Why am i such a disappointment?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

People all the time tell me "Please don't cut, for me" or Please, can you go _insert time here_ and then keep going if you make it." I want to so badly to do it for people who say things like this to me but it wouldn't be for myself so if they just leave like most people I know have then whats the point. Or that I'm not ready for all of that, I can't go hours/day without it because I have nothing else. Honestly it doesn't do its "job" anymore unless I... which because of how small I am, I lose almost all the room I have so I can't do it anymore until it heals(I don't like overlapping cuts). My days still are shitty and its only thing it does is lift me slightly to not want to do it more or do pills or get high. In my future(whatever chance there is of having one) I don't see myself quitting, I see I carrying on with me forever even if one day that light finally decides to appear after almost sixteen years of darkness, but I am so damn tired of being a disappointment. Urg!:mad:

[xxPerryPlatypusxx]

just keep your head high
everybody has a purpose in life and a meaning as to why they're still living
so what who cares what people say. you don't need to stop for them you need tp stop for yourself. focus on you YOURSELF ONLY. focus on yourself and making yourself better... stive for a better tomorrow...encourage yourself to stay strong.
you are not worthless. you are not a disapointment
everyone has their fault and has to work on them
thats all you need to do. learn to control your self harming and everything will be ok :)

[Synyster Shadows]

keep your head up, most importantly. Don't stop cutting for them, stop for yourself. You are wonderful, no matter what everyone says. You are amazing.