Do I have an ED?

[chelsay13]

I'm kind of at a point where I'm really unsure. Because I have crazy control problems and have struggled with depression, anxiety, cutting, and masturbation in the past, I have a lot of experience with my mind being destructive. But I'm at a point where I'm not sure if I just have a small problem or it's a disorder.

I hate the feeling of good in my stomach...it feels like I lost control.
I love the feeling of hunger, it makes me feel like I gain control.
I am satisfied when I can see my bones and feels them...it gives me pleasure.
Seeing any fat on my body makes me hate myself.
I have resorted to sometimes throwing up when I give in to eating and feel like I lost control, because I feel like it regains my control.
A year ago I manipulated my eating so I missed my period 6 times in a year.
But I don't struggle all of the time. Sometimes I'm fine, but then something happens and I need to regain control of my body. I eat to feel better, but I also not eat to feel better. I have only lost 15-20 pounds since July and I'm not very skinny. So I don't think I have a crazy problem. A lot of it is in my mind.
And I compare myself to other girls...I'm short, so my body isn't like other girls.

What do you see in that?

[Syvelocin]

Sounds like EDNOS honestly. It would depend on duration of symptoms. How often do you have a normal relationship with food in relation to how often you feel the need to restrict?

Anorexia diagnosis usually gets hung up on the BMI criteria and the lack of menstruation criteria. If you don't fit either, you usually get grouped into EDNOS.

[chelsay13]

I need to restrict whenever I feel emotional or like I don't have control. It is t every day...but multiple times a week.