Why Am I Here

[The Batman]

I ask myself these questions everyday sometimes when i wake up in the morning i pray to go back to sleep and stay that way forever noone cares about me and i feel like i just get used i stay locked up in my room all day so i don't have to face anyone that doesn't care i sometimes cry myself to sleep at night i don't have any real friends i've never been to a sleep over or a friends party caue like i said noone cares about me my life is just one empty shell waiting to be filled with the love of anyone out there but for my entire life only a few have filled that hole but their dead now one died 9 years ago another 3 years ago and the last 2 months ago everyone who ever cared about me died and my parents are just using me to get information about the other oh yea i forgot to mention they are going through a divorce right now. when i was ten or eleven my dad walked in the house and flipped out we all sat on the couch crying after he left and only minutes later he walked in with a gallon of gasoline and poured it on all of us especially me and went outside to try and light it my uncle saved my life but he died a year or so later my dad was on some medication that made him flip out but i don't think its true everyone hates me and uses me and i've had enough i wish i was dead

[TakenAway--x]

What your dad did to you is terrible. I cannot say that I can relate to that situation, but I am sorry for your predicament.

As for your parents going through a divorce, I've been there, and I'm going through it again. I wake up most nights with my parents screaming at each other and my mother torturing my stepfather about the fact that he cheated on her.

Someone out there loves you, and even though you wish to die at times, there are people out there who would go crazy if you were gone. I know it can be hard to believe, but it is true, and there is at least one person out there who cares for you, and even if you only have yourself, that is all that matters in this world. That is the only person that you will have in the end.

I wish you luck with everything. Don't give up. I'm sure your problems will soon deplete, and you will prevail. x

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

There it is, laid out for you. She pretty much said it all.