I think I'm "scared" of growing up?

[Cicero]

So I noticed when I turned 13, I was scared of talking about girls, showing any signs of puberty, and I actually hated the fact that I was 13, because I would be known as a teenager. Now, I recently celebrated my 18th birthday, and I'm STILL worried of showing signs of puberty, talking about girls, and I am hating the fact I'm now being considered an adult.

I think I might know why I don't want to grow up, but idk for sure. When I was younger, life was great. I had a few close friends, and my grandma was still alive and I just remember all of the memories I have with her and I remember all the tv shows I watched at her house. Now that I'm older, I'm bullied more often than I used to be, and I have only 1 close friend.

I haven't worn shorts in front of my dad/mom since I was in 4th grade, because it might show my leg hair. I have no idea why I'm like this. I feel like if it has anything to do with growing up or being a teenager, I don't want to associate myself with it. I'll wear shorts when my parents aren't around, but If I know there's a chance of my parents seeing me with shorts, I will just wear pants and not wear shorts. When I started wearing shorts in public (which wasn't, really, till last year), I kinda felt, um, sexually aroused. It's almost like I associate wearing shorts and Nike crew socks with some type of crazy arousing sexual act.

I also never talk about girls, like, I want to avoid the whole subject. I talk more about guys than I do girls (mostly how I hate most of the guys in my school lol). When my dad has asked me if I like any girls in my class, I said yeah. But it was as embarrassing as talking about masturbation with your parents.



So why am I like this? What's wrong with me?

[Rayquaza]

Puberty doesn't stop until around 21, so you're probably still maturing. It usually happens at around this time, the transition of becoming an adult from a teenager. There isn't anything wrong, it's normal for all guys to be shy. You just need to make the effort to make yourself attractive and approachable and you won't feel as shy. But to be honest I'd say it's still early days to be thinking about getting into a relationship and settling down.

[jayyy-lmao]

It's ok to be scared of growing up. I long for the days when it was just fun and games. Cooties turned to french kissing, name calling turned to bullying, crying to cutting, smiling to shouting laughing, everything changes, and being scared is part of growing up.

[workingatperfect]

It's ok to be scared of growing up, but the shorts thing is a little weird.

Also, didn't you just say in a topic yesterday that you're almost turning 18? Now suddenly you've recently turned 18?

[Cicero]

It's ok to be scared of growing up, but the shorts thing is a little weird.

Also, didn't you just say in a topic yesterday that you're almost turning 18? Now suddenly you've recently turned 18?

It was the day before.

[workingatperfect]

It was the day before.

No, it was made yesterday, barely 12 hours before this one was made. So your birthday is today then?

[Cicero]

No, it was made yesterday, barely 12 hours before this one was made. So your birthday is today then?

http://i.imgur.com/EsooF2Fl.jpg

I made it April 15.