Suppressed Memory?

[autismtwin]

I think I was sexually abused as a child, but I am not sure. Looking back, it would have been between the ages of 4-7.

I have been cutting myself since the age of ten, but I started self harming in general at a very young age. I remember being five and six; and bruising, scratching, and biting myself. I have been suicidal since I was a little kid. I have attempted suicide eight times. I have had EDNOS (now Atypical Anorexia) since I was twelve.

Last summer, I saw someone at a family gathering. I got a whiff of his cologne. I hadn't seen this person in years, and the way he hugged me triggered something.

Ever since then, I have been getting hallucinations, and flashbacks. The memories are few and far between. One situation felt so real. I felt as if someone was on top of me. I've seen a man walk around, but at first I didn't see his face. I saw him walk in and out of my room many times. Once, he brought a little girl in (me) and he abused her. Now, I've seen his face and I know exactly who he looks like. And now, I can hear footsteps; sometimes it sounds as if someone is trying to get into my room. These hallucinations are the worst at night.

I have also started dissociating. So, I heard suppressed memories aren't common, but I'm not sure. Is it normal to just remember abuse years after the event happened?

[Haydenn3]

I think I was sexually abused as a child, but I am not sure. Looking back, it would have been between the ages of 4-7.

I have been cutting myself since the age of ten, but I started self harming in general at a very young age. I remember being five and six; and bruising, scratching, and biting myself. I have been suicidal since I was a little kid. I have attempted suicide eight times. I have had EDNOS (now Atypical Anorexia) since I was twelve.

Last summer, I saw someone at a family gathering. I got a whiff of his cologne. I hadn't seen this person in years, and the way he hugged me triggered something.

Ever since then, I have been getting hallucinations, and flashbacks. The memories are few and far between. One situation felt so real. I felt as if someone was on top of me. I've seen a man walk around, but at first I didn't see his face. I saw him walk in and out of my room many times. Once, he brought a little girl in (me) and he abused her. Now, I've seen his face and I know exactly who he looks like. And now, I can hear footsteps; sometimes it sounds as if someone is trying to get into my room. These hallucinations are the worst at night.

I have also started dissociating. So, I heard suppressed memories aren't common, but I'm not sure. Is it normal to just remember abuse years after the event happened?

This does sound like suppressed memory's but the only things you can do is tell someone and get help ASAP the man who did this will not be charged by police as you have no physical evidence so dont even try get them involved just tell someone AND GET HELP NOW

[autismtwin]

I have told someone. I told my therapist. I was just wondering if it sounds like I could have been abused as a child.

[HunterBlue]

My dad is a psychologist. He says suppressed memory is mostly bs. Many people have been wrongly convicted because of "suppressed memory" and later proven to be completely innocent. Most psychologists and law courts now view claims of suppressed memory with a lot of skepticism. You can actually change someone memory with suggestion.

So I don't know that you are avoided or really have suppressed memory but I would be careful with that. Running with that can lead to depression. For example, mist if the people who said they had suppressed memmories became very depressed thinking and talking about these memories. And when they later found out that there was no possible way theese thing took place and thy the memories were put there by suggestion, try became even more depressed and suicidal. ESP after realizingbtheybhad falsely accused friends and family.

So be careful about that.

[Texas warrior]

I have told someone. I told my therapist. I was just wondering if it sounds like I could have been abused as a child.

That is the best way to go about it, keep on talking to him and see what he has to say.

[xmojox]

I have told someone. I told my therapist. I was just wondering if it sounds like I could have been abused as a child.

It does sound possible. Bring up the possibility of PTSD with your therapist. Early childhood abuse could cause that, and PTSD could account for the suppressed memories, hallucinations, and flashbacks, and maybe even your coping behaviors.

[autismtwin]

He's abused other people before, though.

[Lofiel]

He's abused other people before, though. You're in the same boat as me, but I'm a guy.

So I can't even tell people I was abused or they will accuse me of things like, "being gay". It's just fruitless, I've kept it to myself and three people in real life; because nothing I ever do will change it.

Just focus on the future. :yes: