Karma

[RequiemForADeath]

(this is about a dream at first.. then this past summer.. then the present, it does belong in this forum. just an fyi)

Dream: someone handed me a gun, it wasnt put together, i had to figure that out.. i woke up and thought the gun was next me.. unfortunatly it was not.

she was supposed to go with my family and i to a formal dinner.. but she was no where to be found.. she had left to drive up to get her off a plane.

Summer: this past summer i made the horrible mistake of leaving my friends and the girl i was/am in love with just to "get away from things" for awhile. but it didnt work, it made things worse and now im paying for it.

Karma: now shes at the columbus airport waiting.. wherever.. for someone from her past.. i know every feeling that she had when i left. i know every urge that she had when i left. and ill know every pain that she had.

you honestly cannot stop me from doing what will eventually happen. so im not asking for help.. im just asking for someone to understand and care.. because she only tells me nto to worry.. well of course im going to worry. and my friend just tells me not to.. not a big help.

leaving now.

[to the girl: i hope you know just how much i do love you. i know you love me. i know what SD said were lies, i know this. i know SR will be gone in a matter of days.. but its just like last time during spring break.. please stop bringing your ex girlfriends down here.. its bad enough i saw emily yesterday.]

[god ie:higher power: yeah, i fucking get it.. theres something called karma and its a cunt. now can you please just stop messing with me.. first the flu.. now this.. yeah it really makes me want to be a believer. lies.]

Im done here.

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

If you're implying suicide http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=17288 That's all I'm saying.

[Evrythng_im_not]

Not lies.

[RequiemForADeath]

That 'Lies' wasnt even to you sara so just stop already. you annoy me enough as is. im your reason. but youll never be my reason. sorry dear.

mmm and it feels so good to hear her words.
.. a little better but i could be alot better.. SR needs to leave though.

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

I hate to ask, but my curiousity is getting the better of me. What is the hostillity between you and everything im not? Don't answer if you don't want to.

[RequiemForADeath]

[thank you for deleting those]

[thesphinx]

Alright what is up with the 2 of you? why are you always at each other's throat like that?

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

I didn't have the bravery to say it like that, but I'd like to know also.

[Evrythng_im_not]

.. no reason. She only tries every chance she can to take the one person I have to live for. I swear she must have a complex about it by now.

[RequiemForADeath]

no. see. sara dated this girl named vickie. they broke up. they live far away. i dont know. then i dated vickie and fell in love. we broke up. and now were trying again. sara believes whatever she believes to get her through the day. i believe what i believe because i know it is the truth. im tired of being accused by her that im such a horrible person, when in reality, im doing what shes doing.. or trying to.

im trying to get the one person i love with my entire heart and soul to see it.

[close this thread]

[Sapphire]

Ok, I have locked this for you.