Help with suicide

[Emiil]

Hi.
I am Emil and I have now been depressed for ~2 years. Suicide is constantly on my mind and I just don't think there is another option. I've tried to talk about my problems to people online, hoping that it would help (which it didn't).

I've read on blogs and stuff on easy ways to take suicide and stuff like that but they always end up saying that you shouldn't do it because there is always someone that cares about you. I do not care if someone cares if I die. My life is a living hell and I don't want to live like this anymore.

My friends/family don't know how I feel and I barely have friends anymore because I spend all my time alone in my room. Just looking at me I think it's hard to think that I am depressed so I think there's something wrong in my head too.

Please help me :( I don't know what to do and I'm tired of living like this.

[TerryBerry622]

get some psychiatric help
that is probably the best thing for you at this point
talk to them about how you can make some friends and improve your communication skills. also they can prescribe you meds for the depression and thoughts

[PinkFloyd]

Okay, I'm not into guys at all, but I can totally tell a guy that could get a girlfriend really fast and easy. I mean you have zero acne which is a plus, and it looks like you take care of yourself. Another plus. Anyways, I think that if you put yourself out there, you will gain some friends. Keep going strong, man. Oh, and getting professional help can totally help too. You can get meds that eliminate the empty feeling that you have. On the topic of drugs; please don't turn to illegal ones. they WILL ruin your life. I know a kid that struggles with depression and he turned to Heroine. At forst it was great for him, but as he got addicted, he relied on it. That's never good. Okay, well like I said keep strong.
-Rob

[Emiil]

Sorry if you guys misunderstood me. I am not depressed because I lost my friends, I don't really care about them.
And I don't want a girlfriend (I'm gay) but don't want a boyfriend either.
I just really don't care about my life right now and what happens to it.

[PinkFloyd]

Sorry if you guys misunderstood me. I am not depressed because I lost my friends, I don't really care about them.
And I don't want a girlfriend (I'm gay) but don't want a boyfriend either.
I just really don't care about my life right now and what happens to it.

Sorry we misunderstood. I still think that you should get professional help. If your parents won't allow it, or there is some other type of block, there are ways around it because by law your gaurdian(s) must take care of you like this. I'm sorry that you feel like this.

[jayyy-lmao]

Get professional help. Recently, I've felt like this a lot, but I've started going to counseling. It really helps. And meds can help, but I wouldn't go there first. I know how you feel, buddy, and I hope you get out of this.

[Captain Who]

I think you should talk to someone about it, possibly your parents or a close friend! and then go to a professional who could help you! all should be good after this. if not... there shouldnt be an if not!

[teen.jpg]

And I don't want a girlfriend (I'm gay).

Wow Rob, got that one wrong, didn't you. Sorry, had to point that out.

Anyway, get help. Like, real help. The internet WILL NOT properly take care of you, and I hope you're already smart enough to know that. Psychiatrists are there to help, not to hurt.

[Emiil]

I can't get help because if I go to a psychiatrist my parents will find out :( And I can't talk to anyone, I really don't want anyone to find out how I'm feeling and my relationship with other family members are not good at all

[kuuliluuk]

Do you know why are you feeling like that? You seem to be a nice guy, who could easily have friends. But it seems like you are going away from them by yourself.
I really don't know what is eating away your soul. Isn't it possible for you to get anti depressants without your parents knowing? There should be a way. Anti depressants aren't a solution of course, but it will make you feel better, and perhaps you are able to solve your problems yourself as now these problems seem to suffocate you.
There is always a brighter side of life too. Please try to see it, just simple small things you do not notice every day. These will help you too a little. Search for alternatives. I really hope it will get better for you soon. It makes me sad when I know someone is unhappy out there.

[Mark Duin]

Suicide is not an option. You better get over it. I know how it feels like when you lost somebody. Forget your past, it happened already you can't do anything about it.

[Haydenn3]

Before they say that the psychiatrist can not by law tell your parents they are wrong in most cases yes they are not aloud to but if you are a danger to yourself or others then they may have to take it on further (telling parents and what not) However if you tell the psychiatrist not to tell your parents you MAY be fine

[niceguy44]

hi emil
don't think about suicide. if you want to try & talk to me about your problems i'm always here for you.

[Steve Jobs]

Hey, Emil!
I've been through those thoughts too. To be honest, I think like that a lot of the time too. I used to live by that, and I can honestly relate.
Before I left for college, life was pretty much hell for me.
I don't appear to suffer from anything of that sort at all. People who meet me tell me I'm super focused, determined and set for my future, but there's a lot of uncertainty and I certainly feel depressed a lot of the time.

If you're asking for help, the best thing to do is rephrase "I do not care". Start caring about something, and something will care about you.

It's hard to find help online, people come and go, and give advice without listening, empathizing or really caring about what you have to say.

Find the right people to talk to and start mixing with the right bunch. If you're not happy with something, fight with it, don't get tired of it :D

[Emiil]

I just feel like everyone has given up on me, including myself. It's really hard to find any motivation for stuff and I'm doing so bad in school right now and sometimes I'll just leave school and go home because I just can't do it anymore. I always feel like I'm never good enough and I don't think its ever going to change :cry2:

[Steve Jobs]

I just feel like everyone has given up on me, including myself. It's really hard to find any motivation for stuff and I'm doing so bad in school right now and sometimes I'll just leave school and go home because I just can't do it anymore. I always feel like I'm never good enough and I don't think its ever going to change :cry2:

Are you doing subjects you don't have an interest in or are you just finding it hard to stay motivated? :what:
Hell, I scraped through school nearly failing a lot of things and thought I wouldn't have a future many many times :P

[Gazmo]

please tell someone. i have been where you are, for 5 years. but over the last year, my parents fund out, i went to therapy, been in hospital for attempting suicide so many times, but i can honestly say im happy now. Everythings ok in the end, and if its not ok, its not the end.

[Emiil]

I can't really tell anyone and I don't even like my family and I'm not close to them at all so would just be awkward if I told them something like that:(

[Cicero]

I can't get help because if I go to a psychiatrist my parents will find out :( And I can't talk to anyone, I really don't want anyone to find out how I'm feeling and my relationship with other family members are not good at all

No matter how much you don't want them to know, they should know. Just ask if you can see a therapist.

[Steve Jobs]

I can't really tell anyone and I don't even like my family and I'm not close to them at all so would just be awkward if I told them something like that:(

I still feel this way. It's been like that for years. My parents weren't with me very much when I was really little, so we were always that distance away, even though we didn't fight or "dislike" each other.

I think the best thing you can do is get yourself out of your room! When I'm feeling depressed, the only way I get myself to feel better is to go out and do something that makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something. Volunteer work, learning something new. I'm surrounded by people I don't trust and probably wouldn't talk out my issues to. It's sad and really hard sometimes, but that's the way life is.

Conquer your problems. You get nothing out of victimizing yourself :lol:

I have to say, I give big kudos to some people on VT that have helped me through some seriously bad times. Some know who they are, some don't and probably never will.. but that's what kept me here all this while :bigsmile:

[Philip97]

this has worried me as i spoke to him on line a lot and haven't heard a word for him for around 6 months

[Croconaw]

Is there another way you can contact him?

[Troye]

Hmm, hope he's alright...

[Philip97]

ive tried i had his skype (what i believe has been uninstalled) his msn and ive emailed him with no reply

[Mickster4]

Mate my mum's had really bad depression when she was younger and she still has it. When she was little she actually caused self harm, lucky it wasn't serious. She now has 2 children lives in one of the nicest places in the world (Really!) and she loves her life. So now and then she has a hickup but shes fine she lives a normal life.

I believe you can make new friends ok, find help,use the help into life and you'll find yourself in a great mood. As for the suicide its not worth it, maybe you don't mind if your gone but you wont know what amazing things lie in front of you in life, its just a curtain you open it and theres bright light. Your the bright light.

Tell your family how you feel, My mum says that her mum dosen't quiet understand and its true you guys are unique in a good way, You see life diffrently and theres nothing you can do but try to fix it.

Hope you benefit from this sometimes i think i have mild depression through my mum so i kindof can talk to her about things and then its fine.
* Open Up
* Be Yourself
* Maybe join a club
* Find new Friends
* Find a Hobby
* Enjoy life, where young and we haven't seen the full package that the 5* travel company of god airways has planned for us.

Hope you benefit.
Feel free to PM me if you want to talk!!!!

[darkangel91]

This scares me... I'd hate to think that he... gave in...

Between the ages of twelve and fourteen I was very depressed and occasionally thought about, but never attempted, suicide... now I feel better. It scares me to think of someone else having the same problem and not... having the same outcome I did. So young... it's such a waste. :(

[imthomas]

You need to get professional help