Over Reacting

[Kuraudo-sama]

Well I go to a very small school, there are only 10 students there. In my class there is 1, 4th grader, 2, 6th graders, and 2, 8th graders. So report cards went out, and I like to rival the other 8th grader, even though she just wants to be my friend. The point is that report cards went out, and the other 8th grader got a 91.52% GPA, while I got a pathetic 90.23% GPA. So when I heard that I was just blind with sadness and anger. I just passed out on the couch when she told me that on the phone. It felt like I completely failed every class. Well there are only 2 8th graders so I was the worst, and I know 90% is very high but I still feel really bad about this. Like my heart is going to stop as I'm typing this. Am I over reacting? Or is this some kinda mental illness?

[Hauptmann Kauffman]

Just sounds liek you were waiting for this one moment, and were hit in the face with disappointment. Just sit down, breath deep, and try to get over It:)

[byee]

As usual, Layne shows his gift of insight here! Let me add some of my own thoughts.

It sounds like you're a very competitive person, so you 'play to win'. And, eventhough you recognize that a 90% is pretty good by itself, it doesn't quite compare with the others.

It might be a good idea to try to understand why you got the 90%. Did you try your hardest? Were you completely prepared? Can you account for your grade being lower than the others?

If you can find the reason (and, most importantly, if that reason is correctable), than learn from this and apply it to next semester's work. The setback would be temporary.

If you cannot account for the grade, if you really did everything you can, if it was just really hard, then you might need to adjust your expectations of yourself. You might need to learn to measure your performance not so much by the performance of others, but rather, how well you did yourself, inside, by just knowing the material and 'having done your best'.

There's often room for improvement, you should strive for excellence. However, when you max out you should recognize it and not stress yourself out. There will always be someone out there who does something, or has something, better than you, and if you stress about it you'll make yourself nuts.

Just be your own personal best.

[Kuraudo-sama]

No I didn't try my hardest. I didn't even try at all. It's just I see no point in continuing to live if I don't rival myself against everyone. So even when it's just a small thing like this, ut kills me.

[Never_Forget]

To get to the point, you're over-reacting. She got like 1% more than you. Big deal. And if you didn't try your hardest then whats the point in rivaling???

[The Batman]

it could be that you got caught up in the moment and you got disappointed when you didn't get as high a grade you expected there's nothin wrong with wanting to be competitive it could help you to do better next time