Gone Wrong...

[xxloveyoolukexx]

I've done something bad and well i hate myself for it,,,, i two timed my boyfriend with my best friend,,, i have no idea why i did it but i put a stop to it and got my best friend a girl friend but now i'm all depressed and i just cried for a whole hour :( I don't know what to think,,, i love my boyfriend but now i feel like my best friend is just gunna forget about me,,, I feel lonely now even if i'm surrounded by people and today at school i just couldn't concentrate! for some reason all i could think about was my best friend!!
I don't know what to do! i feel horrible and useless and i feel like theres no point in me living :( Why is life so confusing???
:(

xxxx

[thesphinx]

first of all welcome to VT. My advise would be, Be honest to everyone it will make you feel better. are you still with your boyfriend? why do you feel like you will be forgotten?

[xxloveyoolukexx]

I'm still with my boyfriend and he knows i snogged my best friend once but thats not true it had been going on for ages =[ i feel so bad and confused i hate myself =[ im easily forgotten really =[

[thesphinx]

Don't hate yourself people make mistakes. Hating yourself is the worst thing you can do. you could also talk to your best friend about what you are feeling, that might help.

[xxloveyoolukexx]

i can't tell my best friend cos he's just got a girlfriend which i got him and i just can't tell him how i feel cos im scared that he will just not wanna be friends with me anymore
i thought making him have a girlfriend would sort all the problems between me and him but now i guess i miss him =[ its hard 2 go near him cos before he had his girlfriend i would always give in and kiss him =[ i dont no what to do =[

[david_1994]

Is there anyone else you can talk to, a teacher, a parent/gaurdian. even a different best or mabey not best friend, just someone who is close to you really!!

There are many people that have gone through this problem. Mabey not under the same sircumstances but still under the same pressure and felling the same as you!

Try not to let it get you down.

If you dont want to let it get you down. Mabey write everything that happens, all your emotions, all your felling onto some sheets of paper, to get it off your chest. Then at the end of the week or month or even year!!! Burn the lot, or somehow destroy them! Just to get it of your chest. I have heard of other people doing this. Apparently it works!!!!!!

[thesphinx]

i can't tell my best friend cos he's just got a girlfriend which i got him and i just can't tell him how i feel cos im scared that he will just not wanna be friends with me anymore
i thought making him have a girlfriend would sort all the problems between me and him but now i guess i miss him =[ its hard 2 go near him cos before he had his girlfriend i would always give in and kiss him =[ i dont no what to do =[

Well I think you need to talk to him about what you are feeling so you can get it off your chest.

[xxloveyoolukexx]

I don't think i can really talk about it to anyone else really especially my parents and no offence to some of my friends but sometimes they don't understand and others would probably think im a nasty person for doing it!
I think i might try that actually it may work.

[thesphinx]

If you don't feel comfortable talking with anyone, than maybe a counselor would be a good option. they will listen to you with out judging and they can help you get over these things a lot faster than you normally would be able to.

[danzi boi]

Hi jo its dan. I will help you, at school, over MSN, wotever u want!!! I will post again later!!! BI

[xxloveyoolukexx]

I might try a counciler but how do yoo get one??
Lol i'm a little dumb yoo see!!!
but if i did get one i wouldn't want my parents to know cos they are always worried bout me and i dont wanna make them ask me millions of questions!!!

Oh i knew it!!
i feel my best friend is now kind of moving away from me [if you get what i mean]
i dont wanna feel like this =[
i wanna be over him
i got him a girlfriend so he wouldnt come after me anymore but i guess thats gone wrong =[
xx

[thesphinx]

Are you in school? if so you should have a guidance counselor. talk to him, he's a trained professional who will help you figure out the right thing. and he is 100% confidential with what you talk about.

[xxloveyoolukexx]

I am still at school,
i didn't know there was one of them =s
at the moment i have a peer mentor
but i don't think its working =[
my heart aches =[
i can't smile at the moment!
oh and i also have a lil issue with self harming =S

[thesphinx]

What kind of Self Injury are you talking about? you can probably just talk to the people at the front desk in your school, a teacher. someone who works there and they can hook you up with a counselor.

[xxloveyoolukexx]

Do yoo have 2 pay for a counselor??
Well at some times i cut my arm =S
my best friend can tell there's something wrong with me and so can my boyfriend they keep asking whats wrong but i just can't tell them =[

[thesphinx]

No your guidance counselor should be free to talk to that's his/hers job.
Why can't you talk to your friend/boyfriend about what's going on?

[xxloveyoolukexx]

Well my boyfriend will get angry if i tell him what's wrong really and if i tell him the whole truth i might loose him forever =[
I can't tell my best friend cos it was my idea for him to get a girl friend and to tell him that i can't stop thinking about him just shows i've given in again for him =[ but anyway if i did there would be nothing he could do now =[

[thesphinx]

Well I would go to a counselor and he can help you figure this all out.

[Maverick]

Depression -> Relationships

[xxloveyoolukexx]

Now things are going wrong between me and my boyfriend and i dont no what 2 do!!
he thought bout dumping me yesterday
and we keep having arguements
what can i do???
='[