Aceso
April 10th, 2013, 12:44 PM
Not a lot to say really, recently lost two or three of my closest friends over the past six months, either due to differences or simply drifting away. Not sure how to deal with it, to me it's hurting like they've died or something, and can't really seem to let go, only way I've dealt with it is by shutting off completely and that isn't exactly useful.
I'm kind of stuck at a crossroads between trying to figure out a way of moving on or somehow re-kindling the friendships, one one hand I feel that it's be healthier to just let it go but on the other I can't help feeling like I have a duty as a friend to be there for them, I'm out of the loop but I do see or hear things occasionally and it genuinely depresses me hearing they're not doing so well either. I just simply don't want them to push me away or shut me out again, because I think that'd tear me down. And at the same time, I don't want to end up just scrabbling onto a trace of the friendships I had, or simply try to re-live them because I know it will never be identical naturally, I've changed a lot and they probably have too, however I genuinely felt that I hadn't exhausted the friendships at all. There was still a lot of stuff I think that could have been amazing and could have happened that didn't, and I regret that. I think if I could i'd implement that into the relationships if I had the opportunity, there's a lot I would do for these people.
Really doesn't help my mood either, past three months have been great for me regardless of the fact that I've lost friends - by all means I've made new ones too, but these few meant the world to me, and we go a long way back. They probably know me as well as I know myself and I don't want to let that go. I miss them so much and just makes me feel so shitty, the past week or so it's all I've really though about, I've considered talking to them again but the dilemma stated above just tends to stop me.
Advice? Opinions? Thanks
I'm kind of stuck at a crossroads between trying to figure out a way of moving on or somehow re-kindling the friendships, one one hand I feel that it's be healthier to just let it go but on the other I can't help feeling like I have a duty as a friend to be there for them, I'm out of the loop but I do see or hear things occasionally and it genuinely depresses me hearing they're not doing so well either. I just simply don't want them to push me away or shut me out again, because I think that'd tear me down. And at the same time, I don't want to end up just scrabbling onto a trace of the friendships I had, or simply try to re-live them because I know it will never be identical naturally, I've changed a lot and they probably have too, however I genuinely felt that I hadn't exhausted the friendships at all. There was still a lot of stuff I think that could have been amazing and could have happened that didn't, and I regret that. I think if I could i'd implement that into the relationships if I had the opportunity, there's a lot I would do for these people.
Really doesn't help my mood either, past three months have been great for me regardless of the fact that I've lost friends - by all means I've made new ones too, but these few meant the world to me, and we go a long way back. They probably know me as well as I know myself and I don't want to let that go. I miss them so much and just makes me feel so shitty, the past week or so it's all I've really though about, I've considered talking to them again but the dilemma stated above just tends to stop me.
Advice? Opinions? Thanks