Depressed daily

[Faolan]

Whenever I'm alone, my happiness that I get from being around people plummets. I can only listen to sad music, and it's near impossible to get my homework done. My head is filled with thoughts of everything that's wrong with me, wether they're true or not, and of all the traits in others that I desire to have. "I'm not tall enough, I'm not skinny enough, my eyes and hair are too dark," but most of all, "I'm gay/bi." All of my emotions bottle up inside me while I'm at school, and I don't want to let them out there for fear of burdening others with my problems and being called a wuss. As soon as I get home, off the mask comes, and out come the tears. I've tried coming out to some of my friends, but to little success. No one takes me seriously enough.
I just thought it interesting that my "depressed feelings" come only when I'm alone. It's hard cause I'm an introvert and used to like being alone.
Does anyone have a similar dilemma?

[jayyy-lmao]

Whenever I'm alone, my happiness that I get from being around people plummets. I can only listen to sad music, and it's near impossible to get my homework done. My head is filled with thoughts of everything that's wrong with me, wether they're true or not, and of all the traits in others that I desire to have. "I'm not tall enough, I'm not skinny enough, my eyes and hair are too dark," but most of all, "I'm gay/bi." All of my emotions bottle up inside me while I'm at school, and I don't want to let them out there for fear of burdening others with my problems and being called a wuss. As soon as I get home, off the mask comes, and out come the tears. I've tried coming out to some of my friends, but to little success. No one takes me seriously enough.
I just thought it interesting that my "depressed feelings" come only when I'm alone. It's hard cause I'm an introvert and used to like being alone.
Does anyone have a similar dilemma?

Yeah. I get the same feeling. I feel like this a lot, and really, what you need to do is tell a friend, or a family member, that you trust enough to tell all these things. What do you mean, no one takes you seriously? Like, when you say "I'm gay," they don't believe you? You just need to explain it to them. You can't just take a deep breath and say it. You need to say something like "Look, (friends name), I'm gay. I know this for a fact. I like the same sex, or both sexes, or whatever ya fancy, bro. And I need you to accept me for who I am. I'm not a different person just because I'm gay, I'm still me, but you need to accept that I am gay."
Hope this helps you, bro.

[Fanta_Lover44]

Hey man! I never thought the day would come when someone else had the same problem, i don't like what i am and it's hard to accept it, I think what you need to do is talk to someone, i found that online people are really good because i can tell them everything as we barely know each other! You need to let you're feelings out by telling people, i started cutting at one point but then learnt that it's not the best route to take....

Message me sometime, i will listen and suggest ideas :)

[Faolan]

What do you mean, no one takes you seriously? Like, when you say "I'm gay," they don't believe you?

I'm a bit of a goof, so everyone thinks I'm trying to crack a joke. i guess I just have to say, "No, I'm serious."

[Danny Phantom]

Whenever I'm alone, my happiness that I get from being around people plummets. I can only listen to sad music, and it's near impossible to get my homework done. My head is filled with thoughts of everything that's wrong with me, wether they're true or not, and of all the traits in others that I desire to have. "I'm not tall enough, I'm not skinny enough, my eyes and hair are too dark," but most of all, "I'm gay/bi." All of my emotions bottle up inside me while I'm at school, and I don't want to let them out there for fear of burdening others with my problems and being called a wuss. As soon as I get home, off the mask comes, and out come the tears. I've tried coming out to some of my friends, but to little success. No one takes me seriously enough.
I just thought it interesting that my "depressed feelings" come only when I'm alone. It's hard cause I'm an introvert and used to like being alone.
Does anyone have a similar dilemma?

This is my life right here. Except in school, I'm always at odds with people. I don't cry anymore, I get more angry than depressed.

[CharlieHorse]

Whenever I'm alone, my happiness that I get from being around people plummets. I can only listen to sad music, and it's near impossible to get my homework done. My head is filled with thoughts of everything that's wrong with me, wether they're true or not, and of all the traits in others that I desire to have. "I'm not tall enough, I'm not skinny enough, my eyes and hair are too dark," but most of all, "I'm gay/bi." All of my emotions bottle up inside me while I'm at school, and I don't want to let them out there for fear of burdening others with my problems and being called a wuss. As soon as I get home, off the mask comes, and out come the tears. I've tried coming out to some of my friends, but to little success. No one takes me seriously enough.
I just thought it interesting that my "depressed feelings" come only when I'm alone. It's hard cause I'm an introvert and used to like being alone.
Does anyone have a similar dilemma?

This is EXACTLY how I feel.
I am struggling with the same feelings a lot.