Just have to get something off my chest...

[Fallen Angels]

When I was 3 years old, my mother made me take a test.... a very personal test. To see if I was a virgin. (Long story short, she's a manipulative bitch, trying to get this Doctor to lie and say I was molested) I remember that day so well. I remember the annoyed face of the nurse, the undescribable expression on my mothers face... she even had a bit of a smile. I remember being told to drop my panties, the nurse with a tiny camera, and a screen to the right of me. I remember not wanting to comply, but doing so anyway. I don't even know how to describe the test... basically, the nurse checks (by touching) the skin "down there" and puts a tiny camera inside(Again, down there ._.). And, it shows up on the screen next to you, for all to see inside of you. I didn't know what was going on, why I was here, or why my mother told me "Every kid has to do this" I never understood how a mother could make a 3 year old go through that. I was scared and confused... I felt and still feel violated. And, she payed someone to do this to me. You don't do that to a child. The Doctor did not lie for her btw. And, the nurse was annoyed because she knew that it wasn't true. She hated that I had to go through that test to.

I'm 16 now. Still remember it well. I don't have contact with my mother anymore, because this is just one of the things she's done. The worst in my mind. It may not sound like much, but it's my earliest memory, and my scariest. When you're 3 years old it's not something you expect... I just hope finally getting this off my chest will make it easier. So, I won't burst into tears every time I think about it.

[Texas warrior]

Don't worry, time heals all wounds. I know that's cheesy but it is true.

[xmojox]

If you're in a position to do so, I suggest that you speak with a therapist. It can really help. I'm sorry you were put through that.

[Cooper197]

My sister had a somewhat similar experience. For her a huge help in getting past it was finding somebody she could trust to talk about it, she still says it is much easier to talk to a guy she trusts about it rather than a girl since the opposite sex will usually be a little less judgemental on something like this. She only remembers abuse from her childhood, but that has empowered her to be part of organizations and support groups for kids who have been abused. It's helped her a lot, she's a much happier person now!

[Miserabilia]

Kind of sounds like your mother is Munchhausen-by-proxy

[APhkinPanda]

When I was 3 years old, my mother made me take a test.... a very personal test. To see if I was a virgin. (Long story short, she's a manipulative bitch, trying to get this Doctor to lie and say I was molested) I remember that day so well. I remember the annoyed face of the nurse, the undescribable expression on my mothers face... she even had a bit of a smile. I remember being told to drop my panties, the nurse with a tiny camera, and a screen to the right of me. I remember not wanting to comply, but doing so anyway. I don't even know how to describe the test... basically, the nurse checks (by touching) the skin "down there" and puts a tiny camera inside(Again, down there ._.). And, it shows up on the screen next to you, for all to see inside of you. I didn't know what was going on, why I was here, or why my mother told me "Every kid has to do this" I never understood how a mother could make a 3 year old go through that. I was scared and confused... I felt and still feel violated. And, she payed someone to do this to me. You don't do that to a child. The Doctor did not lie for her btw. And, the nurse was annoyed because she knew that it wasn't true. She hated that I had to go through that test to.

I'm 16 now. Still remember it well. I don't have contact with my mother anymore, because this is just one of the things she's done. The worst in my mind. It may not sound like much, but it's my earliest memory, and my scariest. When you're 3 years old it's not something you expect... I just hope finally getting this off my chest will make it easier. So, I won't burst into tears every time I think about it.


Hey, I'm sorry you have gone through that at a vert young age. I also sorry that your mom manipulated you. You see, I haven't gone through the things you have gone through. So I can't tell you, to get over it. I also can't fix it, but I can tell you that I personally went through a lot of stuff at a young age. I have also seen manipulation at a young age as well. So now that you know a bit about me, and if you wish to vent, or talk about it. Feel free to email or pm me. That I can and will gladly do for you.

[jayyy-lmao]

If you can, talk to a therapist. They can help you get over these things.

[tubanic]

Thats terrible that you had to go through that. Hope that getting it off your chest has made it a bit more bearable :)

[KimuraWannabe116]

I think it is wrong she did that too you. But on the brighter side, you said she is not with you anymore which is good. If she was still with you you could possibly have worse memories. I do hope you are doing alright now. You should talk to a therapist if this is still bothering you. My best lucks to you for your future wellbeing!!