Self Harm Calendar

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[Axellance]

Oh no addison i really dony knoe what to say except keep trying to quit or cut less or something!!!!

[girlygirl]

12 on leg and 3 on each arm .......

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[spawn123]

why do u guys cut urself?

[Patchy]

again i ask why do u guys cut yourselves

Please do not ask the same question twice,

sometimes people get depressed or upset and turn to self-harming.

[girlygirl]

i dunno its just sometimes things get so hard to handle and thats the way i turn i wish i didnt but i do. i will quit some day soon i hope ....

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Don't just hope, girlygirl, do it. Get rid of what you use to cut, and find something healthy to replace it. Buy one of those little 100 piece puzzles (small enough not to frustrate you, but it may still take your mind off of cutting), find some books that sound interesting, buy a season of your favorite TV show on DVD, and from now on, that's what you'll go to when you're stressed out and want to cut. Some things may work, others may not, but if you kep trying you'll eventually find something.

Stay strong, you can do this. :) :hug:

[girlygirl]

thanx for trying to help but dnt u think i have tryed it all before and yet it still hasn't helped i dunno what else to do except keep trying and trying and trust me i do its just so hard especily right now.....

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[Patchy]

Aww Addison

Where did you get a scalpel from

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[spawn123]

i dunno its just sometimes things get so hard to handle and thats the way i turn i wish i didnt but i do. i will quit some day soon i hope ....
(EDIT) i take some item thats unuseful to me and i smash it to the bits and i can feel the rage i expressed at that point.Or u can go train an matrial arts sport a kick the hell outta ppl hope it helped.Oh and btw i experienced both martial arts and smashing old clocks and tvs :D

Edited by Atonement

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Spawn, they're not stabbing themselves to death either. Thats not what cutting is about.

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[theOperaGhost]

It's good to tell people. No offense but you need help. We're obviously here to help so if you need anything pm me. Addison, I don't know you, but you seem like an awesome guy. Just be strong. When I get pissed I listen to music or play piano that usually calms me down or I just talk to someone.

[Atonement]

Earlier today, before I ever told someone, I was really freaking out, and I started to play me Baritone Saxophone. I became well again. I am great now though!

[theOperaGhost]

good. music always helps me. Just resist it as much as you can. Some people write when they have to vent, maybe you could do that, maybe you hate writing I don't know. I personally hate writing. lol.

[electric7rocker]

addison whod you tell?

[electric7rocker]

i got really mad so i started punching myself in the face, like on my forehead/right above my eyebrow?, and it started to feel like my brain in the back was actually tingling. it was weird.. and i kept doing it. now theres a big bump of my forehead...... :/ but i feel kinda better

[Atonement]

Do not punch yourself, that could cause serious, life long injury, or give you a concussion. What is wrong?

[electric7rocker]

yeah i started to think about the more long term consequences when i was finished.... i went to therapy today (didnt tell her anything that i was supposed to) but i was feeling a little better... and then my mom was really pissing me off, and when i tried to get away from her to calm down she just kept following me and bugging me more and i was just so mad i wanted to punch something and my face was the closest thing.....

[Atonement]

:hug:

[electric7rocker]

:/ thanks.... i look like i have a protruding tumor on my head... o_O

[theOperaGhost]

Why did you get so mad?

[electric7rocker]

ive been depressed lately... and so i havent been eating or sleeping... and ive been getting really irritable. plus my mom told me i couldnt do something that ive been waiting to do for 2 years and i was pretty pissed.

[theOperaGhost]

You should eat and sleep more. Everyone needs sleep. When you become sleep deprive, you aren't yourself.

[electric7rocker]

i did notice that.... but i cant seem to sleep barely at all anymore...

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Try at least to lay down and close your eyes for a while. Even if you don't end up falling asleep, a cat nap can help you recharge a little. The less sleep you get, the more depressed and irritable you're likely to become. I know insomnia can be stubborn, though.

[girlygirl]

6-7 cuts on my arms quite deep ..........:(

[spawn123]

ive been depressed lately... and so i havent been eating or sleeping... and ive been getting really irritable. plus my mom told me i couldnt do something that ive been waiting to do for 2 years and i was pretty pissed.
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=20487
UH:D

HMMM WHY DONT U LISTEN TO MY ADVICE :confused::confused:

[Patchy]

UH HELLO GUY HATES HIMSELF SO HE CUTS HIMSELF OR IS THAT SOME KIND OF COMPETITION (NO OFFENSE TO ANY1)

HMMM WHY DONT U LISTEN TO MY ADVICE :confused::confused:

Please do not post in all capital letters and please don't triple post (just edit your last post)

and also for the record they do not have to take your advice if they don't want to so please stop hassling them about it

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Spawn, if you've never been a cutter it's hard to understand just how difficult it is to quit. You know how alcoholics can't just put down the bottle and walk away, or a smoker can't just stop buying cigarettes and be fine? It's the same thing with cutting, it becomes an addiction. And no it isn't a competition. There is a lot of guilt and shame associated with cutting, and it takes a lot to admit to it. I would appreciate it if you wouldn't hassle these teens who have managed to open up to us, and who could really benefit from some support right now.

[Atonement]

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[theOperaGhost]

Well, that's better than yesterday, Addison. Sorry. what happened?

[electric7rocker]

so remember how i hit myself in the head a whole lot yesterday?
today i couldnt remember my locker combination or which clothes i was wearing... i barely forget anything ever........

[theOperaGhost]

You should maybe get that checked out. You could have a concussion which is bad. I hope you get better.

[electric7rocker]

i told my mom i ran into a door... she said it probably wasnt a concussion... but i keep doing simple things wrong.....

[theOperaGhost]

I hope you feel better soon. :hug:

[electric7rocker]

thanks,
i got so angry today i shattered a bowl on the carpet and i had a total breakdown. my head started pounding and i just wanted to shoot myself to end all the pain. i didnt... but... i still feel awful. im hoping i sleep until sunday.

[Atonement]

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[Serenity]

:hug:

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[theOperaGhost]

did you hurt yourself Electric7rocker? I hope you sleep better. Addison, just ignore people, I don't pay attention to what anyone says, but I guess that would mean you would have to ignore us too, so I guess just ignore the people that piss you off.

[electric7rocker]

no... i wanted to though

[theOperaGhost]

Good job. I'm glad you didn't. Just fight the urge to hurt yourself. Stay strong.

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[theOperaGhost]

Sorry Addison. I think you keep posting on this thread because you want help and know you need help.

[sophies_justice]

10. pretty deep. i wish i hadn't done this, i wish i hadn't started up again.

[theOperaGhost]

:hug:

[Atonement]

None this time, but I still wanted to.

[theOperaGhost]

Sorry. :hug:

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[theOperaGhost]

That's bad. Dude get better man.

[Atonement]

lol better. I am sorry to say but I find that very unlikely to happen...

[theOperaGhost]

Alright whatever man. I'm still trying like I said.

[Serenity]

:hug:

We're here for you, Addi. Remember what I said about it getting worse before it gets better? You have to fight this harder than you've fought anything in your entire life. Fight it like your very existence depends on it because that is truly what it may come down to if you continue like this. You have to be strong, and I know you can be if you just believe in yourself.

[strongheart]

22
medium
stomach

I had a bad night, I saw someone I didn't ever want to again and my friend was talking behind my back. I'm sorry. but it made it possible to do my homework.

[theOperaGhost]

:hug:

[Atonement]

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[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Well, Addison, let's make that your goal for this time, to make it at least 4 days. You can do it! :hug:

[The Batman]

Addison just take it 1 day at a time and don't try and do to many things at once I have faith in you and I know you can make it to 4 days

[theOperaGhost]

Three days was good. Now try for four. You can do eet!

[electric7rocker]

i saw a video on the "to write love on her arms" myspace, renee (the girl that inspired the beginning of the organization) was talking about staying sober. she said that once someone asked her how long she was gonna stay sober, and she said the rest of her life, and that really scared her. so now shes says "just today. i just gotta make it through today"

so just take one day at a time you can do it

www.twloha.com
www.myspace.com/towriteloveonherarms

[sophies_justice]

17, one for each year of my life. pretty deep, but i feel better now. for the moment anyway...

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

:hug: Sophie. We're all here for you.

[girlygirl]

well i have just blown 5 days out of the window.....

13 up my arms..... quite shallow tho .....

[girlygirl]

uh oh another 6 on my left arm...........:(

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Keep working on it, girlygirl. You can do this! :hug:

[theOperaGhost]

Keep trying to stop. you can do it.

[sophies_justice]

14. deep. digging myself farther and farther into this hole and farther and farther away from any kind of escape...

[theOperaGhost]

We'll all throw in a rope to help pull you out of your hole. We're all here for you. :hug:

[jma94]

I'm rather new here, but anway, here goes

~20 times
~Upper left arm
~shallow-medium

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[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

But 5 days is longer than you went before, isn't it? That's good progress! Try for at least 6 days this time, you can do it! You're getting there, Addison! :hug:

[The Batman]

whats causing these slips addison

[electric7rocker]

lost count at about 30... all of them one on top of eachother to make it deeper....

it was a pretty sudden switch from the other one to this one.......


it wasnt enough.... my blade isnt sharp enough. i wanted to bleed more.

[electric7rocker]

*sorry for the double post, i wasnt sure if editing would suffice?

found another blade... cut deeper, bled more
felt better

[theOperaGhost]

Electric7rocker you made it a LONG time. I hope you quit again.

:hug:

[electric7rocker]

but the 100 days meant nothing

i hate myself

[theOperaGhost]

The 100 days meant that you could stop. You shouldn't hate yourself.

[electric7rocker]

i hate myself
im so stupid

[theOperaGhost]

You need to have confidence in yourself.

[The Batman]

your not stupid your hurting

[electric7rocker]

to be honest... i never really thought about it that way.
because i feel stupid.... and i hate myself for being stupid, and i got really mad for giving in after so long... now i feel like i cant quit, even if i think i can. that i wont.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Think about it. Is it better to quit for 100 days and have one slip-up? Or to cut every day for 100 days? You've proven to yourself that quitting is possible. Now this time you just have to make it a little longer. And if you slip again, well, then you aim to o longer still. You gotta pick yourself back up and keep trying. You can do it. :)

[theOperaGhost]

You can quit again. Everybody has relapses whether they're alcoholics, druggies, whatever.
It's very hard to quit completely, but it is possible and you can do it.

[sophies_justice]

11 and counting. deep. i hate myself so much, so, so much. i just want to bleed and bleed and bleed until there isn't any blood left in me.

[Atonement]

Oh love, that isnt the way.

:hug:

Feel better!

[sophies_justice]

its the only way thats working right now though.

[Atonement]

Maybe right now, but you need to find a new way. And soon!

[sophies_justice]

i don't have any other ways.

[theOperaGhost]

Kinda late, but I hope your feeling better. :hug:

[electric7rocker]

stopped counting at 10... didnt care.
top of left wrist, slightly deeper than yesterdays
im falling further into this again.....

i miss my dad

[japanman]

:( well im glad you posted but more cuts and you miss your dad. why do you miss you dad

[Malcolm Tucker]

Well I am progressing further backwards into unfamiliar territory :\

I started digging my right nails into my left forearm, no blood, just impressions,about 15 since Monday. It doesn't hurt. It's supposed to though. I'm so confused.

[Atonement]

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[electric7rocker]

my dad cheated on my mom and so they split up... its going towards a divorce.
i only get to see him once a week... but he pretends like nothing ever happened. so he makes the same jokes, that are now more awkward and uncomfortable. i tried to talk to him about it, and he just made it into a joke. and he only comes over when my moms gone, and then as soon as she gets home he leaves, and i feel like he cant want to spend that much time with me. cuz my mom didnt hurt him. its the other way around.....

i just miss him... neither of us are the same and i hate it.

[Malcolm Tucker]

Uck, another 4 digs on my right arm this time.

[tombstonequeen]

i don't get cutting

[theOperaGhost]

i don't get cutting

Some people just have so much anger that they take it out on themselves. It's kind of like drugs and alcohol. It deverts their mind to the physical pain and away from the mental pain.

I hope all went well today Addison.
Electric7rocker, get better. :hug:
Michael it sounds like your anxious about something.

[tombstonequeen]

its stupid

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

It may seem stupid to you, and yes it's not the smartest move to make, but it is a real addiction. The physical harm releases endorphins, hormones that can temporarily relieve stress and emotional tension. Some people may cut because they feel emotionally numb, and they feel that the physical pain reminds them that they're alive, since they seem incapable of feeling anything else. The exact reasons vary, but for some people cutting seems to help. It's all short-term of course though, prompting them to cut again, and again, and soon they can't stop. They've taught themselves that cutting makes them feel better, and they feel like they won't be able to cope without it. It's hard to understand unless you've been there.

I am not, however, condoning self-harm. The purpose of the self-harm sub-forum is not to brag about it, but to raise awareness and to provide support. Almost everyone who cuts realizes on some level just how bad it is for them. They know they're risking serious blood loss, infection, and even death, just as an alcoholic knows they're risking liver and kidney disease (among other things), but when it feels like the only thing that makes life bearable, it's hard to give it up. It takes a lot of hard work, and they need all the support they can get. Feel free to ask questions if you don't understand, but I would appreciate it if you wouldn't say it's stupid. It makes the recovery process a lot harder when people look down on you even though you're trying to get better.

[tombstonequeen]

i know what it is -_-
i just don't get the point
i smack my friend around when she did it
its pointless
what makes me mad is that its a trend now

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Unfortunately it is becoming trendy. However, that's a different deal. Those who self-harm because it's "cool" often just want the attention. By waving their scars around, they encourage others to poke fun at them, and to label everyone who harms themselves as "emo". Someone who has a real problem with hurting themselves, won't go around showing it to people. They will go to almost any lengths to cover their scars, and will fabricate elaborate stories to explain it when they are found out. There is a lot of guilt and shame associated with this, that many people don't realize. These days, many cutters are afraid to get help because they don't want to be labeled "emo" or laughed at. Thanks to these attention-seekers, an already difficult problem is becoming harder and harder to treat. I assure you though, the majority of kids I've seen here are not asking for attention or trying to be cool. They're trying to cope with life in the only way they know how, and need our support to get back on track.

[theOperaGhost]

Let's not start an argument here tombstonequeen. We get your opinion, but that's your opinion and we all have our own.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

I'm not trying to argue, just to clarify. I'm sorry if it came across that way. I just want it to be understood that this is a real problem for many individuals, not just some trend. I'll drop it now.

[tombstonequeen]

eh
i know
and i will voice my opinion as well
and right now i don't have the time and day to explain what cutting means to me i have done it once and that was to carve initials in my ankle

[electric7rocker]

i have a really bad headache, partly stress, partly.. headache. im thinking if i cut itll relieve the stress so my head doesnt hurt so bad and i can sleep.
i know youre gonna tell me not to but it hurts really bad.
plus today sucked.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Cutting won't help the headache, I don't think. It my relieve some stress, but I don't think it'll be enough for the headache. Have you taken some ibuprofin? In the future maybe pick up some Excedrin Tension Headache, works for me (if you're sensitive to caffeine though, don't take it before bed). I hope you feel better. :hug:

[japanman]

i have a really bad headache, partly stress, partly.. headache. im thinking if i cut itll relieve the stress so my head doesnt hurt so bad and i can sleep.
i know youre gonna tell me not to but it hurts really bad.
plus today sucked.

ok well i am going to support this my way now i have done reserch on tings about cutting even ask ppl who did.
yout headach wont get better with a cut what will happen is youll feel a little better but youll lose blood wich bad now to cheer you up here :fall::banana2::banana2::banana2::banana2::banana2:

i hope you feelbetter try a hobbie mabye a nap or tv or music but something other than cutting. ill be back

hey lithium chain what happened to your legs?

[Malcolm Tucker]

Michael it sounds like your anxious about something.

Anxious? Not at all. I'm fucked up at the moment. I can't let anyone know. Thus I started again to hurt myself physically :\

[electric7rocker]

dont count anymore
top of left wrist
again, deeper than yesterday

got pissed off... im miserable and lonely and really... no one cares.

[theOperaGhost]

Sorry :hug: get better.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

dont count anymore
top of left wrist
again, deeper than yesterday

got pissed off... im miserable and lonely and really... no one cares.

:hug: I care! Honestly, I want to see you get better. And I know you can. :)

[theOperaGhost]

:hug: I care! Honestly, I want to see you get better. And I know you can. :)

I care too. I think we all want to see you get better and we all care.

[electric7rocker]

my friend started lecturing me and telling me that im not trying hard enough to quit. she asked me why i wasnt trying hard enough... and she was acting really angry. she told me over and over again "youre not trying hard enough. try harder." "youre drowning yourself in self-pity." it cant be self pity... i dont pity myself. i hate myself. what can i say to her? i told her i dont pity myself, and she said "if thats what you want to believe...."

it just makes me so angry i want to shoot myself.

[theOperaGhost]

It sounds like your friend cares about you. It sounds like she wants you to stop cutting. Tell her the truth. Tell her you hate yourself. That shouldn't sound like self pity to me. I just think she's trying to help.

[jma94]

Eh-heh... I havn't told many people that I've even started cutting. None of my closest friends know. It was too hard to tell someone I cared a lot about whenever I tried. So I went online...

~Today
~Countless times
~Some shallow, some medium, some deep.

[tombstonequeen]

and why are u cuttin urself?

[electric7rocker]

i like the way it feels. it makes me feel relief and i love to watch the blood flow

[japanman]

i read your post eiler and well its causs you wont stop im sry but i think the only way to get her to stop is for you to stop please stop.:(

[theOperaGhost]

That almost made no sense Jacob, but I think I know what your saying. Electric7rockers friend won't quit bothering her and telling her she has self pity until she stops cutting. Is that what your saying?

[japanman]

yes thats exactly what im saying.

[tombstonequeen]

i was gonna give advice today but what i have to say will just piss ppl off and make them more upset
how about been there done that and don't know if i will go back

[girlygirl]

6-10 on my left arm..........:(

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

:hug: Be strong girlygirl, we're here for you.

[theOperaGhost]

:hug: Keep your head up and fight the urge girlygirl.

[sophies_justice]

29 on my right arm. very deep. i want to do more...i hate this!

[theOperaGhost]

:hug:
Don't do anymore. Get better hun

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

:hug: You can do this Sophie, I KNOW you can. :) Just keep trying. We're here for you every step of the way.

[electric7rocker]

didnt count... on both sides of my right leg, and very small one on my hand...

didnt bleed enough... barely at all. i wanted pools of it.

[tombstonequeen]

blah redid my fiancée's initials on my left ankle

[theOperaGhost]

:hug: *hugs both tombstonequeen and electric7rocker*

[electric7rocker]

im gonna fucking kill myself.



a couple on my right leg... relatively short and shallow...
used my knife this time instead of a razor
felt wayyy better
more of a dull aching pain instead of sharp and stinging.
still bled... not enough.

so fucking pissed off today.

[theOperaGhost]

Please don't kill yourself! Nobody wants you to be gone, hopefully not even yourself.
Don't do anything regretable.
Stay strong!

[Atonement]

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[theOperaGhost]

What kind of burns Addison? Cigarette, lighter, match, what? Burns might be worse than cutting.
At least your fantastic. Get better Addi.

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[theOperaGhost]

Don't apologize. Nobody should like posting on this thread. Please stop burning yourself. I'm not worried that much about the scratching, but the burning is really bad.
Stay strong. I know everybody else says that, but that's all I can think of.

[japanman]

im gonna repet it stay strong i know you can stop burning you just gotta stay strong.

[electric7rocker]

very very lightly on left wrist. barely made a mark.... dont even know why.

[Malcolm Tucker]

very very lightly on left wrist. barely made a mark.... dont even know why.

Did the same. Got into an argument and I did that too. Only 26ish times

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[theOperaGhost]

I'm glad you looked for help, but I'm sorry you didn't find any. Get better Addison.

[Malcolm Tucker]

Did the same. Got into an argument and I did that too. Only 26ish times

Yeah hope you're doing ok Addison :)

Oh and the above. I wrote "Mick is in Pain" on my arm. I count 27

[theOperaGhost]

Get better Michael.

[Malcolm Tucker]

I hope so....

[japanman]

I think i discovered something that may help but im not sure.
Well i was bored and i started to scratch my arm at first i thought it was just an itch but i found that i couldint stop i liked the feeling and i was about to bleed. i looked away and tried to play cards and slowly but surley i stopped and i didnt want to scratch myself anymore.
So i think mabye if your harming yourself mabye try to occupie yourself or doing something else.
just a thought.

[Atonement]

I think i discovered something that may help but im not sure.
Well i was bored and i started to scratch my arm at first i thought it was just an itch but i found that i couldint stop i liked the feeling and i was about to bleed. i looked away and tried to play cards and slowly but surley i stopped and i didnt want to scratch myself anymore.
So i think mabye if your harming yourself mabye try to occupie yourself or doing something else.
just a thought.

OMG! in the hospital, this is what happened to me, exactly. I would start to "itch" my arm. And I would get droplets of blood and convince myself to stop. Then, I would take out a deck of complimentary cards from the hospital and play cards. It kept me sane.

[theOperaGhost]

:hug: You made it a while before cutting, but not without selfharm. It could have been worse. Just try to stay strong and stop hurting yourself addison. You need to find something to side track your mind away from hurting yourself.

[japanman]

Its ok addison just keep on fuighting the urge ;)

[Atonement]

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[theOperaGhost]

you can stop, it's possible, you tell people that all the time. It's just not going to be easy to stop.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

You can do it, Addison, I know it. You know it too, deep down. Just keep trying. We're all here for you. :hug:

[Zephyr]

We're cheering you on hun = )

[electric7rocker]

i found a really sharp knife.
i havent used it yet cuz my dads still here... but i know i will.
i know youre going to try and stop me. but i need it.

[Atonement]

Dear lord hun. Please put it away. I know I am a hypocrite and everything. But dont do something you will regret. It is a permanent solution for a long term problem. Please, my dear, do not do it. Tell your dad now before he leaves. Stay with him, make him stay. PLEASE!

[electric7rocker]

hes watching a movie with my brother.

a year ago, when i cut myself, i bled a lot, no matter how shallow. now, i barely bleed. no matter how deep. why?

not enough... barely bleeding. im not stopping.

[japanman]

No no no plz stop :( if you wanna see blood watch a gorry movie just please dont hurt yourself drop the knife resist plz fight grab something else like a game just fight plz.:(

[electric7rocker]

scratched my leg with my nails.... 3 places. loved it... it got really red, almost bled... i think the color was enough for tonight.... i want to die so bad.

[japanman]

Im glad you not too hurt for tonight but pleas stay strong we are here if you want help:(

[electric7rocker]

there is nothing i want more than to die.

[thesphinx]

Talk to use about it electric we can help you what's wrong?

[electric7rocker]

im alone

[Malcolm Tucker]

Rowan listen. I know you want to die. I also know you don't. Even if it doesn't seem like it now, things can, no will get better. Trust me. There are always 1000000 things that are worth living for. Please don't do it :hug:

[japanman]

ya thers things worth living for for all we know you could possibly change the world so plz dont we are here for you:)


ps unknown user watch what you say

[theOperaGhost]

Please don't kill yourself hun. Like Michael said, even if it might not seem like there is anything to live for now, but things will get better. Sometimes life sucks, but keep your head up and things will get better.

[japanman]

yep life sucks but its wat you do with it that matters.
if you live a nice life then life will suck less but live a bad life and it will suck more.
and thats why your here b/c you cutting, hurting, or alone. but you came here so now we just gotta help ya so your not alone we are here for you.
you have a reason to live:)

[electric7rocker]

i dont want to feel anything anymore... i just want to be gone.

[japanman]

Ill i can say is stay stay strong :(

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

You can make it through this, I know you can. I hate to use myself as an example because I know everyone and every situation is different, but there was a time when I didn't think I could keep going, either. But somehow I was able to keep pushing onward, and now my life is better than it ever was. Your life can get better, too. Give things a chance to turn up, and try to stay as positive as you can. There is always something worth living for. And I know you have it in you to stick this out. :hug:

[electric7rocker]

2 more scratches, slightly bigger and deeper than yesterday. one on my leg... one on my face.

[japanman]

I know wat thats like i used to have anxiety really bad and beacause of that i would scratch my legs and arms raw.. but thats over i got over it
I know you can do it i know you can resist yoou can do it :hug:

[Atonement]

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[japanman]

no cuts yaa. scratches :(. burns:(.
Stay strong addison ypu can resist.:hug:

[sophies_justice]

8. deep. i want out.

[japanman]

ouchy its ok you can get out i know you can :hug:

[electric7rocker]

i want to kill myself so bad.
i see no point in living.


one more scratch on my hip... bigger... idk how deep.

how badly i wish i could cut along my arms....

[Zephyr]

Don't give in, it's not worth it.
No matter how bad things seem,
It will get better = )

[electric7rocker]

it hasnt yet. ive wanted to kill myself almost every day for the past.... like year or so. it hasnt gotten better. if anything its gotten worse.

[Zephyr]

I know it seems like that, I've felt the same way before.
Try finding the positives in everything before the negatives,
That helped me out tremendously.

[electric7rocker]

nevermind

[electric7rocker]

another scratch on my leg... i have to write this fucking essay and its worth like 55% of my final grade and its stressing me out soo much. ughhh i ust started it today and its due on monday and its so fucking annoying.

[theOperaGhost]

Just relax about the essay, it might be important, but it's nothing to hurt yourself about

[Star_boi]

1 medium left wrist 3 shallow left wrist 1 deep right hand after a month without it :(

[Atonement]

5 cuts, thigh, pretty deep... I WAS okay until it happened. But now, I feel ten times worse for giving in.

[NextToNormal]

its been really long since i have. right now, i feel like im just going to give in at any minute. i know that i shouldnt, but i just cant take things anymore. i dont really feel the need to be here anymore.

[Serenity]

:hug: of course you need to be here! We still have an outing in NYC to go on, for one thing. Plus you're an amazing person and a great friend and the world is a better place while you're in it :daisy:

[NextToNormal]

aaww thanks val. youre about the only person that thinks that of me right now. :hug:

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

No, I think so too! :hug: You'll make it through this and it'll be great.

[Atonement]

....

[theOperaGhost]

:hug: for Addison
Keep trying to stop Addison, you can do it.
:hug: for Walking Contridiction
Your important to a lot of people. Please don't hurt yourself.

[Axellance]

9 cuts on my left wrist shallow. now i get to star all over!! Good thing i couldnt find my favorite tool or it would have been far worse.

[Atonement]

....

[theOperaGhost]

Addison is right, Lance, you are a great guy.

P.S. No it isn't as bad as cutting, but keep trying to stop, Addison, because you're a great guy too.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

:hug: Addison, Lance, I know you guys can get through this!!! You both are great guys, and you have the power to stop this.

[Atonement]

I am not a great guy. I am just some guy in the big scheme of things. I am unimportant and useless. I deserve what I do to myself.

[theOperaGhost]

I think you're a great guy, and nobody deserves what you do to yourself. Everybody is important, and I've seen you help a lot of people on VT, so your not useless.