Can't sleep because I break down every night

[Fallen Angels]

During the day I'm fine. I even believe myself when I say I'm fine. I'm positive, and bubbly.

Around 1-3am everynight I break down. I cry so much.. and I think about things going on that hurt me so much... I completely break down. Every night. I cry myself to sleep a lot. I usually don't get to sleep until after 3am. Sometimes, later. So, I sleep in late the next day, to get enough sleep. Usually around 1pm. I hate it.

Today, I actually felt tired around 11pm-12am. Thought I might actually get some sleep. But, it started early. I broke down at 12am. Can't sleep until it goes away... I hate it so much. Just once, I want to go to sleep at a decent hour, get a full nights sleep, and wake up at a decent hour. No tears, no pain, no crying myself to sleep. Why is it so much to ask?...

[Captain Who]

At night your body is at rest because your not doing something active to take your mind off the things you dont want to think about where as during the night, your in bed and therefore not doing something active which gives your head the chance to bring back thoughts you dont want and that will cause your break downs, I suggest maybe when you go to bed make sure you think about happy things and dont let the awful things come to mind and also make sure you try and do something active in bed (I know that sounds strange XD) Like Kicking your feet or punching the air...? I dont know something like that. Hope this in any way helps you ^-^

[Harley Quinn]

During the day I'm fine. I even believe myself when I say I'm fine. I'm positive, and bubbly.

Around 1-3am everynight I break down. I cry so much.. and I think about things going on that hurt me so much... I completely break down. Every night. I cry myself to sleep a lot. I usually don't get to sleep until after 3am. Sometimes, later. So, I sleep in late the next day, to get enough sleep. Usually around 1pm. I hate it.

Today, I actually felt tired around 11pm-12am. Thought I might actually get some sleep. But, it started early. I broke down at 12am. Can't sleep until it goes away... I hate it so much. Just once, I want to go to sleep at a decent hour, get a full nights sleep, and wake up at a decent hour. No tears, no pain, no crying myself to sleep. Why is it so much to ask?...

I think you need to start transferring the positive feelings towards the night time. You're associating night time too much with a break down, you need to try and change your thinking. No, I'm not saying that's easy because believe me it isn't, doesn't mean it's not possible though.

You even said yourself, you think and night. Stop thinking. Completely switch off and focus on something so 100% different you forget what you were even mad about. That's what I do and it works. Cry at a different time, in the shower is always good because mixed with the steam, it makes you really tired. Drink some hot chocolate or anything that soothes, you'll be too tired to cry.

You just need to learn how to cope with pain in a different way, there isn't anything wrong with crying and it doesn't make you weak. It makes you human, and that's okay. However, if you don't want to cry you need to try and change how things are done in your day. Change up the routine you're in and it'll settle. You could always see a doctor about some sleeping pills, if that would help you.

[Disappearing_Girl]

I used to do this too. I hated being awake, and in all honesty I hated going to sleep too because I had terrible dreams. what helped me out a lot was reading. Reading at night makes you really tired, and also takes your mind off of what is happening. I'm not saying you should pretend everything is perfect. But at night you are usually tired and more emotional, so problems seem a lot worse when you think about them at night. During the day you are preoccupied with so much other stuff that takes your mind off the problems. I recommend reading a good book until you are about to pass out haha, and then taking a while during the day time to think through the problems. You will be able to handle it a lot easier. :)

[crepesuzette]

During the day I'm fine. I even believe myself when I say I'm fine. I'm positive, and bubbly.

Around 1-3am everynight I break down. I cry so much.. and I think about things going on that hurt me so much... I completely break down. Every night. I cry myself to sleep a lot. I usually don't get to sleep until after 3am. Sometimes, later. So, I sleep in late the next day, to get enough sleep. Usually around 1pm. I hate it.

Today, I actually felt tired around 11pm-12am. Thought I might actually get some sleep. But, it started early. I broke down at 12am. Can't sleep until it goes away... I hate it so much. Just once, I want to go to sleep at a decent hour, get a full nights sleep, and wake up at a decent hour. No tears, no pain, no crying myself to sleep. Why is it so much to ask?...

you should really talk to someone about this. it won't get any better if you keep this bottled up in you. why not talk to a counselor/therapist, or maybe a good friend? come on, like my math tutor said, you have at least one friend and if you don't get the help you need, it's not getting any better. i don't mean to sound harsh, but hey, that happened to me when i was in fifth grade, when my stupid teacher bullied me a lot along with other kids. what did i do? i wallowed in despair. how did i get out of it? i talked to people, people i could trust. this is my advice. you don't have to take it if you don't want.

[Fallen Angels]

you should really talk to someone about this. it won't get any better if you keep this bottled up in you. why not talk to a counselor/therapist, or maybe a good friend? come on, like my math tutor said, you have at least one friend and if you don't get the help you need, it's not getting any better. i don't mean to sound harsh, but hey, that happened to me when i was in fifth grade, when my stupid teacher bullied me a lot along with other kids. what did i do? i wallowed in despair. how did i get out of it? i talked to people, people i could trust. this is my advice. you don't have to take it if you don't want.

I tried telling people. And, it made everything worse. No one cares. I have 1 friend who I barely get to see. I occasionally talk to her about it, but that's it. And, I'm homeschooled so no counclers. I barely have contact with people ._.

[crepesuzette]

sad.

[crepesuzette]

I tried telling people. And, it made everything worse. No one cares. I have 1 friend who I barely get to see. I occasionally talk to her about it, but that's it. And, I'm homeschooled so no counclers. I barely have contact with people ._.

why don't you tell your parents about this issue? You should at least talk to someone that knows you best like them. If nobody cares, try to write out your problems. maybe that might help or type them out on your pc or mac. i mean, for me, it helps to get rid of the crap in my system.
hopefully things will work out for you.
never be afraid to talk to us here on this forum.
I've been to therapy before and it has helped me before but not to a major degree since my therapist was a little bit not so understanding.
my usual warning: don't take my advice if you don't think it's going to work.