AhoyAlex
April 17th, 2013, 10:51 AM
My parents found out I had been self harming, self medicating, and taking laxatives. I was in a very bad time and when they found out I was threatened with being sent to a mental health asylum. From that day, about two months ago I haven't done any of that. (Well some, but no cutting or burning.)
After I decided to come out the second time as Transgender do my friends, they accepted me well. The first time around I felt... like i was proving a point more than acutally expressing my gender disfunction? Now I am really feeling what it's like being a trans* male like I am.
The feeling of not being right is killing me, and I need to hurt myself again. The past few days I have been picking out all my flaws, everything wrong with me. I was extremely happy for a while, but now... I feel ashamed of myself. Is there anything too do to be happy again? It's just I feel like I want to hurt myself. Or well, honestly it's kill myself. I really think thats the best thing... I just.... I don't know hat to do anymore.
After I decided to come out the second time as Transgender do my friends, they accepted me well. The first time around I felt... like i was proving a point more than acutally expressing my gender disfunction? Now I am really feeling what it's like being a trans* male like I am.
The feeling of not being right is killing me, and I need to hurt myself again. The past few days I have been picking out all my flaws, everything wrong with me. I was extremely happy for a while, but now... I feel ashamed of myself. Is there anything too do to be happy again? It's just I feel like I want to hurt myself. Or well, honestly it's kill myself. I really think thats the best thing... I just.... I don't know hat to do anymore.