crepesuzette
April 9th, 2013, 11:05 PM
so have you ever had a song in your head that just wouldn't stop playing? i mean, i've had that experience, but it was only because i had turned up the volume so loud that i begin to hear people singing, like my former favorite artists. now i don't want to hear them anymore, and i wish that there was a cure for this type of disorder. All i can is i wish i had not bought that ipod and listened to it. the music just played a lot in me before, and now it's starting to subside. hopefully it continues in that direction. i do not want to hear these artists man. like now that i think about it, their music was pretty bitter and i was going through a really tough time during that period. i was in middle school and was bullied. so i often cried and sometimes resorted to music just to relieve stress. i thought that listening to music like that would make me feel more relaxed but instead it made me even sadder. i do not believe in what i hear in my head. i mean, the songs were in fact really depressing and i just thought that it would help me to feel sad with the artists. well that did not work. i had to see a therapist for a year and she was no help. am i going to have to hear this all the time? like most of the time i'm alone so maybe that triggers it or something. i mean, i have been spending more itme with people so that my musical hallucinations simmer down and it has settled down for a bit. i repeat, i don't want to hear this type of music. it has gotten better. i've tried medications and they didn't help. i mean, what can i do to improve my current ear conditions? i went to eulogists to see if there was anything wrong with my ears and she said no, just a few ear infections. i also had my brain scanned to see if there was anything wrong with it, and no, they could not find anything. so i don't know how the heck my problem will be solved. i mean, it kind of comes and goes. like it started in 4th grade but then it went away when i went out a lot so yeah. but then it came back when i got depressed a lot and had to go to a therapist who simply asked me how i did and how i felt and all that.