I fell suicidal

[KimuraWannabe116]

I fell like my life is just a waste, everytime I get happy its like a black hole comes and just sucks it up and makes me upset, a few months ago i cut myself and three weeks ago i tryed to hang myself and my dad stoped me in time and i had to go to a mental hospital for 9 days. Now im thinking of taking a bunch of sleeping pills so I can end my life once and for all. I dont know what to do though

[Harry Smith]

http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

take a look at this, these people can help you 100 times better than I can. All I can say to you is remember all the happy times, all the moments in life which made you smile. In the darkness something good will always emerge. Life is so valuable, grab it by the horns and fight on.

[Kuurachan]

Why does everybody try to end it? Life is tough, sure, but if you take your life now you will not be able to see what wonders will happen in the future. I had depression when I was 10 and I was home schooled and I didn't have any friends, but I kept myself from cutting, even though I picked up a journal later that I had written in when I was having depression and it said I would rather spend a week in H#ll than re-live that year. YEAH.
I am living proof that SOMEDAY it will get better, and within a year I had gotten better, I was laughing all the time and most importantly, I had found what makes me happy. You and only you can save yourself, so what will it be? Will you be weak and let emotions consume you or be a hero and fight it with all you have? Humans are MUCH stronger than they think, it's just the community of jerks and bullies who try to make others feel small. They will pay a very big price, believe me. When people speak with words that sting you, laugh at them and defend yourself. They are but weeds in a big, big world of amazing things.

[xXl0sth0peXx]

This isn't really cutting/self harm.

Cutting and Self Harm :arrow: Mental Crisis

[Φρανκομβριτ]

go to a hospital. Do it right now. Don't even consider doing anything else but going to a hospital.

[KimuraWannabe116]

I cant even begin to tell you what has happened this last year.. I AM SO ANGRY

But do you really want to know what it is like being me?

[KimuraWannabe116]

Ill tell you

[KimuraWannabe116]

When my mom was pregnant with me she was doing heroin so I was basically taking heroin for 9 months. The first 6 years in my life I lived down in a basement suffering emotional scaring and my dad who was actually in his mid 60's when he concived me, was drunk most of the time. I couldnt speak, and my dad physically abused me and my mom emotionally abused me. Then my half brother was living with us after my dad suffered a stroke and my mom was in prison during the time,. so my half brother ( I call him dad) took me and I am still living with him now, and my real father died in 2007 while he was crossing the street. but anyways I have Adhd and pdd and I am depressed most of the time and just a few months ago on my moms side of the family my uncle, grandmother, and cousin got killed by a drunk driver and I really got emotionally scared after that since I loved them so much. and I suffered a seziur about a month and a half ago, I just learned my best friend has cancer, my half brother (dad) is not doing to well health wise, my dads sister or my half sister is dying to, my half brothers mom ( I call her grammy) is physically not doing well, shes about 5 foot 4 inches and she only weighes 85 pounds, and with all of that stress plus school and home, I dont know if I can take it much longer! I AM JUST SO ANGRY, AND DEPRESSED!

[Haydenn3]

Bro dont commit atleast wait till your "Dad" gets better and if he doesnt just dont put the ones in your life that are ill through having to deal with the death of you dont be selfish just hold on wait wait for them to be better or leave this earth and then you can commit but till then please stop if you commit suicide it will probably kill the ill ones around you just think about it man please

[KimuraWannabe116]

Bro dont commit atleast wait till your "Dad" gets better and if he doesnt just dont put the ones in your life that are ill through having to deal with the death of you dont be selfish just hold on wait wait for them to be better or leave this earth and then you can commit but till then please stop if you commit suicide it will probably kill the ill ones around you just think about it man please

I will hold on. I have decided im going to become the barney of this forum. im going to help other people out like he does

[Haydenn3]

I will hold on. I have decided im going to become the barney of this forum. im going to help other people out like he does

See thats good man i am so happy i thought i could have been a bit nasty to you but i hope it helped you :)

[KimuraWannabe116]

BTW how do you put info at the bottom of you messages

[LuciferSam]

BTW how do you put info at the bottom of you messages

You mean the signatures? Go near the top of the page on the far left where it says User CP and click on it. On the left side of the screen, there should be a tab that says "Edit Signature". Click there, type in the box, and save.