Cutting because my life is shit!!

[princess09]

ok so i know compared to some my life isnt that bad, howver to me it is quite big deal... im not going to explain everything but basically i am being emtionally and verbally abused by my step mum and my life at school is horrible i just had a mahoosive argument with someone who is meant to be my best friend and it has linked to what is going on at home with the verball abuse mainly. the words she used and how she put things against me like im a terrorist. My family think i have stopped cutting my self but tonight i started over again, its gone over the scars and i don't know if i can control my self. i know this post didnt really have much point but i just needed to right it down and let out my emotions because im feeling suicidel and i was just wondering if you have any advice for me please!!! im actually begging you:(:mad::(:(:(:(

[NightFighter]

Hey Sophie,

I know what it feels like- When your life isn't really as bad as others but to you it's really difficult. Who really knows what its like to be you other than you? Little things in life add up. Eventually they become unbearable. You need to think of how you are coping. Rather than how other people would cope. That is irrelative.

I don't know the situation you are in with your step mum or your other friend but to me it seems that you need to sit them down and speak to them properly. Write down the points you need to make prior to your meeting to ensure you don't miss any important points. Speak calmly and purposely otherwise they won't even try to listen. Making people undertand your point of view is difficult so give them time and give them knowledge. The worst thing you could do is shout and scream- no one listens to that. It would be ridiculous to side with that sort of person right?

If you are cutting again it would only make sense to communicate to them that you are struggling again. Maybe this will deter you from self harm for just a bit longer. An that extra time without doing anything is unbelievably precious and invaluable. The more times abstained from self harm; the harder it is to begin again. Trust me.

People can say pretty harsh things when they're upset or mad. Try to understand. Haven't you ever said anything in the heat of the monent that you soon regret? It's easily done; not so easily undone.

Overall, it's a positive action for you to write down your feeling. Otherwise they'd fester inside your head which is totally unhealthy.

Also, it's incredibly destructive to go over old scars. Skin isn't magic. Sooner or later it won't be able to keep up with the recurrent regeneration you're demanding from it. You don't want to have those conplcations.

Basically, my advice to you would be to figure out your own way to communicate to your loved ones. Keeping feelings inside won't do yourself mentally or physically any good. Write down what you need to say, what you want to change and how you can change it. Communication is key to building and keeping relationships.

If I read this totally wrong then I apologise. You are welcome to pm me for more advice or send abuse if you wish! Haha

Take care!

NightFighter