can i undo that last action?

[dying lullaby]

i just threw away the last 3 months and 10 days...i cut again. and this time i cut my wrists...i wanted to see how deep i could go...how much blood i could let...i am so ashamed...

[Waiting]

hunny, please explain what happened?
it might help to talk to us?
the answer to your title question is yes you can undo it, you can forget about it, it was a little lapse in a good run. now carry on eure streak from today, forgt about it. just try and stay on the better side of the knife...

LovePatch

[bjl17]

no you didn't throuw away all that time. well done for lasting so long. you should be really proud of yourself for it. It was just a slip up. Just forget it happened and carry on. Dont go back to cutting because of it.

[-Silence]

:hug:

I agree with what they said, you can forget about it, just push it away, and continue on. Don't dwell on it as if you failed anything, you haven't. But next time, try not to let yourself get that down, do something before that happens. I know it's hard, but you can do it, you're a strong girl and I know you probably don't feel that right now, but you are.

Take care
Heather

[dying lullaby]

if any of you guys remember how depressed i was last year then you should be unhappy to hear that i am back to that place again. nothing seems to make me happy, its a chore to get out of bed each day, i dont seem to be eating anything unless i am bing eating and then i just throw it all up...i am really sick guys, my meds arent helping me at all anymore, i need more help than i am getting but i am too scared to go back to the hospital...i want to go back but there are too many things going on in my life that i refuse to just drop...i wish there was an easy way out...some quick fix...some pill that actually worked to make me happy. b/c without it i am suffering, big time.

so i guess that answers your post patch, sorry for being so cyincal

thankyou for your support heather and bjl17. it means alot and it really does help

[bjl17]

Im sorry you're feeling so down. I know how that feels. Anytime you need to talk we're all here. If you need help you should get it.
Lindy

[dying lullaby]

im with friends now and they can all see the bandages and none of them are saying anything and the silence makes me feel all the more worse...i guess they're trying to spare me or they dont know what to say but still...idk

[Waiting]

well you have a chance to sort yourself back out if you want, and choose to take it.
you can go back to the hospital, sure you may be in theree for months, and you wil have to drop things and people.
but in saying this, is it worth the pain and suffering ure putting urself through not going back? are these commitments worth it?

[dying lullaby]

i hade a long talk with my best friend about depression and all this stuff today and we've decided to make this box and put in it EVERYTHING taht makes me depressed or that i use to harm myself and give it to her for safe keeping b/c i still cant stand to throw it all away.
so i rooted out my room and the box is so full and heavy. i feel acomplished now. we're working on getting me out of this depression. first i need to go back to my doc and get on different meds b/c these obviously arent working all that well. then when i feel a bit better and i have some cash i am going shopping and i am going to dress like the trendy person i know i can be when i am happy lol...all punk and shizzy ;) then i am going to keep a different type of journal, a happy one where i only write the good things in my life.

ok im rambling now...ill let you all know how it goes.

im sorry to say that VT aids in my depression b/c of the type of personality i have. i care about so many of you so much and i can talk to you on AIM but i just cant keep coming here...i guess thats why i left the first time, b/c this place helps me become a zombie. im sorry to anyone who might miss me, ill miss you ALOT and believe me when i say that is the truth.

patch, i love you and i'll miss you big time. IM me some time ok?
Heather, we already talk on AIM so this isnt really a good bye but i wanna tell you that i think of you as one of my good friends.
josh, VT is amazing! congradulations on creating such a safe place for us broken folk. this site has saved my life.
everyone else who reads this: good luck with what ever problem you have that brought you here.

<3<3 love
Bri

[-Silence]

I'm so glad you worked that out with your friend, it's a really good idea!

Best of luck, though I'm sure you don't need it, you're a strong girl.

Take Care
:hug:
Heather

[Waiting]

take care babe
i know you'll be jsut fine xxx