kind of confused

[Blackheart Angel]

Ok so... I kind of hurt myself like a lot but lately it feels like I have even less control over it usually if im distracted i won't be thinking about doing it. It feels like people are starting to notice cos well im a student nurse and we're not allowed to wear anything below the elbows so the scars arent hidden no-ones said anything yet but I don't know what I'd do if they did. The more time goes on the more I feel like I need it. Is it really so wrong that I use this method to cope?? Do you think my uni would chuck me off the course if they found out what I do?? I'm so stressed out and don't have a clue what i'm doing anymore and being quite honest I've now forgotten what I really wanted to ask when I posted this :/ sorry :confused:

[Harley Quinn]

I doubt they'll kick you off, if they do, you need to complain because that isn't right. To be honest, a lot of people use self harm as a way to cope and you aren't the only one. I suggest you try and hide it better, or use a different area as if you self harm on your arms, people will end up noticing and I don't think you'd want that. I guess sometimes you just need to be told it's alright, and it will be. You just need to learn how to control what you're feeling in a more constructive way.

[Blackheart Angel]

yeah i don't do it on my arms anymore as much as i want to cos i guess i like it there better but the scars still show... hope my uni don't find out tho cos then people start asking questions which would complicate things more i like it being my secret it's better that way

[Kuurachan]

Here is what I live by. Don't kill yourself, kill the sadness. Your mind is more powerful than you can imagine, it can will it away better than any drug or cutting can. When I was younger ( home schooled, no friends, sister had Anorexia, I had depression) I felt like I was living in an eternal Hell. My mind felt so messed up, nobody believed that I had depression and I was all alone. Instead of cutting, I made imaginary friends. Instead of them saying I was ugly or fat, they said to stay strong, it would get better and to always believe in myself. They were right. I am better now and I feel so much stronger than before I started having depression. It's a test of how much you can cope with. You'd be amazed at how much a mind can go through. Don't listen to anyone who makes you feel bad, laugh at them for having such low self esteem to have to bring others down. Big things are starting to happen all around, the pain will have no place soon.