I just need to know how to....

[Haydenn3]

I just dont know how to cope anymore;

Im just so sad tired meaningless:( So to speak and now i feel like shit im going to fail school and no i cant do nothing bout it i have 5 weeks left till my exams start
i started to get better I applied for a job i was starting to care about my appearance now but i guess i was to nasty when i was little hurt to many people and now karma is getting me back yes i blame everything on myself
im so stressed with school now to add this on top of it its clearly a sign that im not welcome on this earths plains i already know i want to jump of high building or some shit so i can die in peace and harmony with the earth i feel better when im outside and i love nature i just dont know how to cope anymore
my mum has depression she has over dosed once before a few years back and now i fear with this news to she will go back to how she was and try again if my mum gets bad again i really dont want to be here to see her die
although there are certain factors making change my mind about suicide That is my niece and two nephews who are 5,3,and 5 months old i just hate the thought of me leaving them my niece adores me and i hate to think of my sister explaining that im gone thats what really gets me and makes me upset to think about also if my mum stays strong and then i kill myself then how is my mum going to cope aswell if i go im sure it will wreck my familys life but if i dont think about this things i could happily kill myself

Thanks for the replies if you even have replied i dont blame you if you dont im clearly not worth it but thanks anyways
Hayden

[The LOLer]

Noooooo, don't kill yourself, that is not the answer. Neither are drugs. They'll take away the pain temporarily but then what? And maybe, have you ever thought instead of karma that maybe god is trying to get your attention? Do this for me, pray to god and ask him to help you.