Tigerrr
April 11th, 2013, 02:04 PM
Up until two weeks ago I was happy. I was with my lovely boyfriend of two and a half years, I have exams coming up but I had made a revision timetable and was planning to stick to it on the two weeks off I had for easter, I was planning to split my time in easter between revising, spending time with my boyfriend and seeing friends, my Mum was recovering from her spinal surgery well and on the up and up.
Then everything went wrong. My boyfriend left my house to go out with his friends and I went clubbing with mine, I was expecting to see him in the next couple of days. But he didnt pick up his phone. For the first couple of days I thought it was nothing, he was just busy with his friends that had come down from uni to spend easter here who he doesnt see much. Then it turned into a week, I tried his home phone which he actually picked up and he said everything was fine, but he was too busy to see me. Since then ive had a couple of brief convos on facebook with him, small talk mostly, whenever I ask to meet up he says he is busy. We're still together on bloody facebook but I havent spoken to him properly in two weeks. Which is very unusual for us, we normally speak atleast once a day and I see him atleast once a week. We had some issues over summer but since then I have been happier then I have ever been. We have been going so well and I dont understand what is happening. This state of limbo is almost worse then if he just broke up with me. And its so out of the blue as we were so happy, the last time I saw him we had a long kiss goodbye and he said see you in a couple of days. I love him so much, more then I ever thought possible and after two and a half years, this is killing me. But there is nothing I can do about it as he wont even pick up his phone.
My Mum came off her meds as she was doing so well after her surgery after being in chronic pain for six months and not being able to leave the house. But this meant that she has been going through horrible physical withdrawal this last two weeks. Her moods have been terrible most days and I do all I can to help but I feel like im a wreak as well, so I cant support her like I should. She is becoming more and more depressed. I can only hope that the withdrawal symptoms stop soon and her mood will improve. But being in such pain for so long takes it toll.
Because of this I have been too stressed to do any work, I try and see friends to distract myself but it means I get no work done, and I am seriously thinking that I wont get the grades to go to my dream uni at this rate. And I know i can achieve so much more then I am. I dont have long now but cant seem to make myself sit down and do work.
I feel like my world is crumbling and I dont know what to do. I went to the doctor and he gave me some meds. But it doesnt help with the situational factors. I dont know what to do. I feel so lost. The first thought when I wake up is 'how many hours before I can go back to sleep'.
I doubt many people will read this as it is so long but it feel great to just let it all out. Thanks :)
Then everything went wrong. My boyfriend left my house to go out with his friends and I went clubbing with mine, I was expecting to see him in the next couple of days. But he didnt pick up his phone. For the first couple of days I thought it was nothing, he was just busy with his friends that had come down from uni to spend easter here who he doesnt see much. Then it turned into a week, I tried his home phone which he actually picked up and he said everything was fine, but he was too busy to see me. Since then ive had a couple of brief convos on facebook with him, small talk mostly, whenever I ask to meet up he says he is busy. We're still together on bloody facebook but I havent spoken to him properly in two weeks. Which is very unusual for us, we normally speak atleast once a day and I see him atleast once a week. We had some issues over summer but since then I have been happier then I have ever been. We have been going so well and I dont understand what is happening. This state of limbo is almost worse then if he just broke up with me. And its so out of the blue as we were so happy, the last time I saw him we had a long kiss goodbye and he said see you in a couple of days. I love him so much, more then I ever thought possible and after two and a half years, this is killing me. But there is nothing I can do about it as he wont even pick up his phone.
My Mum came off her meds as she was doing so well after her surgery after being in chronic pain for six months and not being able to leave the house. But this meant that she has been going through horrible physical withdrawal this last two weeks. Her moods have been terrible most days and I do all I can to help but I feel like im a wreak as well, so I cant support her like I should. She is becoming more and more depressed. I can only hope that the withdrawal symptoms stop soon and her mood will improve. But being in such pain for so long takes it toll.
Because of this I have been too stressed to do any work, I try and see friends to distract myself but it means I get no work done, and I am seriously thinking that I wont get the grades to go to my dream uni at this rate. And I know i can achieve so much more then I am. I dont have long now but cant seem to make myself sit down and do work.
I feel like my world is crumbling and I dont know what to do. I went to the doctor and he gave me some meds. But it doesnt help with the situational factors. I dont know what to do. I feel so lost. The first thought when I wake up is 'how many hours before I can go back to sleep'.
I doubt many people will read this as it is so long but it feel great to just let it all out. Thanks :)