Self Harm Calendar

[TaBear.]

Three
Left wrist
Deep
Sixteen stitches for one,
twelve stitches for another,
nineteen for the last.

Hospital for two days.

I've entered a never ending downward spiral.

[BuryYourFlame]

:( sorry to hear that toria.

im here if you ever wanna talk :)

[Holding On*]

Sorry to hear that! *hugs*

[Holding On*]

one
finger - done with nails from other hand
shallow - blood though

and one month down the drain

[Kathlynn_03]

13 shallow
Right forearm

Damn.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Shallow scratches on leg. Not enough to break skin, but leave a mark. >.< Sorry guys. I just couldn't fight it any longer. I'm sorry.... I hate being a disappointment >.< D: D: D:

[Project Delta]

Morgan, As long as you get up and keep on trying to quit you are not a disappointment in my eyes :)

Steph lets get you back to one month? mmmmmkaaaaaaay

Mousemat you can beat this :)

[Holding On*]

Steph lets get you back to one month? mmmmmkaaaaaaay
mmmmmkkayyyyy :) ((3 days today...))

[Atonement]

2, ankle.

[millymollymandy]

upteen times on arm (left) some deep some not, refusing to get stitched though

[BuryYourFlame]

4, medium, inner leg

[OnlyByTheNight.]

:hug:
Dec, what happened? Are you ok?

[Triceratops]

This thread brings tears to my eyes.

No one deserves to feel the way we do.

It's a fucking battle every day. Where I'm treading on thin ice and the closer I get to losing it all.

Everyone here who doesn't feel good enough, you are special to me, I honestly mean that.

:hug:

[BuryYourFlame]

meh...i guess i'll be ok...i just really...really need a proper hug...stupid continents...

[MysticalBurrito]

30-40 leg
I'm sorry.

[Flutterfly]

30-40 leg
I'm sorry.

Karina... what happened? =[
Just try again, you can do it. I love you.

[Atonement]

3, wrist/hand, thigh, ankle.

[MysticalBurrito]

Karina... what happened? =[
Just try again, you can do it. I love you.

:( I'm having a hard time right now

49 Left leg deep
2 Right leg too deep :(

[millymollymandy]

awww please don't feel like that..
if you wanna talk any time please just pm me.
*hug*
Stay strong and have belief xx

[MysticalBurrito]

I waited...
:(
10-20 Legs...
:(

[millymollymandy]

I waited...
:(
10-20 Legs...
:(

I'm sorry your feeling like this, did anything spark it?
Please if you want to talk or just rant, just whiz me a pm, i want to help :)

Trust in yourself and keep all harming equiptment away from you if possible so the intent of harming may be reduced.

[Triceratops]

This thread brings tears to my eyes.

No one deserves to feel the way we do.

It's a fucking battle every day. Where I'm treading on thin ice and the closer I get to losing it all.

Everyone here who doesn't feel good enough, you are special to me, I honestly mean that.

:hug:

I sometimes feel that people don't listen to me here. *Sigh*.

[MysticalBurrito]

:( I read it...
I just feel like it's possible...

>.< Close to doing it again...

[BuryYourFlame]

i do marcie ^_^

karina...please...no more cutting...it isn't worth it :(

[Project Delta]

I read it too marcie... it made me feel a bit better tbh

[Holding On*]

About 14-18 on hip. Not that deep... I'd say shallow, but there was def blood...

[millymollymandy]

*HUGS* for everyone...
we can do it, if we stay strong and have belief.
we must find alternatives to try to release this...to stop us doing it.

Foreveryours...please try to believe in it, i know its hard but sometimes when you force yourself to belief it is true, it can be true (sorry if you don't understand)

Electric muffin...what happened? hugs, i hope you are okay

[Holding On*]

Yeh i'm fine... thanks

[millymollymandy]

:) oh good, i hope the cuts heal okay. *hug*

[Holding On*]

-Another 21, slightly deeper then the others but still shallow?? i dont know... need to aply pressure for them to stop though... :/

[millymollymandy]

-Another 21, slightly deeper then the others but still shallow?? i dont know... need to aply pressure for them to stop though... :/
please, i'm sorry that your feeling like this, stay strong...i wish i could take the pain away, but i know i can't. Is there anything i can do to help?

Feel free to whiz me a message if you want to chat, as i want to give you support.

[Holding On*]

thanks for the offer but im fine...

[millymollymandy]

are you sure, well anyway the offer is always there :) please stay strong, keep the harming items away from you.

[BuryYourFlame]

As important as this conversation is, it is not related to the thread, please take it to PM's.

[Spin]

5.
Fck.

[BuryYourFlame]

:( PM me if you feel like talkin bout it...kay?

[Holding On*]

Done another 3 erlier this evenning (severalhours ago) but I am back in my mindset of stopping.... I hope

[dead]

6 left arm shallow, tried to not cut as hard as I could yet I failed.

[MysticalBurrito]

:( Are you ok?
What's wrong?
:hug3:

[dead]

ya i'm sorta ok thanks for asking just family issues, another 10 shallow on same arm...

[MadManWithaBox]

10, right arm. damn it, was on a pact with kyrra. and i shouldn't have done it on the arm, cos its clearly visible.

[Waiting]

5 cuts - bled
lower leg, shins, places where i thought my girlfriend would least likely think to look.

edit - make that 7

[millymollymandy]

about a dozen on legs,
30 each arm.
Can't fight it anymore

[BuryYourFlame]

you can fight it :hug: dont give up...

[millymollymandy]

15ish arms (going over last)
40ish stomach

no i really can't...the force is just to strong.

[ackmedsgirl666]

engraved "hopeless" on my stomach
pretty deep
ur deffs not hopeless(agree with gwyn)
your worth so much more then that hun

[MysticalBurrito]

:( If you need to talk feel free to PM me
:hug3:

[optimashprime]

or me im here to help

[The Batman]

I just want to remind everyone here that if you ever need some help dont hesitate to pm any of us or our Counselor Autumn (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/member.php?u=6243) We are here to help.

[MadManWithaBox]

quite a lot, im not sure. both arms, i just cut and cut and cut and cut. feel a little bit better now. there's no free skin on my arms though. gonna be hard to hide

[MysticalBurrito]

:(
:hug3:
what's wrong?

[MadManWithaBox]

@foreveryours - if that was directed at me, i got beat up last night, cos someone hates me that much they would ask people to beat me up, which presumably means everybody does, which presumably means everyone is lying to me, and.... i dont know right now. my head is a right mess. im down to 2 friends. i think most people hate me. and im giving up. on everything

[GreyxRainbow]

6 shallow - medium
4 bleeding.

[BuryYourFlame]

becca...what's up? :( PM me if you want...

[Project Delta]

Awe no becca.... msn?

[The Batman]

4 burns, my first time and it wasn't much but still it did it's job.

[kirsty]

12, left arm, all bleeding...

:(

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Hang in there. Think positive and you can beat it.

[Project Delta]

i feel i may have to post here soon :(


Forget the above, i promised robin if she didnt cut i wouldnt so i'm not posting in here again unless its advicec

[MysticalBurrito]

:(
:hug:
Thomas what's wrong?

[YesterdaysNews]

20
left wrist/forearm
somewhat deep
:(

[Project Delta]

Amanda you okay? want to talk?

[YesterdaysNews]

sure aaron. Im feel like im in a hole and i just cut myself deeper to try and get out but it has the opposite effect, does that make sense?

7
right thigh
deep
:[

[Harley Quinn]

....

[Project Delta]

Amanda you got msn? add [email protected]

[Harley Quinn]

....

[MysticalBurrito]

:( 1 deep

[Kaius]

My arms are covered in scars. Although more recently i've been cutting more due to stress. When i started cutting two years ago, i engraved 'you did this' on my right shoulder, which was aimed at an ex. Now im starting to get worse again. :/

left: 7 big ones, 40 small ones, a few of which still bleeding
Right: 2 big ones, 40-45 smaller ones, more of which are bleeding.

[YesterdaysNews]

haven't started yet but
unknown
very deep
left and possibley right wrist
i have no reason to go on...

[Harley Quinn]

10 more *sigh*

[MadManWithaBox]

@froglegs -whats up? 50 stomach, feel slightly naseous now

[Harley Quinn]

....

[OnlyByTheNight.]

15
Left wrist
Mostly deep

[YesterdaysNews]

frogslegs, if you ever need to talk you can pm me or add me on msn

[kirsty]

another 30 times on my hip.
i found some stuff that reminded me of my childhood and i got totally freaked me out. although my ''parents'' searched my room and threw out all my blades, i've got a secret stash. was having an okay day aswell...
tomorrow is now going to be brutal...:(
sorry to Steph especially, and everyone else thats tried to help me.

[BuryYourFlame]

7 inner leg shallow, not much blood...

[Flutterfly]

It's okay Kirsty, I know you tried... or you wouldn't have let me try to help you.

7 inner leg shallow, not much blood...


Why? =[

[Sunshine Girl]

4,forearm,shallow :/

[MysticalBurrito]

:( Sterling what's wrong??

[peaceloverugby]

Why? =[

because of me:(

[BuryYourFlame]

because of me:(

not.because.of.you.

sterling...if you wanna talk...just send me a pm...

[Harley Quinn]

....

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

About 20, right leg, not too deep. Bled though...

[MysticalBurrito]

2...Thigh...Deep... :(

[peaceloverugby]

aww Karina :( PM me if you want to talk

[Josh9961]

4 times
left arm
deep

[Syvelocin]

30 at least, left arm
Nothing severe, but I'll have the scars for a while

[BuryYourFlame]

If anyone wants to talk, they are welcome to send me a PM :)

[MysticalBurrito]

One...Ankle...Deep

Edit: 4-5 more on my chest..

[MadManWithaBox]

like 20, on my shoulder, going over ones from the night before. i wish id cleaned my razor now, cos i did it at like 5am this morning and ive been feeling as sick as a dog ever since

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Another 10ish... Right leg. No reason for them other than I could >.<

[OnlyByTheNight.]

2
Left wrist
Shallow

I feel like I'm on a downwards spiral.

[Cloud]

Eve talk to me okay
:hug:

[Josh9961]

14
left arm and from shallow to deep
wont stop bleeding
Because I deserved it.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Another 15-20. Right leg again.

Edit: 2 on shoulder, 2 stomach, about 10 left leg >.< I don't know what the hell is wrong with me... I'm sorry guys >.<

(All of these are shallow, just enough to bleed)

[The Batman]

2 on my leg he's been here 4 hours and already he's pissing me off. I already know he's going to be causing more tonight.

[Josh9961]

Thomas I know it probably wont work but try cutting up something else. Like a bottle or a pillow or some paper. It might not stop you for long but you can try :whoops: its better than nothing. Youre better than him.

[MysticalBurrito]

20 more chest...A couple hours ago but they still burn...

[BuryYourFlame]

:hug: no-one deserves these...if any of you wanna talk, shoot me a PM...

[piggy-wiggy]

one each arm... nothing too deep...

[YesterdaysNews]

1
right thigh
bleeding heavily.
only about a centimeter long though

[Harley Quinn]

10 left wrist still bleeding
Feel so much better now though

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Nothing yet... I'm close to it though >.< And nothing has triggered it

Edit: Nevermind... 2, left shoulder. Crossing yesterday's in a little tictactoe style >.<

Edit: 3, right leg

[NightFighter]

6 cuts on the wrist.
I didnt feel much relief until i got to 6.

[kt2369]

i went so long without cutting and a few days ago i did something i never did, burn myself. i picked up something else now:(

[dead]

6 cuts shallow,and I got so far only for this to happen.

[MysticalBurrito]

:hug: Are you ok?
What's wrong? :(

[dead]

I don't know if i'm ok. stress, life, and family just have been taking me down and I have barely any fight in me.

[Harley Quinn]

.....

[hereitgoes]

2, really deep, left arm.
my girlfriend cheated on me.

[Harley Quinn]

....

[millymollymandy]

covered my thigh (left)- and now there lots of blood and my leg has swolen :(

[YesterdaysNews]

3 and counting
left wrist
not too deep but deep enough to bleed steadily
:(

EDIT
up to 11

[Harley Quinn]

.....

[MysticalBurrito]

:( If anyone needs to talk feel free to add me on msn or PM me here
:hug:

[YesterdaysNews]

2
left wrist
very shallow, didnt bleed

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Three. Right leg. Dunno how deep. I just did it and covered them up. Doubt its deep though

[YesterdaysNews]

5
stomach
shallow but bled
i did them last night

[Harley Quinn]

....

[MadManWithaBox]

16 deep right wrist. this has been the worst week of my life that i can remember. i dont know what to do now

[YesterdaysNews]

3 on my stomach
water logged my phone and cant talk to my boyfriend :(
shitty day all around

edit
3 more on my stomach, 2 on my wrist, 2 on my elbow, 3 on my thigh & i carved "hate me" into my leg.
Im a mess :(

[BuryYourFlame]

i care and so do many others here...kay? never think we don't...

:hug:

[dead]

5 cuts somewhat deep

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

About 5-10 all shallow, legs...

[Atonement]

I try to stay away from here if I can, but if anyone ever needs to talk, I'm open. Also, I hope everyone else feels better.

[YesterdaysNews]

3 on my stomach, 1 on my thigh
im sorry
it was on impulse, i didnt think, i just cut.

[Harley Quinn]

2 shoulder
2 thigh
5 arm
1 knee

[Fallen_embers]

6 on arm.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

[YesterdaysNews]

hey Siobhan, you okay?
if you ever need to talk you can pm me or talk to me on yahoo/msn k?
:hug:

[YesterdaysNews]

you can do it, stay strong, dont give up :hug:

[Harley Quinn]

Im not strong enough anymore

[Fallen_embers]

I cut too deep on friday. had to have stitches.
I tried so hard
but now theres 3/4 on my hand :(

[BuryYourFlame]

Come on Avril and Siobhan, pick yourselves up and you can start again, it isn't back to square one...

If you wanna talk you can send me a PM :)

[dead]

Couple cuts dont know how deep, dont want to try anymore

[millymollymandy]

51- on both arms, don't know why it was 51 exactly though

hate it so much, i think i may need to get stitchs for some :(

[YesterdaysNews]

I relapsed... 2 days down the drain :(
3
wrist
somewhat deep

[Harley Quinn]

Amanda what happened? Im here if you need me

[YesterdaysNews]

I actually didnt mean to cut. I was just running the razor over my wrist (stupid idea) and it slipped, and when I saw the blood... :(

[Fallen_embers]

27 on my left arm.
18 scratches. 9 cuts
I just went mental.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

6ish, left leg, not too deep

[Project Delta]

Aw no morgan :( Keep trying though? Kay?

[YesterdaysNews]

I dont know how many
left wrist
moderate

[YesterdaysNews]

siobhan, you are strong enough to keep going :hug: please dont give in

[YesterdaysNews]

you can beat this, I know it

[Viral Death]

Just hang in there! Do you need to talk? I can give you my yahoo or msn!

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

You are not a failure.

Edit: Another 20-35ish on my right leg. Vary in deepness.

[YesterdaysNews]

you can do it siobhan

many on my wrist & wrote fail on my leg

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

10-20 right leg. I just want to feel numb...

[kt2369]

i broke today again :(
deep cut on my arm.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I dunno how many more, right leg again

Edit: About 10-15, left shoulder, roughly same on left leg. I just feel so alone. I don't know who to turn to.

Edit: About 10 on left arm, roughly 5 on left leg.

[YesterdaysNews]

8 on stomach, one wrist and one on the back of my hand
deep enough to bleed

[kt2369]

i did it again today :(
on my wrist

[wildeyed]

6 left hand, 10+ right thigh, 2 left arm.

medium to deep.

there goes 3 months.

[dead]

around 30 both arms cant stop....

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Punched the wall which bruised my knuckles and tore at the skin >.<

[millymollymandy]

3 deep can just about see the muscle (arm/wrist)

[dead]

40 more shoulder and arm

[The Batman]

Just one on my leg it wouldn't break the skin or bleed so i gave up.

[Vegancuppycake]

-Left wrist
-17 times
-shallow

[YesterdaysNews]

5
wrist
only bled for a second

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

:( I know you can all beat this. :hug: for you all.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I feel that this should be in a seperate post as its not encouragement, feel free to move though.

About 20, left shoulder, some bled, some didn't.
8 left arm, barely broke the skin
About 15 on right arm, some bled, others didn't
20ish on left left leg, some worse than others, more just stratches.
Followed about 10 more on left arm.

Sorry guys >.< Whats wrong with me? :(:(

[YesterdaysNews]

a few, 5-8
wrist
only one really bled...

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Another 5 or so on right arm. I want to cut deeper but can't seem too... I feel so confused...

[Underground_Network]

Amanda you can overcome this. :hug:

I know you can.

If you need to talk to me, if something is bothering you or you just have the urge to cut, get in touch with me! I only wish the best for you Amanda. :hug:

[dead]

10 -15 earlier this morning but im now back on my feet to not cut!

[YesterdaysNews]

20+ (last night)
deep enough to bleed
left wrist

[YesterdaysNews]

I dont think I am...
thanks siobhan

[Sunshine Girl]

left arm.
enough.
dont be mad :/

[YesterdaysNews]

30
arm
bled.
:(

[Underground_Network]

Sterling, why? :/

[BuryYourFlame]

:( sterling and amanda...if you wanna talk...you can always send me a PM or something, same goes for everyone else...

[MysticalBurrito]

Sterling....:( You ok?
:hug3:

[OnlyByTheNight.]

You ok Sterling? :hug:

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Far too many, about 40-50ish.... I dunno >.< Left shoulder and top of arm. None bled straight away.

Edit: 6, right leg, deeper

[Zephyr]

Last night.
8 burns,
2 cuts that hit small veins.
[fail]

[MysticalBurrito]

=[ Steph are you ok?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Another 15ish? right leg... I can no longer see any point. I'm not even gonna bother trying now.

Edit: Roughly 20, right arm

[peaceloverugby]

might as will post now, im no gonna remember this tomorrow

12 cans of beer, a pint of whiskey, and half a bottle of vodka....at least i didnt cut

[2D]

4 cuts
left forearm

[Project Delta]

you okay jeff?

[MadManWithaBox]

20 left shoulder, ranging from shallow to deep, 20 right shoulder, ranging from shallow to deep. feel better and worse at the same time.

[Project Delta]

You okay Matty?

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know. I don't know what to feel, how to feel, what to do, i just feel like crying, yet i feel ok, yet there's nothing. all the shit thats happened in the last 3 weeks catching up, and now i dont know

[Project Delta]

talk on msn? k?

[MadManWithaBox]

i left my laptop at my mothers. till i buy a new one no msn, all i have is ps3 for web browsing. 10, deep, left wrist.

[YesterdaysNews]

this is from last night...
10
left forearm
all deeper than I've cut before but its not terribly deep.
one is still kinda bleeding right now :\

edit
I forgot that I also hit myself a few times... probably killed a few brain cells

[YesterdaysNews]

again with my mom... it seems kinda dumb but its always when she takes my phone... I usually go on the computer when shes asleep to keep my mind off of cutting but last night I didnt. as soon as theres no phone, I fall really low... I feel like I have no escape, other than cutting

[Project Delta]

I'm gonna be a tad harsh but take to pm's since its just between you two

[YesterdaysNews]

no, she'll ask why and I cant tell her about him...
EDIT
sorry aaron
& everyone

[piggy-wiggy]

6, both forearms..
damn.. not again, i cant stand being back at square one again.. this feels horrible.......

[MysticalBurrito]

I'm sorry....
I'm sorry....
I'm sorry....
Why am I so weak??
7 right arm

[Project Delta]

Slipping up doesn't mean your weak. Giving up does. Your just human and human's are BOUND to make mistakes so dont dwell on it too hard. i know that seems hard but try.

[2D]

Had the intention to cut my leg to bits. I got one cut in and my mom walked in. Thank God I was able to play it off. She didn't realize what I was doing. I think...

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

About 10 on each arm. 20-30 on right leg.

[MadManWithaBox]

damn it, 2 deep, leg. 3 times today, im such an idiot.

[dead]

10-20 left arm

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

15-20 right leg.

[Rutherford The Brave]

15-20 right leg.

What happened hun?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

What happened hun?

My mum annoyed me... Thats it basically. >.<