How much more can I take?

[Ashleigh]

OK, so it has been almost two weeks now since I last cut... But I can not stop thinking about it. Even when I am distracting myself with things like work and college I cant stop thinking about it. My arms keep aching and they feel too full and I honestly do not know how much longer I can handle this. I am usually so good at keeping my mask up but people keep asking me if I am alright meaning that I am loosing any control that I have over myself because I cant even give a convincing smile anymore... Even my family keep asking me every five minuter. I am so scared. I have no idea what to do I do not know how to control this.

[lyriclover]

First of all congrats on 2 weeks!!! People can definatly be horrible, when they think they're helping and just making things worse. Don't be afraid to take off your mask sometimes. If youre in need of a relese then go somewhere alone and cry or scream or whatever it takes no to cut. Lose controle, just keep enough that you dont hurt yourself. Good luck and stay strong. :)