Self Harm Calendar

[UnknownError]

one burn..pretty big right hip..im so sorry

Im here if you want to talk. :hug3: :hug:

[Malcolm Tucker]

4, wrist, very deep for me.

Watch this space.

[Malcolm Tucker]

3 more deep.

[YesterdaysNews]

15ish. only three bled. It hasn't helped yet.

[welcome_to_chaos]

why has this week been so hard on me T-T...3 more burns..looks like the one from last night ended up being a 2nd degree

[Razz]

i counted 63 on my left wrist... (deep-med) tonight.. i tried... not to i really did.. but after my mom hurt me i just couldn't help it :'( i want to keep cutting... i want to cut until i can't cut anymore...

[Love.Hate]

Was on four days, now back to day one again. 1 deep on my arm probably more to come later. :(

[Love.Hate]

3 more :(

[millymollymandy]

too scared to count, as some where deep- however i'm hoping that i might find some more luck tomorrow :S

[AppealToReason]

16 total. Twelve were more like scratches and didn't bleed, but the others were deeper.

[IsabellaJane]

60 cuts on my right hip urrrgh :'(

[Malcolm Tucker]

1 moderate on my wrist *shrug* needed it.

[Love.Hate]

6 shallow, 2 moderate on my wrist ... i actually hate my life :'(

[YesterdaysNews]

1 arm
FAT on stomach.
I was so close today. SO close. And then it didn't come up so I had to punish myself.

[DrkZ90]

10 on my left arm with my own nails, somewhat shallow although still noticeable.

I need to grab the knife and end the suffering once and for all.

[Unwanted_Different]

LOVE|ME on my left ankle...ti'll scar.
some on wrist. msotly scratches only a few bled.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

yesterday some scratching on my left wrist and 2 of them broke skin...in serious need to more
more scratches today...i need to actually cut...ugh

[YesterdaysNews]

10 on wednesday, they're still really red.

[georgiamay]

all of you are so strong, you don't need this!
I'm here if anyone needs to talk :hug3:

[AppealToReason]

Got about 15 today. 10 felt more like scratches (good thing I guess).

[REGRET]

Two on my right wrist. It didn't bleed that much.

[TheFountainGoddess]

I wouldve been on 69 days tonight, but instead i have 8 cuts on my left wrist shallow-moderate

[enjoying_my_insanity]

1 shallow/moderate cut on my hip...*sigh* i need more

[Love.Hate]

18 on my left arm/wrist.
I tried so hard this time to stop,
And it has made me want it more..

Urgggghhh :(

[goneghost]

2 on arm..

[AppealToReason]

Gah...messed up tonight. Not sure why, just did.

4 on my left arm.

[Love.Hate]

Too many um.. think it was 30 actually could be more like 40.
Idk.Did it last night, on left wrist. :/

[ShatteredWings]

2 med
a lot of light grazes (barely breaking skin, not really a cut)

Leg feels weird right now. Hurts more than it should.

[UnknownError]

3 on hand. I tried to cut my hand off on a machine in techie at school, today was the most horrible day ever. :(

[Syvelocin]

20, right leg, one needed five stitches..

[enjoying_my_insanity]

a few small scratches on my arm....

[Syvelocin]

Oh, three more just now. :/

[georgiamay]

4 or 5 left hip.
What a fuck up that was, 4 weeks down the drain.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

its ok georgia you can beat this hun <3 im here i might not give good advice but ill listen if you need it (not just her i mean all of you) if you ever need me send me a PM

[enjoying_my_insanity]

1 burn on my arm...very minor....now can someone explain how the hell i burned myself...IN THE SHOWER???

[UnknownError]

7
Shallow
Hand :(

Stupid me. :/

[Love.Hate]

Oh bloody hell Fran your such an idiot,
:'(

Left wrist 9 shallow ish .

[Love.Hate]

5 more on wrist,
2 on ankle..
:(

[RAWWR]

38, left arm :( shallow

[RAWWR]

9 cuts, left arm, shallow.
i need to stop doing this :(

[Love.Hate]

God it's embarrassing writing on this
For the second day in a row, but meh
I needed it , so yea a few more on wrist :/

[RAWWR]

^^ heh,not as embarrasing as me, 3rd time in the last 24 hours :(
7 cuts, left arm, shallow.
thats 54 cuts in less than 24 hours :(
STUPID!

[Love.Hate]

Dont worry about it :/

I have just done 13 more :(

[RAWWR]

:( and me, 28 more, i havent been this bad since march when i made my last SU attempt. stupid college. i really dont wanna go tomorrow.
why the hell am i doing this to myself? why am a actually WANTING to cut more right now? surley this is enough? :'(

[RAWWR]

realised that i've cut 82 times in less than 24 hours, cut 'stupid' into my leg to punish myself. :( i dont wanna do this anymore.

[RAWWR]

13 more cuts :(
i feel like i've taken over this thread :/ i seem to be SHing rather a lot. :(

[AppealToReason]

8 in the past 2 days.

Why do I keep messing up? :/

[AppealToReason]

Make that 28 in the past two days.

[RAWWR]

12 more :(
thats 132 in the last 2 days. FML.

[Love.Hate]

7 more :/

Im so stressed atm, stupid GCSE's

:(

[TigerLily]

...and again =/
blatantly my mother's daughter, huh?
i'm even carrying blades on my person now, i'm so fucking pathetic it's ridiculous.

[Love.Hate]

5 more that makes 12 today :/

[Punk_Kid]

6 shallow on my upper right arm.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

3 shallow on my left hip...and many many scratches...dammit...i hate everything

[Nevermore]

Anxiety took control. I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry I failed you and myself. I couldn't even wait two weeks. :'( I was so worried about you, I still am.
9 on my ankle- shallow/med
56+ on my left arm- med/deep
It was hard for me to stop. I wanted to do more, but was lucky to get control this time.

[whereismymind]

7th November 2 on my left leg :(

[RAWWR]

2. moderate-deep.

[UnknownError]

Anxiety took control. I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry I failed you and myself. I couldn't even wait two weeks. :'( I was so worried about you, I still am.
9 on my ankle- shallow/med
56+ on my left arm- med/deep
It was hard for me to stop. I wanted to do more, but was lucky to get control this time.

Thats alot. :(
If you want to talk, pm or vm me anytime. :)

[Love.Hate]

37 times, Left wrist, shallow/med :(

Right now im serious about stopping. This is taking over my life.
Im gonna throw my blades out and try really hard to stop, i have
seen this has wrecked lives and its already destroying mine. So
even if i cut down it will be better than everyday doing ridiculous amounts. :)

[tashbash3]

i'm on 17 days atm, really proud of myself!
everyone, keep it up, you're all doing really well, and if anyone feels like cutting/burning then you can always talk to me, you don't have to face this alone :)
x.

[RAWWR]

17 more :(

[mranderson]

3rd time in four days, every time i wanna get bloodier, and more pain

[AppealToReason]

3 today.
Gah...keep screwing up.

[Punk_Kid]

4 shallow, right arm. Prbly another 6 or so later>.>

[AppealToReason]

4 more. Not sure why...just lost it today. :/

[RAWWR]

11 more :(

[georgiamay]

2, left hip.
5, right hip.
All pretty shallow.

[closed]

3 razor cuts on left upper thigh. Feels like there will be even more. But i don't care, i deserved it anyway...

[closed]

4 cuts on the upper right thigh. I think i'm done for today. I love that dizzy feeling. makes my emotions numb.

[Bath]

Just 4 small shallow cuts on my arm because I wanted to see the blood. Not in the best mood. Effed up. Going to be completely honest and not BS anyone, I'm sure there will be more later. I haven't taken my medicine in 3 days.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

scratched up my leg in school....might be more later...god im a fuck up....someone kill me please

[Bath]

scratched up my leg in school....might be more later...god im a fuck up....someone kill me please

I'm sure you're not a fuck up. Hypocritical for me to be saying that to someone when I think like that of myself, but I can't stand to see someone this way when I'm sure you're really good at heart. I'm here to talk, or just listen♥

[enjoying_my_insanity]

I'm sure you're not a fuck up. Hypocritical for me to be saying that to someone when I think like that of myself, but I can't stand to see someone this way when I'm sure you're really good at heart. I'm here to talk, or just listen♥

trust me i am....
1 cut on my hip and many more scratches...

[Bath]

trust me i am....
1 cut on my hip and many more scratches...

That makes two of us, then.
2 more cuts on my wrist.

[districtnowhere]

3 cuts on my arm. i can't stop. i feel like shit. really.

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 on my upper arm.

[Bath]

Mom took away my pocket knife. I found my razor and with tweezers, pulled out a blade.

It works, 1 semi-deep cut on my wrist thats still bleeding through the bandaid, but stopping slowly. I feel so happy but upset at the same time.

[Punk_Kid]

Fuck. Made it almost 3 days. Pay my razors a visit shortly and prbly at least a dozen.

[Bath]

Small slash in the middle of my left arm. Didn't even mean for it to bleed, I just found my moms pocket knife that she took away from me in her drawer, and I wanted to feel it against my arm again but I dug it in a little too hard.

It's weird, I've grown an attachment to that pocket knife.

[Tankinx91]

5, left arm.. Semi-deep - shallow

[rukia_yua]

14 today....is it wrong to like the feeling of self mutalation? :/ is there no hope for my thoughts?

[starbrite5]

Lazy and stupid, shallow, on my thigh. Also, two medium ones there as well.

[Punk_Kid]

If you need to talk then drop me a Visitor Message. Once you get 100 posts you can PM people.

[districtnowhere]

I can only use a mechanical pencil while in school.

[UnknownError]

FUCK OFFF CONNOR! Im such a idiot. :mad:
I HATTE myself at the moment. :(
16 on hand and I dont know how Im ever going to cover them. :mad:
I even cut in school, in the class, surrounded by loads of people who could see.
One did see the cuts, I lied and said I had hurt it on the way to school. :/
AARGH FUCK SAKE! Seriously. I wish I was dead at the moment. >.>

[closed]

FUCK OFFF CONNOR! Im such a idiot. :mad:
I HATTE myself at the moment. :(
16 on hand and I dont know how Im ever going to cover them. :mad:
I even cut in school, in the class, surrounded by loads of people who could see.
One did see the cuts, I lied and said I had hurt it on the way to school. :/
AARGH FUCK SAKE! Seriously. I wish I was dead at the moment. >.>
This is ok... You are a great guy, you don't deserve to be dead. :hug:

Today at the morning. a hour after i woke up. It bled for like an hour so i even got to school and it still bled.
And even worse, my teaher saw my previous cuts, and like "what's that?" i said "nothing" hid it, and she was like you are gonna get in trouble for this... I'm so fucke up.

[georgiamay]

4 on my stomach.
2 drew blood.
What a pathetic attempt >.<

[districtnowhere]

um around 18 scratches on my arm .

[Bath]

Bloody napkin on my leg now. 4 cuts with a razor blade. Fuck.

[georgiamay]

1, left hip, deep.

[UnknownError]

7 more on my hand.
With blood, which I sickly enjoy. :/

[YesterdaysNews]

Fat ass and 18 others on my thigh on tuesday. Still red.

[Love.Hate]

Nine on my thigh.
Today would have been day 11 :(

[Hatsune Miku]

urhgireh

[RAWWR]

156 cuts between all my arms and legs :( FUCK!

[RAWWR]

171 more. FML.

[districtnowhere]

i really want to i really do .. . but i wont. i want to but i cant. . fuck it..

[Love.Hate]

Just done about 38 on my thigh.
FML. :(

[MattH]

29 on my left wrist. I'm just so sick of being alone.

[TigerLily]

21 pathetic shitty ones.
don't even have the fucking nerve to cut properly these days, never mind not cut at all.
such a fucking twat.

[Philleeep]

:O ive just been soo stressed lately and depressed its the first time ive done it but 4 on my right arm

[RAWWR]

93 more. fml

[Syvelocin]

8 on my left leg, medium-deep

[AppealToReason]

Quite a few on my left arm.
Screwed up today. Don't why. :/

[erible]

about 50 scabs from the last week on my left thigh....and about 70 scars under those....3 fresh cuts there, shallow, bleeding

[Tankinx91]

2 left arm..

Also cut a word into my skin for the first time, loser. Seems like my self harm is just getting worse.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

2 on my right hip....barely felt them and i need so much more....i cant think of a reason not to cut at this point.....

[Philleeep]

i may have said before but i dont cut bit i bite myself and ive done it 4 times on my arm and i think i bruised myself pretty bad?

[RAWWR]

27 more :(

[goneghost]

one pathetic cut on my arm..

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 relatively deep, one on each arm so the pain is shared.

For now that is.

[Alexithymia]

4 cuts, shallow, on my arm

Why'd I give in? And I didn't realize it would make me so happy.

[Love.Hate]

74 cuts, Shared between each fat thigh.
On the plus side, im eating again.. :/

[ShatteredWings]

1, kinda deep. it's fine.

[Love.Hate]

One more, This one is deep for me..

[Love.Hate]

Jeez.. I cant stop..
I have tried the ice thing and the fivemiute thing.

HATE on my right thigh.. And four more cuts. FML.

[Alexithymia]

Several, don't want to count. Not too deep, but the ones one my thighs took a while to stop bleeding. One on my stomach, a bit deep.

[RAWWR]

123. fml. theyre all over my hands :( i cant hide them

[Bath]

4 cuts on my right thigh.
I really do hate myself sometimes. :/

[notactive]

3. Left Leg. Was never very good at depth perception so I don't know how bad but one is gaping quite a bit and took a while to stop bleeding.

[eternal.sadness]

over the last 3 days.... probably about 10-15 on each arm, one on my right thigh and 8 on my stomach. i dont want to count them. i'll probably want to hit a certain number if i do :/

[Philleeep]

ive pearced my skin with my teeth 3 times on my left arm and has severely brused my right arm from biting

[Syvelocin]

Three shallow ones I did quickly today to calm myself down. I'm surprised it didn't end up as bad as it usually is when I'm upset though.

Edit: Next day, did four more. The calm I had has gone away :/

[Malcolm Tucker]

2. Very deep. I deserved it.

[RAWWR]

31 this morning, didn't get a chance to post then.

[Bath]

One small bleeding scratch on my right thigh, right next to the others.. :/

[deadpie]

One cut to the wrist. Deep. Attempted suicide. Unfortunately, I was pulled out of the bathroom by teachers before I could keep going.

[georgiamay]

4 medium, 3 shallow, right hip.
11 medium, left hip.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

tried to carve love into my hip...it was a fail but there is a scratch there :(

[Mike321]

16, underside of my arm
Mostly shallow :/

[Njathind]

Four deep and one carving on my left arm. :mad:

[LittleEpidemic]

Today
Shoulder- 7 light
Hand- 6- light
Thigh- the word love- medium
Woops :S

[Love.Hate]

Just done 14 on arm and three on thigh urgh.
I'm a stupid fucking idiot!!

:'( just wasted 9 days ..

[MadManWithaBox]

40 on my left thigh with a shard of glass

[georgiamay]

3, left upper thigh, medium.
1 sort of stappy thing (not sure how to explain) medium, left upper thigh.

[MadManWithaBox]

26 on my left arm. Mostly shallow. A few deep.

[Njathind]

4 Shallow cuts on my left leg and Carved "LOSER" onto my leg aswell.

[georgiamay]

5 pathetically shallow ones on right hip.

[MadManWithaBox]

7 on my left thigh, kinda deep.

[Sora131500]

These are all small, 1) left wrist 2) left upper leg, 1) tried carving a word, not very deep shouldn't scar for long, upper left leg too

[enjoying_my_insanity]

reopened a cut on my hand...tried to cut my hip bit failed....so sad...

[Bath]

About 10 on my right thigh. Most emotional I've ever been while cutting. I just wanted to feel numb.

It worked. :/

[Nevermore]

Huge X on my left wrist. 45+ cuts on my left arm. After a bit over a month of no self harm I cracked. I'm sorry. :'( I'm screwed for the play if my costume doesn't have long sleeves. :(

[georgiamay]

Huge X on my left wrist. 45+ cuts on my left arm. After a bit over a month of no self harm I cracked. I'm sorry. :'( I'm screwed for the play if my costume doesn't have long sleeves. :(

Don't apologise.

Everyone slips up from time to time, but we fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up again. You can get back to that month, and you can go further. You've done it once, you can do it again :hug:

[YesterdaysNews]

One last night, three during school... And just in case someone in particular sees this, it wasn't because of you. <3

[Alexithymia]

5, I think. 1 on my left arm, 4 on my right.

[crimsonangel]

Just did about 4 deep on my leg, will probably end up going to the ER because they won't quit bleeding.

I was doing good for a long time :(

[Brittany123]

SHIIIT like 20 small ones on my leg. I just was freaking out, ugh I was at a month too

[georgiamay]

3 shallow/medium, and 1 deep on my right upper thigh.

[Alexithymia]

1, on my hip, deep.
1 on my thigh, deep. The other is shallow.
2 on my arm, medium.

This is bad. Really, really bad. I've never cut that deep before. And now twice?

[Unwanted_Different]

not cutting anymoe but i chew the hell out of my nails, im down to nubs and they wont stop bleeding, they hurt so bad i cant hardly stand it.

[Nevermore]

25 on my right thigh Saturday night

[Njathind]

God knows how many on my left leg last night :( had managed to make it a week aswell but I wanted that rush so bad :( We can go further this time I know. *Note to self dont listen to music and link the lyrics to myself*

[notactive]

About 20-30 little ones on my leg, was rather stressed out just wanted to feel ...anything.

Will be better. Hopefully.

[Love.Hate]

Last night i fucked up,
9 on my upper right thigh, of which four were quite deep...
I had managed a week.. im really quite shit at this.
:(

[enjoying_my_insanity]

a few right hip...shallow...just enough to take the edge off ugh :(

[Njathind]

4 Deep cuts on my left leg. :(

[Nevermore]

scratched off all my scabs. Banged my head agaisnt the wall until I was extremely dizzy. Then began punching myself. Took a knife playfully accross my skin, a few times, but never cut. more like teased myself, then decided to stop before I hurt myself. I threw the knife down. Which is good. :)

[Love.Hate]

Last night,

One meduim on thigh..

Just done four more :(
Still bleeding.. Is there any point any more..


Edit: make that seven more..

Please don't double post - Syvelocin

[Nevermore]

Over 28 on me left arm. It's all over the place, medium. I won't be able to hide these. :(

[georgiamay]

2, left hip, shallow.
Nowhere near enough compared to what I'd hoped for.

[LittleEpidemic]

Yesterday and today
18
My left hand
Arm
Thigh
Ankle
I think i lasted a week or two not sure wasnt really counting

[Njathind]

Yesterday and today
18
My left hand
Arm
Thigh
Ankle
I think i lasted a week or two not sure wasnt really counting

Just remeber to pick yourself up and try really hard to resist the urge, I know you can do it, just stay strong. The same goes to the rest of you guys, you just have to fight with all of your might.

[Costanza]

ive never done anything before but everything got to me. i banged my head into a wall repeatedly then started cutting my left arm/wrist/hand. my best friend pulled up my jacket sleeve because they knew i had been depressed lately, then started crying and hugged me. they shouldnt be sad

[Njathind]

ive never done anything before but everything got to me. i banged my head into a wall repeatedly then started cutting my left arm/wrist/hand. my best friend pulled up my jacket sleeve because they knew i had been depressed lately, then started crying and hugged me. they shouldnt be sad

They are sad because they care about you, I'm really sorry you felt that way, it sounds as if your friends are there for you so make sure you go and find them when you need a helping hand. As i'm sure you've heard before if this is the first time you've done anything like that then PLEASE try not to do it again, this road is a story of pain, upset and regret.

I hope your ok:(

[Costanza]

They are sad because they care about you, I'm really sorry you felt that way, it sounds as if your friends are there for you so make sure you go and find them when you need a helping hand. As i'm sure you've heard before if this is the first time you've done anything like that then PLEASE try not to do it again, this road is a story of pain, upset and regret.

I hope your ok:(

I dont know what else to do. i cant take all of this emotional pain anymore, its so overwhelming. Im really trying to resist the urge but i dont think i can.

[Njathind]

I dont know what else to do. i cant take all of this emotional pain anymore, its so overwhelming. Im really trying to resist the urge but i dont think i can.

Posted a message on your profile, unfortuantly I cant send PM's as I dont have a post count over 100 :(

[RAWWR]

Last night-Alot :( wanna do it again.

[Nevermore]

I bruised myself the other last night. :(

[georgiamay]

last night, not sure how many. Quite a lot though, more than 15 I think. All shallow, left hip.

[Costanza]

cut my left arm/wrist/hand again, left hip. i punched my self a lot. banged my head into a wall until i passed out. i wend a day from the last time

[Njathind]

Just done 10 to my lower right arm :( the worst part is I feel better for doing it. I really should not be left alone with my thoughts at night

[Tankinx91]

17 left wrist shallow, 1 medium left wrist.

[LittleEpidemic]

Yesterday
Only a couple
Sigh day one again

[georgiamay]

last night, 4 shallow and 2 medium, right hip.
I'm starting to run out of skin >.<

[MadManWithaBox]

Georgia :)

[LittleEpidemic]

Oh my god..
Top of my left arm
A few on my right
Some on my knee
Also ive bruised my knee and my shin by falling up the stairs .. I dont think it counts but i still liked it o.O

[YesterdaysNews]

one tiny one last night.

[TheFountainGoddess]

5 times and the word egoista (italian for selfish...i think)
left wrist
shallow

[Njathind]

It started as carving a sad face but it progressed onto a few more cuts on my upper left arm. Then I remeberd Emma and Andrew. I'm so sorry guys :'(

[Njathind]

10 more deepish ones on my lower left arm. I can tell its gonna be a bad night :cry:

[LittleEpidemic]

2
Left arm
Small and hardly bled really not worth it
Promise broke
Sorry guys <3

[Costanza]

4 left arm
4 left leg
im sorry, i looked at the one gift i opened again

[LittleEpidemic]

2 right leg
I think im gonna let myself 2 a day this week then 1 next week then challenge myself with a clean week again "/

[Njathind]

Tried to go ape shit on my rightleg. :( I'm afraid all it resulted in was many many shallow cuts as my razor wasnt sharp enough :mad:
Really shouldnt crack open a new razor but, well.......

[LittleEpidemic]

Nat ~ msn? X

[Njathind]

Nat ~ msn? X

ok, on.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

last night 1 left wrist shallow 2(?) shallow....fml

[Love.Hate]

I did 14 on my upper left arm last night,
Quite shallow
:(

[lightkun]

Today, I did 1, 2, 6 deep ones. Yay I suck! :/

[georgiamay]

last night, 3 shallow 3 medium, left hip.

[Alexithymia]

Last night, 6 shallow, right/left thigh.

[Njathind]

10mins ago, about 30, right arm, medium in depth.
:cry:

[pnckswthsrp]

Around twenty minutes ago: A single cut on my thigh, but it's about seven inches long & medium deep.

[FullyAlive]

I already posted in the non self harm calendar but I guess that's a lie now sorry I just I couldn't help it I just wanted to so so bad and I don't even feel guilty yet but no doubt I will...
5 medium upper left
6 shallow-ish left wrist

[LittleEpidemic]

Right. I caved.
I basically doodled on my thigh: it says fat twice and theres a sad face
And then i did some cut over my leg
Not many and everythings shallow,verging on just scratches but i failed none the less...

EDIT
make that six times

[YesterdaysNews]

four

[Tankinx91]

1 medium-deep, left wrist.

[Mike321]

8, underside of my arm, mostly shallow

[LittleEpidemic]

There are some on my right leg now too "/
And i wrote it again
Theyre deeper this time
I found my sharp blade again
...