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VictoriaGotaSecret
March 23rd, 2013, 12:01 AM
Why am I here anymore. I really don't see any point. I have shitty grades, failing everything beyond repair. I have no future. No friends who actually give a damn. All my family is gone. My mom doesn't care anymore. Ive talked to school poloce officer before if he could ask mom to allow me permission to stay with my grandparents an she never said a thing about it to me. My dad never did/will care and i am abused by him. I can't see my uncle anymore because of him ^^^ even though my uncles house was the safest place for me, I never thought about suicide or cutting when I was there, didnt feel the extreme weight on my shoulders, I ate. My other uncle has been beaten bloody by my dad and no longer comes around. I am treated like shit by his entire family and I'd be harassed even more if I dared to come out to them. My dad has tried to take my life before so why can't I. I have nothing left for me here. I am tired of having to stave to see fit in the mirror, cut to feel something. I just can't do this and I feel like I'm GOING TO EXPLODE!

Horatio Nelson
March 23rd, 2013, 12:31 AM
...........I'm sorry, I don't know what to say.

Apathy15
March 23rd, 2013, 03:30 PM
You have to have something positive in your life. And if not make one.

VictoriaGotaSecret
March 23rd, 2013, 05:55 PM
You have to have something positive in your life. And if not make one.

Like what?

Apathy15
March 23rd, 2013, 11:15 PM
Get a hobby of some sort. That's what I did when it seems like the "darker" thoughts surface. I refuse to let others push me to the point of breaking and you should too. A few years ago I was gonna kill myself, I was soo depressed...but then I began to play music and found out I'm pretty good. It made me feel a little better. So find something, even if you have to make it up. YOU HAVE TO MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER NOW.... And this means a lot coming from me I'm a server pessimist.


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