CastigateMe
March 13th, 2013, 08:10 PM
I have self-harmed in various ways for roughly three years now, without ever having gotten help or telling anyway.
Today, I am feeling very victorious, because in the past few months I have:
Grown to like someone enough to allow them to see my scars and bruises, to touch them, to ask questions, and to explain to them why I think it is that I do what I do to myself.
&Today, I managed to keep my promise to my partner, and get help. I spoke with the teacher I trust most, who is very lovely, and was very helpful; even opening up about past experiences ( though he himself never turned to self harm, he did suffer from depression and had to be put on anti-depressants, still takes anti-anxiety medicine ), and offered some very helpful suggestions.
I am so glad that he was able to do that for me, without any form of judgement, and has encouraged me to talk to him more often and keep in touch over breaks as well.
He has not made himself the end-all though, and has told me to seek a higher level of help when I am ready to, but that he will be there until I am.
I just wanted to share that.
Today, I am feeling very victorious, because in the past few months I have:
Grown to like someone enough to allow them to see my scars and bruises, to touch them, to ask questions, and to explain to them why I think it is that I do what I do to myself.
&Today, I managed to keep my promise to my partner, and get help. I spoke with the teacher I trust most, who is very lovely, and was very helpful; even opening up about past experiences ( though he himself never turned to self harm, he did suffer from depression and had to be put on anti-depressants, still takes anti-anxiety medicine ), and offered some very helpful suggestions.
I am so glad that he was able to do that for me, without any form of judgement, and has encouraged me to talk to him more often and keep in touch over breaks as well.
He has not made himself the end-all though, and has told me to seek a higher level of help when I am ready to, but that he will be there until I am.
I just wanted to share that.