Self Harm Calendar

[YesterdaysNews]

Three
edit make that six
Plus "FAT"
Edit now eleven.
Cutting stops my tears.

[Kaius]

25 semi deep

[FullyAlive]

Last night wasnt good;
4 medium depth left thigh,
3 shallow left wrist,
Sorry but I feel lots better now.

[Kaius]

17 more on my legs

[FullyAlive]

I'm just not very good at stopping 3 nights in a row and tbh I don't care anymore... I can't help myself
5 inner left thigh semi deep
3 upper left arm deep
I'll try to stop again sometime soon....I think...

[LittleEpidemic]

5 Right leg

[ShatteredWings]

4 or 5, both arms and leg. nothing deep. Don't remember when where or why.

[Kaius]

8 on my arms

[georgiamay]

last night, 1 medium right hip.
3 medium and 1 shallow left hip.

[Kaius]

4 deep on my hands

[FullyAlive]

I hate this!
Last night/early morning: 19 left thigh
Today: 23 right thigh, 5 left ankle
Somehow I don't think I'm finished yet...feeling awful...

[FullyAlive]

7 more left thigh
10 more right thigh
I can't do this anymore...
I hate myself!
:(

I'm sorry I just realized I double posted, didn't mean too, wasn't really concentrating, again sorry.

[Tankinx91]

5 deep ones on my wrist, sadly more to come tonight and i know it.

[YesterdaysNews]

nine so far

[Magenta]

Carved a V into the palm of my hand. Still going at it.

[RAWWR]

10-medium depth :(

[Bath]

Last night around 3am.
5 on my right thigh, and 2 shallow ones on the left.

[Kaius]

5 on my wrist

[Bath]

More. one deep on my right thigh, two medium-deep on my left.

[Alexithymia]

Four, on my thigh. Ugh.

[Nevermore]

During the winter break I've managed to give into self harm 4-5 days out of 11.
This consisted of at least 25 on my left ankle- shallow.
Above 70 total on left arm ranging from shallow-deep.
I've purpusely bruised myself on a few occasions. It's just been a bad two weeks for me. :(

[YesterdaysNews]

Last night this is how it went down:
One for you, one for her. Oh and one more to make it an uneven three. And two to bleed.

Three just now.

[Bath]

- At least four on my right thigh.
- two shallow ones on my stomach.
- three on my left thigh.

Most blood I've lost at once.. felt relaxing.... it's terrible..

[Love.Hate]

43 left thigh :(

[MadManWithaBox]

115, cos he said 3 for luck. They don't let you do anything on this ward.

[Love.Hate]

One more on my wrist as i was throwing the razor away. :/

[Kaius]

two on my wrist

[FullyAlive]

Last night 10 right hip
This morning 6 left leg
:/

[LittleEpidemic]

A few on my leg just for fun a few days ago
Sidenote: this isnt a sticky anymore?

[Fiction]

No, we decided it isn't the best idea to record your cuts in the forum as it can be triggering to others.

[LittleEpidemic]

No, we decided it isn't the best idea to record your cuts in the forum as it can be triggering to others.

But isnt any cut discussion triggering? "/

[Fiction]

Most of them have a reason for asking for help. This doesn't. Also this goes into detail about the cuts which is more triggering. If anyone wants to continue this conversation, take it to pm. Thanks.

[Nevermore]

3 last night. 1 shallow, 1 meduim, 1 the deepest i've ever gone. I didn't realize it would cause that much damage. :(

[LittleEpidemic]

Last night
6
On my arm
Icky thoughts, needed the release ><

[Love.Hate]

5 on thigh :(

[RAWWR]

Last night-163 :(

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

3 scratches on my left forearm.
No blood, just marks
I was so sick of all the comments about my weight, sigh two days scratch free down the drain,.

[lightkun]

I feel like this thread has almost no point. It hasn't really helped me or anyone else (that I have seen)

[RAWWR]

I dunno, I think it's helped me because I have used it to keep track of my self harm and then reduce it, although maybe the thread should be stickied again, but with a new thing that everyone who posts has to say how they could have prevented it, so that way it kinda helps with recovery for the next time?

[Alexithymia]

I agree with nicole. It does help, because it makes me realize what I've done.

[Fiction]

Please could we keep this thread on topic.
It has been unstickied due to it being a triggering thread, as I said above, if you want to continue this discussion, please take it to PM.

[Bath]

a few shallow ones on my right thigh.

[anamcara]

18, quite shallow, left forearm :(

[Alexithymia]

Don't really want to count. Left and right forearm. Carved "Fat" onto my thigh.

[whereismymind]

1 on the top of my leg :(

[Njathind]

Four shallow on my right leg :cry:

[Nevermore]

Too many to count :( left arm, mostly meduim- shallow. :(

[HeroesAndCons]

Right thigh
deep 8

[FullyAlive]

Yesterday: lots all over my leg (around 20-30)
Today: about another 20 on my leg again :/

[The Dudeh]

4 or 5 on my arm, shallow.

[RAWWR]

Erm, well-a lot over the last few days.... :(

[Bath]

Four shallow ones on my left wrist. Barely bled and look like scratches, so I guess that's a good thing..

[Magenta]

21 rather deep on my thigh... from my hip to my knee. One shallow scratch on my stomach.

[Charleigh]

14th January
-Right wrist
-2 cut's
-Deepish

[FullyAlive]

21 left leg, in a lesson as in I didn't even leave the room :/ I feel so shit but a part of me thinks it was worth it.

[rockrooster11]

9 left wrist, medium deep. That's 20 Days wasted :/

[Charleigh]

Yesterday
-Top of ma' leg
-Medium shallow
-14 cuts

[Love.Hate]

Right thigh/ right hip.
42 I think. Idk could be more :/

[FullyAlive]

15, stomach/left hip, 10 right hip, 20 right thigh

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 deep, and about 4 more I forgot about. It's just a haze. That cold be an understatement.

[YesterdaysNews]

I'm sorry, I had to.

[Charleigh]

Just now
-Left wrist
-Medium deep
-2 cuts

[YesterdaysNews]

yeah, like 4 on the thigh, fat on the stomach and one on the wrist.
going to do more.

[Emmacat]

Eight, shallow, left arm. Four deep, right arm, 13 deep right leg, 5 shallow, left leg, 7 right palm, shallow.

Ow >.< wish I could stop

[YesterdaysNews]

went crazy last night, mostly not much more than scratches, but there was blood.

lol 1700th post.

[Magenta]

Someone's name into my hip. Medium deep. Making sure it scars.

[ErykaInspire.]

26 days. <3

[Nevermore]

In the last two weeks, I've carved HATE deep into my ankle with many cuts. I cut my left arm too many times to count from my wrist to my elbow. :(

[RAWWR]

Erm, too many to count. My arms all swollen and I can hardly move it, I'm struggling to type :(

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

1 cut on my forearm

[FullyAlive]

Last night: 8 stomach
This morning: 12 left ankle

[Ambrosia]

One. I've ran out of room on my arm that won't show from beneath any of my overshirts that are long sleeve. I need to let the 25-something cuts heal.

[Love.Hate]

Last night-
Over 30 shallow ones,
And one deep.. that still hurts :S

[Alexithymia]

A tiny one on my thigh.

[YesterdaysNews]

A couple more on writst. rewrote fat. and ass. another on thigh.

[Njathind]

A fair few deep ones to the left wrist and arm, I counted 11 :cry2:

[RAWWR]

3 more, deep.

[Malcolm Tucker]

2. Earlier. I needed them. I deserved them.

[Alexithymia]

Too many. Thighs. Mmm.

[-Silence]

Wasn't the point of unstickying this so it would die?
Fail.

[Syvelocin]

Eventually, that's what we're hoping for. It wouldn't be ideal to just lock the thing and everyone who does enjoy using it wouldn't have access to it anymore.

At least with it not being stickied we show that we're not supporting it, unlike the more optimistic non-self harm calendar which has little potential to trigger and full encouragement to recover.

[-Silence]

Oh I agree totally, when this thread was started there was support, not just post and post of the same thing.

[Alexithymia]

I personally agree with the idea of not locking this. Occasionally, I enjoy posting what I cut in order to clear my mind. If we suddenly lock the thread, people who do what I do will find that they have no where to go. Right now I believe we are in the transition of using this and doing something that might be telling someone else through PMs or by using something that you can privately record what you did.

Also, sorry about the useless post. I just wanted to keep questions of this thread to a minimum.

[Fiction]

If anyone wants to continue this conversation about reasons, please take it to pm so that we don't clog up the thread. Thanks :)

[Aceso]

I don't know if this is just for cutting, but here goes.
5 burns, shallow (1st degree).
Carved 'Bitch' Onto my side. Medium

[FullyAlive]

I cut pathetic, fucked up bitch, into my leg took some time :/
7 other cuts stomach :(
Almost forgot 2 on arm before I realized

[enjoying_my_insanity]

i did 2 on my wrist i had gone 34 days (or something like that) without cutting but i fucking up and they look decently bad...ugh

[HeroesAndCons]

5 times
shallow
left shoulderr

[Dark_Hellfire]

2
right arm
medium

[Aceso]

15, 2 deep, the rest shallow-mediumish.
On backs of legs and hips.
1st - 2nd degree burning. :(

[RAWWR]

32, shallow-medium, right arm

[Kitty]

3 medium on my right thigh with glass.

[YesterdaysNews]

did some yesterday. While we were talking too, how much did you notice?

[FullyAlive]

Friday- 8 left thigh
Saturday- 15 right hip
Today- 23 right thigh
That's only so far I expect I'll do more, i just can't fucking help myself

[rockrooster11]

5 Shallow, Left arm.
And about 50 dots from stabbing myself with my compass.

[Magenta]

Two. Almost my face... Went for my hair line instead.

[Nevermore]

So I caved again over 100 total. I carved the word fat deep into my thigh. The rest are on my left arm. I have shallow and meduim cuts from my shoulder to elbow, both sides of my arm. On the lower part I have deeper ones on both sides. :( FML!!

[Ambrosia]

Two shallow-right arm. There's a first for everything and my right arm has never been explored. Never again, either.
3 deep-left arm. I gave up on my right one.

[RAWWR]

Last night-42
this morning-6

[Aceso]

8
about 6 deep
2 deep-medium
Back of left upper thigh.
I wanted to go deeper. :/

[Malcolm Tucker]

I was pushed over the edge in school.

14, medium/deep.

[Ambrosia]

One on my leg from Sunday night broke open this morning. I'm not sure how. So it's like a whole new cut. One very painful cut.

[RAWWR]

erm. about 130 :(

[FullyAlive]

50+ thighs, 10 hip, I hate myself I really do, I just I want it all to stop, I want it all to end.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

scratches...during school...damned school pushing me over the edge

[YesterdaysNews]

I don't know how many I've done, but I'm not bleeding.
WHY AM I NOT BLEEDING?

[RAWWR]

Last night:
Around 30

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Failed again tonight. second time this week. *sigh*

[RAWWR]

last night:
two, deep

[FullyAlive]

So I managed to hold off for 4 hours but the urge just didn't go away. I didn't do as much as I was going to so I suppose that's something.
23 thighs
6 stomach
12 left hip

[Keats]

10 thigh - deepish
5 chest - shallow

[Love.Hate]

Three on thigh.
:( there quite deep

[Nevermore]

4 on my left arm... deep.. :(

[RAWWR]

4 on my right arm, 3 medium, 1 deep. :(

[FullyAlive]

One on my arm, I forgot to carry my stuff with me and had to get bandages off a teacher it was humiliating :( I WILL STOP

[Ambrosia]

Two on my left leg. Waiting until tomorrow to go for my wrist again.

[Love.Hate]

5 quite shallow..
More to come later.. :/

[Lost n not yet found]

6 on my arms :( it was all going soo well.........

[charlotte945]

5 times
left arm
very shallow

[Unwanted_Different]

lvoe me on my ankle left ankle, <3 on my left arm along with several small shallow cuts.

[RAWWR]

last night:
one, deep, right arm.

[districtnowhere]

6 small-ish ones which wont stop bleeding

[districtnowhere]

Im sorry... Going at it again....

[Nevermore]

2 on my left arm.. :(

[districtnowhere]

some more on my left arm.

[rockrooster11]

4 deep, left arm

[Nevermore]

pulled out six eye lashes.... a few moments ago :(

[Love.Hate]

Yesterday about 20 on left arm.
Today about 40.. This is too hard. But at least its keeping me alive.. :/

[Bath]

Haven't cut "for real" in I guess a month, but today got really upset and with a safety pin scratched "done" into my stomach. It didn't bleed but I'm still upset that I did it.

[Dark_Hellfire]

Well, back to 0 days.

2 cuts on my neck and one on my cheek

[YesterdaysNews]

A lot.

[Keats]

a shit-tonne on my thigh.
2-6mm

[Fresh_morning_air]

About 30 long ones on my hip.. won't stop bleeding.

[YesterdaysNews]

a couple during my bath. idk why

[enjoying_my_insanity]

clawed at my arm....it wouldnt bleed even tho when i did that to someone else (long story of my strange violence) they bled....weird...and i lost my blade -nervous-

[Fresh_morning_air]

3 really deep on my air..
I think one needs stitches

[kalerne]

2/15/11

Right Shoulder

7 times

shallow

[Bath]

5 shallow on left thigh, one deep one on right thigh.

[katniss.everdean]

3 on my let arm

[Malcolm Tucker]

5 ish. One very deep. Not sorry, I deserved them and then some.

[UnknownError]

5 ish. One very deep. Not sorry, I deserved them and then some.

I don't deserve them, nobody does. Don't say that. (:

[Malcolm Tucker]

Nope. I did.

[Magenta]

421. Left arm, medium-shallow.

Why does that seem like an accomplishment?

[enjoying_my_insanity]

one very very shallow...snapped a rubber band on my wrist a lot....i found my blade again

[FullyAlive]

I was having a really good day until mother dearest decided she would talk to me
15 right thigh
15 left thigh
10 stomach
And wrote fuck on my thigh too :/

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

carved slut on my arm deepest I've ever done

[FullyAlive]

20+ (I stopped counting then) left ankle



Edit: 21st Feb
10 stomach relatively small but deeper than usual :/

And again 115 legs I just couldn't stop, I'm starting to get scared I want to do more.

[Nevermore]

I failed twice this past weekend. Can't count how many... too many. I didn't want to stop until I did I deep one, never got a deep one, wasn't brave enough.

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

too many i dont know which are old and which are new but their on my forarm dammit i told myself to cut on my thigh

[Nevermore]

20+ on my calves 3 on my forearm.

[Ambrosia]

Two medium deep, left thigh. One really deep right wrist. Fuck school =/

[Malcolm Tucker]

3, quite painful on my arm

So not done yet.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

one on my forearm....ive given up completly on caring

[Nevermore]

10 + both arms.

[oopsy's]

5 deep on my wrist :(

[Malcolm Tucker]

At least 15. All deep.

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

7 on my arm

[icanbarelybreathe]

Three, super deep, on my wrist. One was still bleeding the next morning.

[Malcolm Tucker]

One, on my wrist. :/

[MysticalBurrito]

2, On my ankle. Shallow, Saturday night.
My parents check my now so... I'm at the verge of tearing myself up from the urges. =/

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

11 on my forarm

[LozziRAWR]

six shallow-medium on my upper arm, eight a bit deeper than scratches on my left wrist, 50+medium-deep on my hips within the last week :/

[ShatteredWings]

an obsurd number on my arm, none really breaking the skin. it looks like 2 or 3 have actually bleed.

>.> im cutting in school again

[Malcolm Tucker]

I snapped. Heard voices screaming at me to cut. Let's see.

9 on forearm
3 on wrist
10+ on stomach
10+ on thighs

fuck it all.

[icanbarelybreathe]

About 20 on my leg in school on Monday.
Ten on my arm this morning.
Woo.

[numbo]

1 shallow ring all around my wrist so it can be hidden with a bobble
new tactic :(

[oopsy's]

2 ish deep on my wrist in school

[Nevermore]

pulled out over 10 eyelashes :'( i'm sorry..

[LozziRAWR]

17 minutes ago, left hand, about 1/2 a cm deep three words;
yesterday left hand, deep, once

[rukia_yua]

4...............

[KirstieKins]

I Last chose to do it last week. Failed a retake exam, all the stress mounted up all at once, thought I would have no future because I failed this one exam. Cut the fuck out of my arm... 9 deepish across my lower arm.

However I last subconsciously did it two nights ago (AKA, I did it in my sleep... I sleep cut or what ever you wanna call it) If I don't do it tonight, its a record for me :)

[enjoying_my_insanity]

uh does hitting my head on a table a few times count? it didnt bruise or hurt much but i did it on purpose...

[Malcolm Tucker]

About 20 times in school.

[UnknownError]

Might aswell.

[-]8 on left arm.[/-]

10 now.

[rockrooster11]

4 Deep-ish on my thigh in school yesterday :/

[UnknownError]

I don't like posting in here. But I don't give a fuck.

9. Carved WHY into my leg. Was going to write the whole thing my dad said about my 'friends' when I came in after fighting with them. Couldn't be bothered, wouldn't have any skin left at the end of it.

[Nevermore]

30+ on left arm on Saturday. I feel like 'm going to fail again. :/

[LozziRAWR]

countless number on left ankle and right hip. bled a lot.. :/

[love is louder]

all the way around right ankle numerous times
then 4 or 5 times on left foot

[UnknownError]

7 today. Smashed a plastic pencil sharpener up to get the razor inside.
First time I'd used a razor in 2011 (I think...) and it was amazing. :S

[Magenta]

3, deep, in the shape of an S.

I'm sorry, Sam.

[love is louder]

all across right foot. about 10 or so

[LozziRAWR]

Smashed a plastic pencil sharpener up to get the razor inside.

I did the same last night :/

[Love.Hate]

Haven't wrote in here for a while.
So just done.. 9 on my thigh. All quite deep :/

[RAWWR]

Four on my wrist. All really shallow, but theres more coming. I know it :(

[smithy94]

about 5
lower arm, above wrist
shallow
want to do more :(

[Nevermore]

30 + 3 deep left arm :(

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

25 on my thigh
dyke on my arm shit i'm such a failer i was sure i could at least stop cutting untill tomoro when i vist my little cosin shit

[Keats]

around 60-70 on my thigh, deep to just scratches

[adudewhodoesdudes]

3 down my wrist as deep as my knife can go. I need something sharper this just isn't doing it for me. But it did feel good and I don't want to kill myself anymore. Sooo yay i suppose.

[Ambrosia]

Seven, deep, across the upper half of my wrist. One shallow across the lower part, closer to the actually wrist itself.
About four on each leg. :blowup:

[FullyAlive]

I've not been writing in here recently but I just thought what the hell.

20 cuts left arm, 10 cuts left thigh
Minor burn left arm
Salt and ice burn left arm

What a fail :/

[Love.Hate]

Last night:
not sure about 50 on my thighs... varying in depth
today (so far):
7 cuts on my hand :/
And lots of scratches.
Stupid F*cking lessons. Would have done more if i could have :(

[love is louder]

one deepish cut from my sholder to the crook of my elbow

[SirRawrsalot]

If anyone wants to vent I'm online practically 24/7 so send me a PM... I remember how hard it was, I used to post on this thread daily.

[TRexbait]

My grades came today... such beautiful things they are, I should really get these kinds of letters more often.
Seven: Four shallow on my right calve
two medium on my left thigh, one slightly deeper on my right thigh.

I'm thinking about going to see the school counselor. My excuse before is that it would make things go to shit, but I don't really see how things could get much worse...

[Immortal Love]

Top of Left Forearm: 11 shallow
Bottom of left Forearm: 17 shallow
Top Of Right Forearm: 1 deep, 4 medium, 5 shallow
Bottom Of Right Forearm: 8 deep.
Left leg: 1 medium.

Yeah, been having hell lately....

[Alexithymia]

One, shallow, but it bled like hell. Thigh. Mmm. I feeling more of this when I get home.

[love is louder]

one all across the back of my hand. medium
letters round my ankle
2 shallow in my shin
2 medium on my foot

[smithy94]

2 shallow
lower arm above wrist
went to the bathroom half way through science and did it in the stall :/