It's getting worse...

[Jinxxy]

The thought of going back to college (half term ended 2 weeks ago this Sunday) is seriously making my depression even worse.

Luckily, the night before I was meant to go back to college, I got a chest infection and had to stay off for another week on medical grounds...

But when I was well enough to go back (Monday of this week), I got up at 6am and thought "Nope! This week is not happening." and practically went into hibernation.

What should I do? I don't want to quit college, because I've never really been a quitter - especially with my education - but at the same time, I don't want the stress and I'll be mentally better off staying at home (I live with my fiancé and his loving family).

[Atonement]

When you avoid something, the longer you avoid it, the worse it will become. This is a reality you are aware of, but really need to accept. Push yourself to go. Once you're there, it won't be as it will be if you keep skipping. Also, the more you miss, the more anxiety you will give yourself about returning since you've missed enough already.

Practical suggestions:
- Tell your fiancé to make sure you go to college so you don't really have a way out. Say you won't want to go, but you have to and ask him to make sure you go.
- What are you doing while you're home? Sitting online? Watching TV? Take out your laptop battery/computer power cable when you're done at night and ask your fiancé to hide it or hide it with his things that he will take with him away from the house. That way, when you wake up in the morning, you won't have anything to do at home and would be better going to school.
- Ask a classmate to come by to your place on the way to school, or meet you at a café beforehand or something to that extent so you're accountable for going.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Maybe you could take a break and go back next year. I not in college or near it but can't you leave for semester and come back when your ready?

[Jinxxy]

Maybe you could take a break and go back next year. I not in college or near it but can't you leave for semester and come back when your ready?

I was thinking of quitting for this year and going back next year, on a different course because I'm not really enjoying this one...

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I was thinking of quitting for this year and going back next year, on a different course because I'm not really enjoying this one...

then do that, if you know that you will return than there is no harm in taking a semester break