Im sick of this!!!

[KimuraWannabe116]

So lately since ive been in school since I got out of devereux, These students are trying to get me back in there. I go to an alternative school (LifeWorks), and since I got out of devereux Basically a mental institution the students are making telling teachers that im doing this and doing that, such as, I punched a locker or I bumped into them on purpose or Im scaring them, WHEN IM DOING NONE OF THAT. Today the teacher called my dad and told him if I dont stop this behavior, I will go back to devereux. Now when I was at devereux there was a kid there who annoyed me to the point where I almost lost control, and if I had of done that, I think he would still be in the emergency room, and I would win a trip to prision, BUT to make things worst, HE'S IN 3 OF MY CLASSES, Aperently he was going to a different alternative school and Devereux placed him and LifeWorks. So now he's telling everyone that I went to a Mental Institution, and he has a whole group now trying to get me back there. IF I GO BACK THERE, THERE WILL BE SEVER AND I MEAN SEVER CASUALTIES TO PEOPLE AND PROPERTY TO THE POINT I LOSE CONTROL!!!. Now when I was there it was a LIVING HELL FOR ME. Not just him but nothing to do, blood work every day, no computer, no tv, NO NOTHING BUT ANNOYMENT AND FRUSTERARTION!!!. Ive tried to tell my dad But he thinks it just bullshit. Well I say to him FUCK YOU! AM sick AND TIRED OF PEOPLE ALWAYS AGAINST ME!!! Right now I have cut my arm And Im thinking of wrist or throat TO JUST END MY LIVING HELL!!! Im thinking of getting my dads gun and shooting myself, Oh wait, I HAVE IT WITH ME RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!! Or else Im justing going to run away. I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

[Bethany]

First of all, breathe, and don't hurt yourself. Please don't hurt yourself. Don't mess with the gun.

Your situation sounds really frustrating. Have you tried talking you to your teacher calmly about what the other students are doing? If you speak to your teacher alone, in private, calmly, and tell your side of the story, your teacher likely can help you deal with the other students. You can also try talking to your dad with another adult who believes your side of the story.

Please don't hurt yourself. Call a suicide hotline or crisis hotline if you need to. It sounds like you're not the one who's wrong in this situation - it's the people around you. Don't hurt yourself because of what they're doing.