I don't know what to think

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I don't know what's happening anymore. I can barely think straight, I don't understand the simplest of tasks and I often just forget whatever it is I am doing. When I wake up in the morning there is this pounding in my head and it doesn't stop, I keep feeling like there is something hidden behind my eyes and it scares me. I'm constantly tired, even after a long sleep (ten hours) and I am beginning to notice patterns in what I do.

Everyone calls me stupid because I don't look at the detail in the things I do, I answer each stupid equation wrong because I'll miss out a number somewhere, I tried self harming once but stopped because of the pain, I tried writing a diary, but I couldn't focus and it wound up being horrible with a million one sentence paragraphs and I keep thinking there is someone stood behind me.

I joined this site because a friend told me it could help, just like it helped him, so, do you have any advice? At all? Anything?

[AbbaZabba]

Lex,

This is the first time I visited these sections here on VT and probably should have started here when I joined. First, I saw what you wrote about a diary. I just posted this in a thread and if you want read it and decide for yourself. Those one sentence paragraphs are actually great.

http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=169767 Scroll down to my post.

Don't do self harm, hell, my body would be a giant scar if I went that path. My main advice would be the link that I gave you, because that is how I cope. I am really a very happy person, surrounded by all things good but I fight many the the emotions you mentioned.

I like going to The White Padded Room also, the threads are all things that help get your mind off your issues. I enjoy posting, writing on the posts and reading all the threads. Just posting on all the different forums have been a huge help for me.

I don't know if it is the direction that will work for you, but it helps me a lot. ~abby