I've decided I'll do it

[The Batman]

Every since I was young i've been close to my mom and since then i've made one promise to myself. If she dies then I'll kill myself because i won't go through anymore pain. Two of my grandmas are dead (my mom was adopted) i don't remember my grandpa and my uncle died. All of them i was close to and when they left i was hurting so much that i knew if something happened to my mom i couldn't survive it. My mom's going to the hospital more and more and she's starting to get sick i don't know if i can take it alone so i'm writing this to let you guys know that if one day i just stop posting you'll know why.
With Love,
Thomas

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

Wow, would your mother want that?? I talk from experience that suicide isn't the answer. I attempted suicide once, and that did nothing except let me realize how much of an idiot I was for thinking that that would help me. I really don't think that suicide would help you. I know that it will be almost unbearably painful for you to have to live through your mother's death, but "suicide is a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY problem". Those were the first word I heard when I got out of the hospital. Don't do it. That's what I think.

[Hyper]

If anything your mother would want you to live and be happy, not kill yourself..

Doing that would only make her sad

[Evrythng_im_not]

Listen to them. They know what they are talking about.

[Iviera]

oh goshes. please don't.

in times like these you need to remain as optimistic as you can if not for yourself at least for your mother.

secondly, she wouldn't want you to end your life on behalf of her. while you think you would be doing it out of your lonliness and love for her you would be sending the opposite message.

trust me i've often felt the same way and just realize, please, that it's not the answer and for her, to make her happy, you need to keep living and doing the best you can with life.

another thing is: think of what it would do to the rest of your family and friends! i've had four good friends kill themselves and i can't even begin to describe the hurt that i've felt. the hurt and the anger is just overwhelming.


anjoy the time you DO have with your mother and cherish every one of ehr breaths...and yours.

~Iviera

[thesphinx]

Like everyone has already said your Mother would not want that. and think of the other people who care about you? its like a chain reaction.

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

It seems like everyone thinks the same thing. It's definitely not worth it. Killing yourself won't bring back your mother, or prove any kind of loyalty. It will just make the already devastated people from your mothers still pending death even more devastated.

I say still pending not to be mean, but everyone does die. She may be okay from this illness, she may not. That's how fate it. You aren't unlucky. If you happen to be religious God doesn't hate you. It's pure chance. I really do feel bad for you though and I hope your mother and you both make it through this.

[Whisper]

you dont honor someones memory by doing something that you know dam well they wouldn't want

how would your mum feel if she knew that when her time comes you plan on killing yourself? you dont even know when that is! it could be years

Your young
you only live once
one shot
time is infinite
we..are not
you only get one shot
a breif 100yrs throughout all of time
and thats if your very lucky
don't throw it away

[Serenity]

you dont honor someones memory by doing something that you know dam well they wouldn't want

how would your mum feel if she knew that when her time comes you plan on killing yourself? you dont even know when that is! it could be years

Your young
you only live once
one shot
time is infinite
we..are not
you only get one shot
a breif 100yrs throughout all of time
and thats if your very lucky
don't throw it away

QFT x 100

[The Batman]

no one cares about me and if they do the get real good way of showing it my family uses me thats all and i know my friends talk about me behind my back i try everyday to put on a fake smile but each day it gets smaller and smaller till now i just sit and frown all day if you ask anyone they'll tell you how happy i use to be but now it seems the tears wont stop falling so please don't feed me that think of the people who care about you stuff cause they don't no matter how hard i try sometimes i don't believe my mom cares about me the way she treats me. I might not cut myself but i do find pain to help

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

Well, I thought this was all b.s. that people were throwing at me to prolong my misery, but once I actually failled at dying, I woke up in the hopsital with cards and all this other korny crap. It made me feel bettere. I felt like shit for trying it, but it did help me realize how wrong I was. You probably won't be as lucky and would die.. Do you know why you haven't done it yet? It's because there's this little bit inside of you saying "don't do it, I think I have something to live for...". Embrace that part you and just understand killing yourself wont change anything. Your mom wont come back or think any better of you. Your friends wont think any differently of you. Nothing will change except for the mood of everyone. It'll be a depressing day the once happy kid kills himself. I've got a quote for you.

read this and start to wonder, "who's my crazybeautiful69?" Think of who you might be hurting that you haven't thought about.

Crazybeautiful69 ~ "My Friend was a guy like no other. He was seriousely the most upbeat, outgoing, seemingly happy guy I have ever known. He was the type of guy who no matter what, would drop anything If you had a problem, you could talk to him about anything and he'd never judge you, he could make you laugh even if you had been crying about something for hours. He was what kept me sane, strong, happy.. virtually okay. Thinking back about him now and reading everything I have wrote about him. I would never of guessed that I would be sitting here now being so mad at him and hurting because of him. March 26th 2005 my friend, took his life. My happy, smiling, amazing friend decided that he no longer could continue on living. March 26th 2005 changed my entire life, It has changed me in so many ways. I no longer trust my freinds, I find myself constantly questioning are they happy? I cry everynight before I go to sleep, I can't focus on alot of things and sometimes I even think that maybe life is just bullshit and things would be easier for me and other people I was gone. So for anyone who is thinking that suicide is the answer..please know how I feel. No one should feel the way I feel everday of my life. Get help while you can, please do not let your friends and family go through this. If I could have one wish in the world, I wish my friend would of told me how he was really feeling, maybe I could of helped him..I'm gonna live with this for the rest of my life, Im gonna feel blame forever and it SUCKS. You dont have too...Thanks for listenin.
P.s- Your smile is burned into my memories..I Miss you............."

That almost brought tears to my eyes when I read it. Think about that for a while.

[The Batman]

ok i won't do it for one reason my nephew i'm about to go sign the suicide thread

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

lol I saw that and I just did. Well, you found your person that you'd hurt. It takes a lot of courage to not kill yourself (although killing yourself is very hard also). Well, I hope I helped a little bit atleast! :D

[The Batman]

thank you so much all of you i realized that there is someone out there who needs me my nephew he's only 2 but very smart he always tells me he loves me and tell him the same thank you all of you

[StoppingTime]

Again, do not post in threads when the last post is over two months old. :locked: