did it. Maybe i was just testing my new "toy" or maybe idk I just cut that's it.

[Miss Punk]

I had a bad night last night, I opened a new blade because they were all blunt, and mostly shallow cuts but there are a quite few that are looking quite nasty now. I don't normally count, but I did this morning and there are 81 not including the writing I cut into my skin... and I was doing so well :(

[Wakoabs]

Quite deep on my finger I was dismanlting a Razor and there was a lot of blood...

[Tankgirlpookie]

7 cuts tonight! 4 on wrist 3 on leg has stopped for now but feeling she might continue!!

[NightFighter]

I dont like this thread.
In my opinion its just not helpful for those who self harm to see how many cuts or how much damage we all do to ouselves. People will compare and those who do less cuts/damage might feel like their problem with self injury is not that bad. Thats definately not the case. They might do more or deeper. Im not saying that everyone will compare and cut deeper. But some will. Its not productive. We should concentrate more on not harming than to concentrate on the amount we harmed ouselves. I know there is the other thread for that so this one isnt really needed.

Dont take offence to this. Its just my opinion.

[Tankgirlpookie]

Your right in one perspective but in others it makes people feel accountable for there actions! righting it down and saying how many you did it can be a postive thing for some! but i think were all diffrent and some will find this useful and some will find it to be a challenge from others competive to do more or deeper cuts
i have heard people say before on here i dont know why im here i scratch the serface unlike some of you and i think i will try and do better and go deeper and thats a scary thing to hear ! but if its not posted here then its just another secret i think

[NightFighter]

i have heard people say before on here i dont know why im here i scratch the serface unlike some of you and i think i will try and do better and go deeper and thats a scary thing to hear ! but if its not posted here then its just another secret i think

That is scary to hear! Thats why im against this thread.
Its fine if people want to say that they gave in and the reason why. That would be a good idea as we can then help them and comfort them. By saying how many cuts they inflicted doesnt really help anybody...

[The Batman]

When i look back on this thread and see how many times I've cut myself it makes me want to quit more. Especially the responses seeing people who are actually interested in how i feel some times i cut and don't post it then i feel bad about it like i'm lying but when i do post it it's like a small amount of that pain was lifted. This thread is a good one. It helps us keep accounts of our self harm and our actions also it helps us think about how we felt when we cut that day.

[Tankgirlpookie]

Exactly euphoria thats why this is a good thread to some! and not to others like night fighter! so for those its good for use it for not dont and find the best method for you that helps you look at cutting and quitting! each to there very little own!

2 on my wrist today!

[ackmedsgirl666]

umm about a week since i caved

[DarkWingedAngel]

well im most deffinitally gonna cave in the nest 2 days
so yea

[ackmedsgirl666]

well im most deffinitally gonna cave in the nest 2 days
so yea
desi plz don't
u are doing so good hun
don't let something get you down
keep urself safe ur doing so well

[DaretoFallup]

*shrug* yes i'm back in this thread again, unfortunately.
4 mediumish

[ShatteredWings]

*hugs everybody*

if it wasn't self-inflicted (meaning.. it was an honest accident), but you let it re-open several times..is that self harm?
=| iguess there's NO way to explain this...even though i didn't intntionally do it it looks like done by something metal [which.. yeah it was] and is starting to get infected [*eyeroll* i'm getting too good at treting these]

[DarkWingedAngel]

errr i uhhh yea
did a crap load off deep ones on my leg
and about 10 really deep ones on my arm
they won't stop re-opening(i did em last night)
FUCK it was a baaaaad idea

[DaretoFallup]

errr i uhhh yea
did a crap load off deep ones on my leg
and about 10 really deep ones on my arm
they won't stop re-opening(i did em last night)
FUCK it was a baaaaad idea

*hug* DESI!!! I'm sorry.....I wish there was more I could do to help..


As for me: 3 deep

[OnlyByTheNight.]

4 on my arm... Not too deep though.

[MysticalBurrito]

What happen Eve? :(

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Im not sure... I just had a bad day really. Well at least I was cut free week for a week!

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug: =] lets see if you can beat that this time

[OnlyByTheNight.]

I hope I can but I'm feeling doubtful, tbh I keep reaching for every sharp object I see today.... But hopefully I can resist!

[Project Delta]

14 cuts on my arm, not that deep.
after 2 weeks. Damnit
i didnt even think i would cave :(
My parents just wouldnt leave me alone, and then threatened to take away my stuff because i didnt wanna do what they were telling me to.
also first time together with my new gf.... absolutely terrible :(

[DaretoFallup]

it was a bad night i didnt sleep at all (again) cant get up the courage to count just woke up on the floor with a blade in my hand

[ackmedsgirl666]

errr i uhhh yea
did a crap load off deep ones on my leg
and about 10 really deep ones on my arm
they won't stop re-opening(i did em last night)
FUCK it was a baaaaad idea
desi!!!!!!!!!!!
why why why?????

[Miss Punk]

Just cut. I don't even really care that I did it, I can live with it. Not as deep as have done.

[The Batman]

One cut on my arm it was an accident i just bought these razors and i put it on my arm and next thing i know it starts stinging five minutes later. Maybe it wasn't that much of an accident...

[DaretoFallup]

15ish


*edit*

10ishmoreish

[The Batman]

One on my leg not to deep but it was what i needed. I'm sorry Steph I lied i didn't get rid of them.

[DaretoFallup]

.......lalala.........2 deep

[-Silence]

I'm down.

[DaretoFallup]

3 deep 5 mediumish

[The Batman]

I did two more about 7 a.m.

[DaretoFallup]

uhhhhhhhhh...........Im not going to count

[OnlyByTheNight.]

12 long but not very deep ones
1 short but really deep one.

[Miss Punk]

Just cut, a few really deep ones, think I might've gone too far

[DaretoFallup]

a couple...or a few..

[Project Delta]

11 medium, scared i'll do more

[kt2369]

it has been about 11 days for me.. each day gets harder to resist that urge.
the last time was deep.. i just wanted my life to get better.

[MysticalBurrito]

:( 45 thigh deep

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Karina.... :hug:
I'm here if you want to talk hun, just PM me.

[MysticalBurrito]

:( I'm sorry Heidi I couldnt keep that promise...

14 arms and legs

[kt2369]

just now.
1 left leg deep.

I couldnt take it anymore... i cant believe i broke my promises...

[Project Delta]

1 deepish... arm

[Flutterfly]

5months lost to a bloody lip...

I bit my lip 5+ times and its bloody...
I failed... again

[Rosie]

6 left arm/shoulder deep ontop of old scars.
i was doing so well at keeping up with myself and not doing this
i've let myself down :(

[Flutterfly]

50+ scratches, right knee
10 shallow cuts, legs
4 medium, right knee over scratches
3 shallow, left side
1 shallow, right wrist

[BlackenedSilver]

Burn on my arm on friday.
Royally f**ked that up, 5 weeks now ruined. :/

[Lights]

Don't self harm guys, it's sooo not worth it!

[GreyxRainbow]

:hug: everyone.

[Maizda]

30 odd... left hip. most of them deep. I stopped only because it was getting messy. And i was in tears, i couldnt actuelly see from tears.

Could have done more.

[Project Delta]

*hugs mai*

[Maizda]

*hugs mai*

Thank you xxx

[Project Delta]

Anytime :)

[ShatteredWings]

yeah
Fuck.
i guess it is a cut...
didn't mean to..

three...
all very shallow.. .

[TaBear.]

right wrist 26
left wrist 23
pretty deep

the irony in being ambidextrous..

[ShatteredWings]

Today WOULD have been four weeks....
instead

five....

/rant - can ignore
it was the ONLY thing that was enough to calm down i mean like seriouslly.. i was beyond hysterical... it SHOULDNT be that cold...i was freaking out that my old cat wasnt in the bed... . shakcing so badly.. after the first cut..i stopped shaking.... dont ask why i kept going.