Self Harm Calendar

[Harley Quinn]

4 deep
5 very very deep in school....i took my blade with me

[DarkWingedAngel]

45
some deep and some medium


I think i'm falling back into a deep depression agen

[Harley Quinn]

Loads thigh....
Deep
the worst night of my life >.<

[GreyxRainbow]

10, at school.

[Harley Quinn]

14 at school..
1 burn
2 pills

[Weeping]

like an hour ago
3 on arm

and it's sooooo close I go do more now :(

[surrealwaking]

4, shoulder.

Couldn't handle being alone last night.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

About 15-20, left thigh.
I can't handle feeling like this. I cry every day, its like my heart is weighed down...

[ssgliberty]

7 shallow and the word loser carved shallow and reopend 5

7:00 carved the word useless

[Harley Quinn]

Gah failure....25 deep leg
4 shallow arm
2 very deep lower stomach

[surrealwaking]

3 shallow, left shoulder.

I don't know why I even cut this time. I'm in a decent mood . . .
It's starting to feel like its just the thing to do.

[Harley Quinn]

63 deep to medium thigh and stomach.

[millymollymandy]

i'm falling again, just went mental with my arms.
some are pretty deep :(

[GreyxRainbow]

3 at school

[Harley Quinn]

i knew this wouldnt last
22 thigh
4 paracetamol [stomach pain]
bruised arms

[ssgliberty]

16 shallow left thigh

[MysticalBurrito]

Earlier today:
7 Left arm deep
10 Right arm deep

[keloid57]

i find you guys only react to seasoned members. pretty dumb.

[Project Delta]

To be honest we only react to people we know because this thread isnt about evoking a reaction, its about getting a diary of when and how many possibly for future reference,

Karina, whats up deary?

[Harley Quinn]

7 deep last night

[MysticalBurrito]

9-10 Arm all of them too deep...

[dead]

2 cuts very shallow :( and i was at 2 days aswell

[MysticalBurrito]

Connor...:cry:
What happened?

[Appleton]

i dont really know what to put here. i've never done this before until yesterday and today. it wasnt what u would call deep. hell i dont even know what to call deep. i only did a couple cuts each time and they werent very long but i did feel better. now im getting scared. just wanted to tell somebody. thanks.

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug:
Please stop doing it now while it's easier to stop, It's not worth it and it causes more pain then it may seem to help it turns into a cycle and it's so hard to break.

[deadpie]

26 cuts on stomach
2 on wrist
18 on upper arm

[surrealwaking]

2 shallow , left shoulder.
I was at 4 days.
And then I let myself get used again.

[Harley Quinn]

2 deep stomach......
4 pills...

[MysticalBurrito]

15 or 20...Deep arms...
I want out...

[Appleton]

thats what scares me is how it felt. it felt like it really helped.

[dead]

1 cut medium 1 cut shallow, i cant take it anymore

[ShatteredWings]

i went NUTS when i couldn't find the blade last night, because the last time i used it (thrusday i think) i didn't put itback in the right place.
after finding it, in the wrong drawer
my fingers are covered in little cuts, it doesnt hurt
my leg has several shallow cuts
and my hip has one that's deeper.
and i overdosed again(third time tihs week i think)... i wasn't trying to kill myself, just sleep. To ignore the bear (i think i'm haluinating again =|)

i don't want to talk about it right now

[GreyxRainbow]

thats what scares me is how it felt. it felt like it really helped.

At first, it feels really good, yes. But you will feel worse and worse, you will get more urges and you won't be able to control them. You will be pulled into the dark. Your cuts will get deeper and deeper each time. You won't be able to control your cutting to just one place. Just one cut won't be enough. It will get more and more. You will have a hard time trying to hide everything, but someone will find out. It will destroy your life. Even if it feels good, even if it seems to be taking care of all your problems, it will destroy your life in the end. Your body will be covered by scars. The earlier you try to stop, the easier. Please, try to stop now, don't let self harm destroy your life, your happiness. Don't let self harm be your life and happiness. Stop cutting, pick your life up. Talk to your parents and/or your friends. Ask for help. Asking for help is not a shame, not a weakness. You can stop this, better now than next year, when you already depend on cutting. Rescue is possible.

[YesterdaysNews]

12 on my arm and 1 on my stomach

stupid bitch wouldnt leave :(
I was trying to hold myself together... and was hoping that someone to help keep me strong. but since the god damn... ugh!! wouldnt leave, it was too late :( and he couldn;t call...
if this person reads this, its not your fault its my moms...

[Harley Quinn]

43 all deep stomach and arms
some deeper than others
when i "was in the shower"

[Appleton]

Don't let self harm be your life and happiness. Stop cutting, pick your life up. Talk to your parents and/or your friends. Ask for help. Asking for help is not a shame, not a weakness. You can stop this, better now than next year, when you already depend on cutting. Rescue is possible. - From GreyXRainbow

Thanks for the advice. I've talked to a few really good friends on here and read what u guys have said.

i know that i cant let the actions of people that i love drive me to this. the fact that it scares me has made me not want to do it today, even tho it was a really shitty day. im sorry that some of u guys have gotten hooked and didnt get the advice that ur giving me now.

i wish all u guys the best and please know that u can always talk to me. i wanna help u guys like u've helped me. i really do.

hugs

[GreyxRainbow]

Awesome! Stay strong. :hug3:

[Harley Quinn]

14 Deep arm
2 burns
1 very deep hip/side

(When i logged off)

I cant talk about it, its hard too.:(

[ssgliberty]

last night, 9 shallow 1 reopened

EDIT*
13 shallow

edit
15 shallow

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Cut over the newly healed "alone" on left leg.
Followed by another two on left leg.

[Harley Quinn]

1 last night deep
the Word "Hate"

[GreyxRainbow]

3, medium, stomach.

[MysticalBurrito]

Last night: I don't know how many I just went after my arm with a razor..
This morning: Same ^

[Harley Quinn]

This should have never of happened....

Attacked myself with a compass in school..
4 burns with my friends lighter
a little thumb cuts from trying to break open a blade...
I cant talk about it..

[deadpie]

8 on right knuckles
3 on right wrist
18 on upper right arm
31 more cuts on stomach
4 on upper leg

I'm never gonna stop.

[Harley Quinn]

Punched the wall so hard...:(
3 burns
picking at scabs
and poking myself with a safety pin.

[YesterdaysNews]

11 on my stomach and started to burn myself...
its all my fault.

[Harley Quinn]

15 Arm and wrist...surface
2 burns
3 pills

[MysticalBurrito]

Earlier today:
Morning :
5 long up and down my arm, Deep.
Afternoon :
7 Deep arm
9 medium wrist
12 shallow arm
Tonight :
20ish all over arm vary in depth....
:(

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

7, right leg, 1 is somewhat deep

[YesterdaysNews]

7 deep
I'm still not numb...

[Harley Quinn]

8 deep thigh/knee
i can feel more coming. Im weak. :(

[ackmedsgirl666]

a)carved my bestfriends name into my right thigh and sliced a few lines
b)carved my bestfriends name again into my left wrist and cut a few deep lines(both bled like fuckers)
c)carved hopeless into the top of my left thigh

[Harley Quinn]

2 Thigh again deepish
1 burn
8 arm.....

[Atonement]

Normally I try to avoid this thread because I find it very triggering but:

There hasn't been any encouragement in hear for this entire page and that bugs the FUCK out of me.

Everyone, we love you so much. I don't know all of you by name, but that doesn't change how much we care for each and everyone of you. I hope you all will feel better.

[MysticalBurrito]

I did it yesterday afternoon reopened a couple.

[Weeping]

Yesterday, left arm, 1 deep, 1 veery deep. :(

[OhHeyItsTy]

09/21/09

Burned arm with curling iron.
20 seconds

[dream13]

legs-5-10

[MysticalBurrito]

20ish? Arm deep..

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

5 pills.
About 10 left leg.
20ish right leg.

Edit: Another 10 - 15 more, right leg.

[deadpie]

66 on my stomach (normal)
3 on ankle ( deep)
1 burn on upper arm

[aaaaaaaaaaaaaaagg]

Um, I cut myself deep on the weekend. 5 deep-arm. In total? A lot of scars cover my arms.

[YesterdaysNews]

I wasn't counting, I just cut...
and I took seven pills to try and get rid of the pain
^last night

I need to cut again now... :(

[Harley Quinn]

Its finally sank in...shes gone.
55 deep...school.
4 Pills i had on me

[Contra]

Its finally sank in...shes gone.
55 deep...school.
4 Pills i had on me

Oh, Bhan-Bhan... :(

[MysticalBurrito]

10-20 arms deep.
I see no other way out anymore...I'm done trying..

[GreyxRainbow]

:hug:

You are all strong enough to beat this in the end. Rescue is possible.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

6 pills.
About....6 or 7 left leg
5 deep, stomach/chest area

Edit: Another 4 pills.

[DarkWingedAngel]

ok well this sounds kinda weird but anyways
I burnt the word "Death" on my stomach
then did about 25 deep cuts on my thighs




EDIT: I caved after like 20 days of being cut free

[Harley Quinn]

5 deep
8 deep
6 pills
1 burn

[OnlyByTheNight.]

3
Long and shallow
Stomach

[blameitonvogue]

damnit.

8 burns.
left forearm
currently blistering and peeling.

:/

[Harley Quinn]

Everyone can beat this. I love all of you. Dont forget that, :hug:
You can all find the courage to beat this
i Believe in every single one of you
stay strong <3

[MysticalBurrito]

I don't know how many arm deep...
Had a mental breakdown after a fight with my dad...

[2D]

EDIT: Removed

[YesterdaysNews]

15-20 deep on my arm... (last night)

[dead]

6 right arm

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2....

[Harley Quinn]

Eve....:(
You can beat this, i know you can.
Im here if you ever need to talk.

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Thanks Siobhan....

[The Batman]

Just one wow I'm such a hypocrit.

[dead]

idk how many cuts both arms

[The Batman]

3 more on my thigh fuck I'm getting back into my old cycle.

[The Batman]

6 more and I really don't care anymore.

[Harley Quinn]

Thomas snap out of it.
Come on you can do this.
I loves you
:hug:

[The Batman]

Another 5

[Cloud]

Thomas
stop now
or else........

[Darkness]

I don't know what they are but there are 60 of them, they look like scratches and they didn't bleed at all.
Sorry chaps, I lied about not going to cut.
:(

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2....
Looks like I'm back to step one..... Ugh, this is pointless.... I'm never goin to beat it.

[Cloud]

Eva dont think like that
you know you can beat it
so dont dare give up

[The Batman]

Just 5 god I wanted to do so much more

[Harley Quinn]

2....
Looks like I'm back to step one..... Ugh, this is pointless.... I'm never goin to beat it.
.

^^ Eve i know you can beat this, trust me, it will get better soon :hug:

Just 5 god I wanted to do so much more

Thomas, Man stop, you dont need more, you want more there is a difference, i know you can beat this.

[BuryYourFlame]

tom...please stop mate...it ain't doin you any good man...you can do it :)

eve hun...it isn't back to straight out square one...every time we fall down...we learn...learn how to keep from falling again...get even more determined not to fall again...

stay safe peeps...

[theOperaGhost]

Thomas...what's going on?

[Harley Quinn]

Everyone i love you
you can beat this
:hug:
Im here for anyone if they need to talk

[Darkness]

Another 30 left arm, shallow about 15 bled.

[BuryYourFlame]

Another 30 left arm, shallow about 15 bled.

man...please stop :( my msn is on my profile if you wanna talk...

[MysticalBurrito]

6 right arm

idk how many cuts both arms
Connor... ='[
What happened?
:(

[Weeping]

2 stomach :(

[Darkness]

10, shallow, left shoulder.

[dead]

Connor... ='[
What happened?
:(

family, school, stress

[peaceloverugby]

Everyone on here can beat this, because if I can, anyone can. PM me if you want to talk.

[MysticalBurrito]

Last night around 11[?] 5 deep
20ish right arm deep :(

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Eariler, punched the wall a number of times.

[MysticalBurrito]

10 or 15 deep right arm..

[rukiayua]

16 each on my legs deep

[Harley Quinn]

10 or 15 deep right arm..

Karina although we dont talk anymore it doesnt change the fact, im here to talk and im here if you want,:hug3:

Everyone else, you can beat this. I know you can. Nothing will be any problem to big to talk about. *Big group hug*

[rukiayua]

w00t huggs XD, but how exactly does that change anything??????

[Harley Quinn]

w00t huggs XD, but how exactly does that change anything??????

It means im here for anyone that needs help, To talk, vent, anything just PM me and ill try my best to help.

[rukiayua]

while that is very nice and all, um........that still doesn't explain what exactly will take all the pain away..... :( ???

well i guess what i mean, is that if this isn't the way to go about things then, what would be a good supplement?

[MysticalBurrito]

10...

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Chin up everyone, ye can beat this! I have faith in every one of ye. :hug:

well i guess what i mean, is that if this isn't the way to go about things then, what would be a good supplement?

Read the announcement on the top of this part of the forum entitled "read this before cutting", that announcement gives you a list of alot of different things you can do instead of cutting, along with alot of other pieces of information.

[Darkness]

20...light to shallow, would have done more but took sooo long to break the razor open...

[MysticalBurrito]

A hour ago
Scratched open the scabs on my arms and legs...
Still don't want to admit to myself that it was sh =[

[millymollymandy]

50 exactly deep cuts on arm, relapsing so badly

[MysticalBurrito]

9-10 med-deep. a hour ago
12 less than a minute ago...
Going to do more..

[deadpie]

about 60 cuts on wrist
88 on stomach
23 on both legs
95 on left upper arm.

[Darkness]

10 left fore-arm shallow
2 left fore-arm medium

[sarah newman]

3rd October
13 times
Right forearm
deep

[rukiayua]

6 more as deep as i could, right thigh

[MysticalBurrito]

3 two hours ago...deep
Doing more later...

[The Joker]

Karina, don't ever say that. Whether you are planning to or not, you're defeating yourself by saying that.

You can stop!

[MysticalBurrito]

I did 40 more earlier...

[dead]

around 20 med i think? idk didnt feel deep but did bleed alot

[dead]

1 deep 2med-deep 30 med + more later tonight

[Kahn]

Kicked the brick siding of my house today and punched it bare hand and foot... I started doing the about a month ago to appease my anger of my father. Blood was draining from my knuckles and my big toe on my right foot is broken I think.

[Weeping]

last night, about
150 cuts left arm
100 cuts right arm

fuck this </3

[MysticalBurrito]

10 deep... This morning....

[rukiayua]

12 cuts(right arm), 15 on the left

[MysticalBurrito]

Bit my lip until it bled in art class, and 5 deep ankle...

[dead]

2 deep doing more when i run away later today=[

[rukiayua]

well i just bit off all of my nails until they bled, does that count?

[Harley Quinn]

well i just bit off all of my nails until they bled, does that count?

Anything you do to cause pain to oneself, is classed as self harm so yes it does count

[MysticalBurrito]

This morning :

20 Right arm deep
10 Stomach shallow
23[?] Right arm deep
4 left Ankle deep
10[?] Chest shallow.
4 shoulder

[rukiayua]

Anything you do to cause pain to oneself, is classed as self harm so yes it does count

good to kno lolz:rolleyes:

[Syvelocin]

Ten, left arm.
Relapsed again, of course. I think the problem is my bipolar disorder, while I have depression too I get set off so easily.
Stupid medication taking five months to kick in.

[deadpie]

33 on stomach
9 on upper arm
4 on upper legs


just keeps getting better.

[MysticalBurrito]

Last night
50 left thigh
56 right thigh

[rukiayua]

went to the hospital today.....cut a bit too deep (oops) 6 left arm 7 right

[MysticalBurrito]

5 wrists
14? rest of arm deepish

[Lost and Confused1]

15 hours ago

5-right wrist, deep.

15-left wrist, deep

[SkeletonScars]

After 4 years, Ive stopped.
Finally.



Anyone out there has a second chance, you CAN stop.

[Harley Quinn]

God im such a hypocrite

4 deep
8 very deep
52 deeper than deep

it cant take it anymore

[OnlyByTheNight.]

One. Soooo deep. I don't think it will ever properably heal.... I don't deserve it to anyway!!!

[GreyxRainbow]

Siobhan.. :hug:

First of all, you are not a hypocrite.

And you can beat it. I think you're probably tired of hearing that because you think you can't, and I don't know you so well, and I don't know how you're feeling, but I know that you can beat it and I trust you. I love you and I care for you, and I will be here for you if you need me. :hug3:

I will pray for you and think of you. I am not with you in body but I am in mind. Remember that there'll always be a next chance, and that everyone is willing to give you that chance. You can fall, and that is not a shame, but get back up again. Please. Get back up and look up. There's the sky, and at night there will be stars. Remember those stars.

Pretend that the sky is the mirror of the earth, and all those stars are the reflections of people. And the brightest star above you, that is your reflection. You do shine.

And everyone, don't give up, because there'll always be something. Something that makes life happy and worth all the pain you went trough.

OnlyByTheNight (I'm sorry I don't know your name), you deserve to be happy. You deserve everything you need, everything you want., and so much more. You really do. :hug:

[millymollymandy]

After 4 years, Ive stopped.
Finally.



Anyone out there has a second chance, you CAN stop.

WELL DONE!!! so proud of you, :yeah:

lots of small deep cuts arms

[violentcupcake]

... just now..
ive been clean for a month..

[MysticalBurrito]

v.v 30ish on both arms kinda deep.
Wrote "fat", "End it", and "hate" on my right arm...

[Harley Quinn]

15...
"Die" on my thigh

[YesterdaysNews]

7 shallow on my right arm,
I dont know how long I've been cut free but it was over a week....

siobhan, and anyone else for that matter, I'm here if you need to talk or vent, I may not be the best at giving advice but I can listen

[ssgliberty]

15 shallow thigh

[Harley Quinn]

14 deep early this morning....

[Weeping]

1 medium right now
and 2 earlier today

[rukiayua]

i tried stopping, but couldn't. this is now just who i am anymore..
5 on each arm

[Weeping]

right now. right arm. 2 cuts.
fuck.

[MysticalBurrito]

3-4 deep arm...

[Weeping]

now... ten.. left arm..

[Harley Quinn]

1..was an accident but i wanted it so technically it counts =/

[Weeping]

1.. about.. 5 minutes ago??

[YesterdaysNews]

4 deep on my thigh
and 15? on my left arm, not too deep but deep enough

[Harley Quinn]

Amanda im on Msn if you wanna talk, okay?

[Weeping]

maybe.. an hour ago? i sewed my leg..

[Harley Quinn]

5 Deep Thigh.

10 Medium wrist

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Wrote fuck on knuckles.

[Harley Quinn]

Currently in the process....:(
But..;

15
2 mega deep
1 Word

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Siobhan.... stop!!!

One, arm, medium.

[Harley Quinn]

5 very deep, thigh

[The Joker]

Please stop Siobhan!

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

About 12.

[Harley Quinn]

14...last night, deep, made me faint...

[BuryYourFlame]

Siobhan :(...what happened hun?

I'm here if people need someone to talk to. :)

[Harley Quinn]

Some stuff has been eating me for a while, i just broke...bad...
4
12
9
All randomly placed over my body...,Deep.

[YesterdaysNews]

siobhan, PM me or MSN if you need to talk, kay?

about 20 on my arm
fairly deep

[Harley Quinn]

21 Medium Thigh
1 Deep side

Amanda thank you...

7 very close...wrist

[rukiayua]

7 deep on my left shoulder,7kinda deep on my right, and just random stabbings on my thighs

[Harley Quinn]

11
3

Deep

[Contra]

Siobhan, what did you say? No deep cuts...

[Harley Quinn]

Siobhan, what did you say? No deep cuts...

John, im sorry, i just...nevermind
*Remembers promises*

[Holding On*]

After about 2.5 months, one shallow on hip, and two on fingers but no blood, just hacked (Darn blunt blade D: )
lol
am ok now though

[Hanabanana]

Last wednesday- 25 thigh, 21 ankle (week before) 30 hip :( mostly surface cuts few medium

[DarkWingedAngel]

about 10 reallly deep on my stomach

6 "cat scratches"(at least that what i told my mom they were)

15 really deep on my thighs
and a few medium on my shoulders




i was doing so good with not cutting too
i went like 2 or 3 weeks

[MysticalBurrito]

40 on thighs and arms last night :(
All deep

[Harley Quinn]

17...
Deepish..

[MysticalBurrito]

50 deep *Last night

[Darkness]

Just now, one burn, from my tea, on my index finger, because everone was just Pissing me off.
It wasn't really worth it.

[rukiayua]

4 on my thigh deep....2 on my hip shallow, completely sliced my palm open........very deep

[Harley Quinn]

1....Wrist....mega deep...still bleeding
6 medium thigh
2 Finger shallow

[rukiayua]

i think that it's funny, i love blood, as long as it's not mine :D i mean....it kinda makes it hard to cut when you feel as if you're gonna pass put lol but 2 on my right thigh, wont stop bleeding...and i did them last night

[MysticalBurrito]

FUCK!!!! 2 thigh both deep...
I'm done trying...

[death_cookie]

7 time
lefy arm
shallow

[Weeping]

1 before school

[MysticalBurrito]

3 Shallow - Medium
Pushed over the edge by the fighting... :(

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

5 or 6. No reason behind it. Doubt they're that deep. :\

[Jumpit007]

13, just now. Left arm. Semi deep.

First time cutting since June. I fail

[dead]

2 shallow i feel like im going insane without cutting alot
EDIT: 1 deep, 4 shallow

[rukiayua]

6 deep

[Harley Quinn]

1. Deep from last night, only stopped bleeding a few hours ago...
3. Deep. Now. Blood. Side.
EDIT:
5 Pills...

[MysticalBurrito]

Siobhan...What's wrong? :(

[Harley Quinn]

Siobhan...What's wrong? :(

A lot of things are wrong....I don't want to be a burden to anyone...

4 deeper
1 pill.
2 deep