Self Harm Calendar

[piggy-wiggy]

30 Shallow2 deep...Not doing well

you know im here if you need me Feren..:)

[Harley Quinn]

28... went crazy again :/

[DarkWingedAngel]

im kinda scared
im depressed agen
and trying not to cut
but i just can't
i broke my left hand agen from punching a brick wall and a few metal poles
no cuts...yet

[ShatteredWings]

desi you konw how to contact me

[Darkness]

you know im here if you need me Feren..:)

Thank you, I will when I can,
28... went crazy again :/

Tell me if I can help, ok?

[wisse2012]

cut my wrist 3 times

[Asylum]

steppped on a glass photo frame (yes purposefully to break it)
then used shards to slice foot.. .
y?
mom cursed me out.. because i ddn't know wht time audtitions for the play were over.. then i was late for pinao which i forgot about.. htne she told me she'd be happy to scrap it into my wrist for me... thne boyfriend got mad at me for staying up till four to help a friend not cut himself... (weird... i kno...) and being bullied by a group of girls at schooll....

[Asylum]

glass shards.... 5 times not shallow, not thta deep.. btotm of foot reason mom... boyfriend, and bullying again...

[Asylum]

bruised my wrist and forearm with wooden cross again pretty badly...

[Hatsune Miku]

hehe, shi-vawn?

Yep

I haven't cut in 3 days *Goes to post on Non self harm*

[Asylum]

congrats :)

[zackF.]

12/15/09
Above left knee
50+ cuts
shallow

[Syvelocin]

Three right leg, four right wrist.

This time, I brought the razor to school. The bathroom during fourth period, and got up the nerve to do my wrist. I couldn't put much pressure with my left hand as well as I could with my right, but it bled more that usual :(

[Asylum]

five left wrist 4 left foot shallow

[Weeping]

Three. Now.

[Asylum]

cut 6 times wrist.... stabbed myself 35 tmes... with glass shard... deep.. verry deepp..

[Darkness]

Magik, you know where I am if you wanna talk or vent, ok?5-shallow1-deep

[Asylum]

thanx Darkness you too ok?

[ShatteredWings]

Meh. a few up my arms. it's starting to more and more look like SI. Need to be more careful about this.
And apparently one of the last ones was deeper than I thought, because I've been reopening the same (older) cut for like a week.

(at least I remember doing it this time)

[navb]

I once was suicidal and seriously wanted to commit suicide.So before committing suicide i wanted to punish myself for my wrong actions( imaginary or real) .So i took a blade and repeatedly cut my right shoulder in the same area that it was a deep wound and blood was coming out very much.but i kept cutting myself inside the wound and blood was dripping.
later a year later i cut my leg with a blade deeply.I think i hurt my emotions and self respect and esteem most than my body.i not knowing why i was living everyday and wished why i did not die every second everyday and was so cowardly to even attempt suicide.Cowards and very few OCD's die every second and still live shamelessly on as dependent parasites.But life is woth living even though shamelessly.I think everyone is born for some purpose and having finished that purpose only then will we leave this world ,then only.

[deadpie]

i counted them twice last night and wrote it down. 56 on my stomach. i really feel happy today though. cutting has been a good fix for me.
thats fucking miserable that i have to rip my body to pieces to smile.

[Triceratops]

steppped on a glass photo frame (yes purposefully to break it)
then used shards to slice foot.. .
y?
mom cursed me out.. because i ddn't know wht time audtitions for the play were over.. then i was late for pinao which i forgot about.. htne she told me she'd be happy to scrap it into my wrist for me... thne boyfriend got mad at me for staying up till four to help a friend not cut himself... (weird... i kno...) and being bullied by a group of girls at schooll....

glass shards.... 5 times not shallow, not thta deep.. btotm of foot reason mom... boyfriend, and bullying again...

bruised my wrist and forearm with wooden cross again pretty badly...

five left wrist 4 left foot shallow

cut 6 times wrist.... stabbed myself 35 tmes... with glass shard... deep.. verry deepp..

What's going on?
What reasons do you have for inflicting this amount of damage on yourself?
Aren't you even trying?

[MysticalBurrito]

30 - Thighs - Shallow - Med.
Earlier this morning...

[Asylum]

parents, bullying, and boyfriend issues, that is what is going on.... reasons, i broke down... and lost it... when i break down, i lose control of myself or black out. yes of course i'm trying i got rid of the glass i broke, and razors, and lots of sewing needles.


1 med cut. found a glass shard... reasons parents and boyfriend issues specifically.

[Asylum]

oh and i'm seeing a psych so i guess that is also trying...

[YesterdaysNews]

5, about medium-ish. upper forearm

[piggy-wiggy]

30+ on my hand..
Monday morning, couldnt face putting it here then.. wat a fail..

[Project Delta]

U ok laura?

[TigerLily]

A shitty cut using some old blunt nail scissors.
God, you know you're a waste of space when you can't even fucking cut properly.
First time since.. October? November?
Fuck it.

[piggy-wiggy]

just a few needle holes on my arm..

Aaron, im Ok, i guess..

[Project Delta]

Wanna talk? Come on msn love

[MysticalBurrito]

A shitty cut using some old blunt nail scissors.
God, you know you're a waste of space when you can't even fucking cut properly.
First time since.. October? November?
Fuck it.
Rachel... :hug3:
You're not a waste of space... If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me..

[The Joker]

A shitty cut using some old blunt nail scissors.
God, you know you're a waste of space when you can't even fucking cut properly.
First time since.. October? November?
Fuck it.

No, if you can't cut properly, it means you're lucky.

You're too beautiful to mark your skin.

[Hatsune Miku]

somewhere around 6 on my forearm. their deep, I guess...
I went like a week without cutting... And now I lost that streak. What a fucking fail
I hope I get killed tomorrow, do me a big ass favor.

[madman]

somewhere around 6 on my forearm. their deep, I guess...
I went like a week without cutting... And now I lost that streak. What a fucking fail
I hope I get killed tomorrow, do me a big ass favor.

matt i know u dont mean that, come talk to me if u need to, it will help

[TigerLily]

Wanna talk? Come on msn love

Rachel... :hug3:
You're not a waste of space... If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me..

No, if you can't cut properly, it means you're lucky.

You're too beautiful to mark your skin.

Thanks <3
:hug2:

[Harley Quinn]

Thanks <3
:hug2:

As i said before Rachel, I'm here if you ever need to talk about anything, i care and so do a lot of people.

That goes for everyone in this thread. :hug:

[The Batman]

Razor was so blunt no matter how much pressure i put on it the skin wouldn't break but i still barely managed one cut. Really fuck quitting if every time I think I'm happy some shit like this happens.

[Harley Quinn]

20+ Arm.

[Rutherford The Brave]

20+ Arm.

You alright sweetheart?

[YesterdaysNews]

Siobhan, talk to me <3

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Razor was so blunt no matter how much pressure i put on it the skin wouldn't break but i still barely managed one cut. Really fuck quitting if every time I think I'm happy some shit like this happens.

Thomas hun please don't say that. I know that you're strong enough to stop SHing. Just please PM me when you need to vent. Your better than this hun. :hug3:

[YesterdaysNews]

8 last night.

[piggy-wiggy]

covered my hand in needle marks..
most shallow, some deeper.. felt like nothing anyway..

[Harley Quinn]

8 last night.

We are talking about this later.
<3

Laura, i'm here if you need to talk :hug:

[deadpie]

I got 3 new ones on my leg that are deep. Didn't know what else to do at the moment. I guess i'll just tell myself it's the last time.

[piggy-wiggy]

more needle marks on my hand, nothing severe..

[Project Delta]

Msn laura! :)

[Harley Quinn]

17 - from yesterday night-ish

[MysticalBurrito]

:( Siobhan... What happened? :hug3:

[Asylum]

1 on my right ankle meduim from ice skate

[GreyxRainbow]

This morning, a few on my ankle. After 106 days. I did feel better after, but now I feel worse.

[MysticalBurrito]

Rebecca... :hug3:
Don't let that keep you down, get right back up and keep fighting!

[GreyxRainbow]

I'll keep fighting until I win. :)

[DarkWingedAngel]

well i don't know if this counts
but i was bored so i stuck a pin in my thumb bad untill it blead then ripped it up so like half the skin ripped off

[Malcolm Tucker]

8...... I made it 382 days. I feel sick

[MysticalBurrito]

1 - Arm. Med-deep.
2 Ankle Shallow...
A couple hours ago... Probably more to come..

[Malcolm Tucker]

bahh about 20 more >.<

[Faithfull]

Meh. I'm starting to think that there is no point in stopping. Everytime i try i just give up.

30+ times, mid-deep... i basically filled the top of my arm in with cuts.

[MadManWithaBox]

20, left wrist.

[Project Delta]

You alright Matt?

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 long ones on my arm. Fuck I can't do anything right can I? :(

[munchausen]

don't feel bad michael you can still pull through.

5, shallow so they'll heal quicker and my parents won't notice. (I can only use the whittling excuse so many times)

[The Batman]

2 long ones on my arm. Fuck I can't do anything right can I? :(

Michael if you need to talk send me a message you can get past it you lasted over a year before you can do it again.

[deadpie]

I did a deep one on my wrist after i got triggered at a family party two days ago in the bathroom. it fucking burns just when i touch it.
this is the last time, i lie.

[munchausen]

right leg 1 long and deep, will probably need to add to this later. Fuck how did I end up so dependent on this?

edit: 5 more 2 are pretty small. Same place. I'm still not satisfied, but thinking clearly. I can't always hide my wrists but I'm more tempted than ever.

[Faithfull]

1 shallow on my right hand and 1 very small but very deep just next to my shoulder

[DarkWingedAngel]

21 on my arm
shouldn't have done it
i have a meeting at a hospital for psych help
i hope they don't look

[The Batman]

2 cuts on my leg i really don't even know why i did it just remember telling myself that i needed it.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

:hug: for everyone. just pick yerselves up and move past this. things can only get better from here. :)

[munchausen]

10+ mid-deep same spot, I didn't break my promise but I still feel sick.

[BlackenedSilver]

23 on my wrist =/ >.<

Hope everyone is ok :hug3:

[OnlyByTheNight.]

leigh.... :hug3: you ok hun? im here if you ever want to talk!

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Why is it i cant seem to give up for longer then a week. >.< so many on my thighs!

[The Batman]

To many emotions at once >.< 3 on my leg

[YesterdaysNews]

6 the other day, even when I told them I wouldn't do it. I'm sorry I let you guys down...

[Asylum]

i broke :( 8 on my finger, 2 stabs on hand, put a needle half way into skin and stuck it thru the other sde, 10 on upper arm. 1 deep rest shallow, but the needle on, thats also deep all done with scissors expect needle of course :( i hate myself right now... i didn't think i'd do it again.. i was done :( what ahppend?

[munchausen]

i broke :( 8 on my finger, 2 stabs on hand, put a needle half way into skin and stuck it thru the other sde, 10 on upper arm. 1 deep rest shallow, but the needle on, thats also deep all done with scissors expect needle of course :( i hate myself right now... i didn't think i'd do it again.. i was done :( what ahppend?

PM me if you need to talk about this.

[munchausen]

After about 82 hours I cracked 5 upper right leg quite deep.

[Malcolm Tucker]

one very deep, and lots of nails digging into my arm....im a disgrace....ugh. I want to throw up

[Antares]

Michael it makes me feel bad when you do this.
We talk so much, I just want to help you feel a little better.
Talk to me if you need to. I want to listen and help you.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Michael, your no disgrace, you tried. You cant do anything more than that. :hug:

[Grim981]

Hi guys. im new here. just found the site.
iv always just suffered in silence but decided to try talkin to others after today.
after nearly a month cut-free ive gone and done long one up my thigh. disgusted with myself.
well, cudv bin worse :/

[OnlyByTheNight.]

total of 23, wrist. 4 are quite deep

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Why did you do it eva?

[OnlyByTheNight.]

alot of shit happened with me recently.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

What happend eve pm me.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

laura what happens to me has nothing to do with you anymore. lets keep things that way! if you want to argue this out with me lets move it to pm or text.

[munchausen]

54 left thigh, all mid deep. The blood was everywhere, I've never snapped like that before.

[reaper0694]

saturday 9th january 19 times left fore arm deep
2 times on my calf deep
31 times left thigh deep and medium
22 time right thigh deep and medium

[Cloud]

saturday 9th january 19 times left fore arm deep
2 times on my calf deep
31 times left thigh deep and medium
22 time right thigh deep and medium

And what caused you to do 74 deep cuts all over your body?
and also how did you manage to treat those wounds without causing serious illness through bloodloss?
if you dont mind me asking

Same for you Damien
becuase if your actually going deep youd both need some serious medical attention and id question your ability to cause more gaping holes while bleeding excessively from the others

[reaper0694]

im a royal marine i have first aid training and i dnt no what cuased me to do it i just pick up my knife and started slashing and couldnt stop

[Project Delta]

And what caused you to do 74 deep cuts all over your body?
and also how did you manage to treat those wounds without causing serious illness through bloodloss?
if you dont mind me asking

Same for you Damien
becuase if your actually going deep youd both need some serious medical attention and id question your ability to cause more gaping holes while bleeding excessively from the others

To be honest peoples definitions of deep vary from person to person. Which is why they can be said that they are deep when in reality they are just deep for the persona and not what you would seem as deep.

[Hatsune Miku]

3, deep. I finally calmed the bleeding

For those of you who seen my thread, I broke the promise... Im ashamed of it
For those of you who havn't. Me and my girlfriend both made a promise to stop cutting. I broke my promise... But I've went pretty long without cutting, that has to count for something :(

[Darkness]

im a royal marine i have first aid training and i dnt no what cuased me to do it i just pick up my knife and started slashing and couldnt stop

Then you are a danger to others, you should report yourself to your CO, you have deteriorated combat effectiveness, if their that deep then you will be unable to perform correctly under the required conditions, even if you can &quot;Handle&quot; the stress which if your unable to identify another cause, it's likely you can't. OR There's smoke comming from your Strides. Oh and I've cut... alot, not too deep. P.S. Sorry about there being no new lines but I'm using a proxy, best I can do... sorry. :(

[reaper0694]

done it again to day i just needed to fell something so i carved hate in to my leg to remind myself hw much i hate doing this to my self hope that will act as a deterent

[The Batman]

6 cuts on my leg

edit: 10 more was bleeding a lot more than i thought i could handle.

[The Joker]

Thomas, please stop.

[YesterdaysNews]

2 on my hip.
I predict more... Damn it

[The Joker]

Amanda, what's wrong?

[YesterdaysNews]

Stressed, upset, just an overall bad mindset.... :\ GAHHHHHHHh

[piggy-wiggy]

three on my ankle, not deep to be honest barly there..
im nore annoyed with myself than upset though..

[Amyxoxo]

Well this morning, becoming a habbit before school school now : /
About 11, not deep but bled alot. Wrist.
Stay strong guys!! :) xx

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 so far... They sting worse than any others before. I deserve it though. =/

[OnlyByTheNight.]

wednesday night-7, shallow, wrist.

[Malcolm Tucker]

One really deep. My arm feels weird. That all I feel now

[OnlyByTheNight.]

michael stop! your so much better than this!! :(

[The Batman]

Just one

[YesterdaysNews]

Three on my hip. Stained my pajamas, don't know how to explain this...

[Malcolm Tucker]

2 this morning, not too long ago. Only just stopped bleeding recently.

[The Batman]

A small one on my leg

[jess_undead]

Not cut for two month, then broke it last monday. 2 on my thigh.

[Asylum]

7 deep. 50 shallow on thumb, pointer finger and upper inside arm i'm ssorry :( i want to stop sooo bad... i jsut don't kno how

[piggy-wiggy]

four on my ankle, few on thigh.. over few days..

[TheKingDavis]

Never thought i would be posting in this thread, i havent done it in 2 years

couple days ago
2 inner thigh, shallow

[peaceloverugby]

Threw away five months last night/this morning...

one beer, three whiskeys, probably five pills? I don't remember :(

[MysticalBurrito]

Connor... =[
*Hug* :hug3:

[Malcolm Tucker]

One deep acrosss my wrist. Was having a good day until my family of all things turned on me....guess it was too much to ask not to have anyone treat you like shit for one day...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

michael :'( :hug3:

[Malcolm Tucker]

michael :'( :hug3:

Sorry hunni :(

[The Joker]

Michael, don't listen to people who don't appreciate you. You are a very nice person, and you shouldn't let negative people effect you. Negative people will always be negative, so you should just ignore them when they are like that.

[munchausen]

7 deep. 50 shallow on thumb, pointer finger and upper inside arm i'm ssorry :( i want to stop sooo bad... i jsut don't kno how

You've got no-one to apolagise to, you're making the effort and that's what counts, I'm here if you need to get anything off of your chest.

Since the last time I posted over 132 and only about 20 were shallow by anyones standards. All done with a new knife.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2, shallow, wrist. they just sting more than anything. *shrug*

[Obscene Eyedeas]

another slip as usual *sighs*
I feel like giving up on quiting

[Malcolm Tucker]

Five...three on my legs and two on my hips. :(

[The Batman]

Five...three on my legs and two on my hips. :(

Michael you can talk to me if you need anything you don't have to cut you can get past this.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Michael you can do it. you can quit.

3 thigh mid deep

3 light ankle just angry not sore

[Hatsune Miku]

Come on guys, you can beat this. Don't give up

4 on my forearm. Only one was deep. The others were so/so
Dammit

[Asylum]

4 ON my thigh 7 - 8ish on my elbow... shallow/medium

[YesterdaysNews]

I lost it, I don't even know how many. I'm sorry..
& I think I've already taken too many pills but whats a few more?

[Malcolm Tucker]

10 :/ they sting like hell. All on my legs, stomach and hips :/

[munchausen]

32 both legs as usual 4 needed me to stitch them. My hands were shaking like mad and I pretty much coloured an entire towel red. I can't tell you how disgusted I am with myself.

EDIT: Just found 3 on my arm all stitched and I don't remember it.

[Hatsune Miku]

I messed up, big time. I feel like running away. Im screwed...

3 on my wrist
a bunch on my arms

[OnlyByTheNight.]

8.... i think. i just dont care anymore.

[Cloud]

8.... i think. i just dont care anymore.

Tough shit cos I do

[Project Delta]

Agreed with calum.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

thanks guys... EDIT: 8 more. 2 deep

[Malcolm Tucker]

Emm two on my left arm four on my right. Two on my hips and three on my leg :/ that 11 so far. Idk why I even bother anymore

[Holding On*]

4 shallow
1 deep
left arm.

[Holding On*]

4/5. very deep (for my normal standard)

[BuryYourFlame]

steph...stop...please...right now.

[The Batman]

5 on my leg.

[Holding On*]

arm. too many to count.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2 on wrist.

[BuryYourFlame]

Evie...send me a PM or sommat if you wanna talk...kay hun?

[Malcolm Tucker]

3.... Why the fuck did I say I wouldn't do any more... Damn it I need it. Bad.

[GreyxRainbow]

A few.. about 5 or so, very shallow. That was last Sunday.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

3 my stomach

[munchausen]

12, 9 are medium deep 3 are deep. This time the water in the bath did change colour dramatically, I'm wondering how much blood I lost.
I'm feeling more happy and less guilty afterwards. Still takes me an hour or so to calm down.

[The Batman]

Just 3 on my leg

[Obscene Eyedeas]

once again i had one of those nights where i completly lost it. iv multiple deep cuts on my leg

[OnlyByTheNight.]

unknown amount on my wrist from yesterday

[BlackenedSilver]

:hug3: Hope everyone is ok.. You can beat this!! :)

[BuryYourFlame]

You guys ok? You can always PM me, kay?

[zer0x_glasscut]

Way to many to count, definately 50+
Left forearm& wrist

[OnlyByTheNight.]

4 wrist

[Holding On*]

2 on back of left leg shallow.

guys you can always pm me too :D

[Obscene Eyedeas]

My dad is d biggest piece of shit whenevr i start to get myself out of this pit of dpression he pushes me bck down

Multiple

[OnlyByTheNight.]

7 between last night and earlier today. No more EVER.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

good on u eve ur better then this. multiple wrist fukd up my hand i cnt squeze my fist

[The Batman]

15 cuts on my leg i still want to do more. Wtf is wrong with me.

[nachtspiegel]

Punched a wall.
Fractured my right hand.

[Malcolm Tucker]

8 on my stomach. Wrote a three letter word on my stomach. Apt word....I feel like crying but oh well...

[Obscene Eyedeas]

I failed again. . .

[munchausen]

86 since last time 60 being shallow-ish

EDIT: All on right thigh except 2 which are on righ peck.

[YesterdaysNews]

Carved "dad" into my ankle. Fuck.

[Project Delta]

*hugs amanda*

[The Batman]

Two on my leg starting to feel weird about it.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

one. wrist

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Eve hun y did u do it!?

[OnlyByTheNight.]

cause you thought i was lying. :( EDIT: 2 more

[Cloud]

Tom.. wtf did you say to me the other day....

And eve
WTFER
Both pm
NOW

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Eva i know u didn lie i told you that.
7 Back of wrist. 3 small back of hand
More on my stomach too and im far from done today

[The Batman]

3 on my leg

[DarkWingedAngel]

i really wouldn't count the ones on my arm
there not even medium
i did 3 deep ones on the inside of my thigh

[Malcolm Tucker]

two on my stomach...

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Michael tommo, dylan!!! ye are all so much better then this ye can quit! :hug3:

two on my tummy

[Malcolm Tucker]

no...no I am not.... one more on my stomach, one on my hip, and one on my leg...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

4 wrist.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Yes u r michael! hug

[Malcolm Tucker]

NO, I really REALLY am not...

6 on my hips, 2 on my stomach and one on my thigh. Still don't feel done....

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Michael please stop so many people here care about you. your not alone

[zer0x_glasscut]

wrist + scalpel [i was in the hospital to begin with] + blood everywhere + passed out from blood loss = put in the ICU with A LOT of stitches.

[Malcolm Tucker]

I miscounted, I think there are two more on my stomach..Don't remember doing them though...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

slipped again. unknown amount, wrist

[Obscene Eyedeas]

I feel lyk im falling apart 3 mre hip

[Harley Quinn]

I miscounted, I think there are two more on my stomach..Don't remember doing them though...

slipped again. unknown amount, wrist

I feel lyk im falling apart 3 mre hip

Y'all might not know me that well (Eve does but eh) anyways, if you ever need to talk my inbox is always open and i'll always reply to you.

Micheal, what happened last night, what were your thought that made it happen?

Eve, ima PM you anyways, long time no speak.

Laura, you have my msn and you know i'm always online. I'll listen to you and stuff



<3

[Project Delta]

Same as above. If Siobhan isn't online i will always help too :)

[BlackWhiteAtonement]

:( just blown a years of no self harm. :\ 3 deep on my leg :(

[ShatteredWings]

i really wouldn't count the ones on my arm
there not even medium
i did 3 deep ones on the inside of my thigh

are you ok?

[DarkWingedAngel]

go I need to fucking stop this
1 deep on my stomach
3 deep on my other thigh
some medium on my upper arm and re-opened the ones on my thigh from a day or 2 ago

[Asylum]

yesterday- hit myself with bed post till i got bruises...
today- made myself throw up...

[GreyxRainbow]

Four, shallow. Today at school.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

2 deep in my leg

[GreyxRainbow]

Six, shallow, yesterday evening.

[munchausen]

36 both thighs

[DarkWingedAngel]

6 deep i=on my thigh *sigh* again

[GreyxRainbow]

Five, shallow, at school today.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

1 In front of my friends they didnt even see

[Hatsune Miku]

Tried to kill myself... If that counts
Surprisingly ( and thankfully ) only passed out for a few hours.

I'm not ready to go yet. That was one of the stupidest things I ever attempted in my life. I'm so freakin' glad I didn't die from that. ( Why the fuck did I try that ) I mean really. I didn't even think. I might hate everything that's going on, but I went too far with that. Especially since I was shitting bricks while I did it