Worried About After Break

[Sudds3]

Ive been pretty upset, depressed if you want, for about three years now. So since 7th grade, it used to be only during the winter ish time, id get better over Christmas Break be a little sad after and by spring break everything was fine and dandy. But this year it started earlier, around Halloween and Christmas break was fine while it lasted but i felt even worse after. Things kept going down hill. It kind of happened in waves, i would get severely bad and have to be talked out of it by a friend for hours then id slowly get better and feel better for a week or so. Then something would happen and i would feel worse than the last time, recover and repeat but worse. Im seeing a psychiatrist at my school on Wednesday, appointment is made and everything.

What im really worried about is after spring break. I kept telling myself just stick through it until break cuz ill be fine after, also this week im going to a concert and championship high school hockey game with friends which will be fun. What will i have to look forward to after break? Summer...but thats so long away, and i dont think i can make it. I get terrible headaches and take a lot of pain meds for them and im failing a few classes and i am concerned about 2 friends who arent feeling very good either and i dont know

Ive gotten into a bad habbit of taking 8-12 pills at a time for a headache or if i feel sad in hopes i might OD which i know its not enough though. Im too worried about after break though, any help?

Thanks

[Misfit]

Firstly we should try and establish why it is you feel this way at this time in particular, can you tell me did anything bad ever happen in your life around that time? What feelings are you expressing at these times, (i.e loneliness, fear, anger ect.)
It's really good to hear that you will be seeing a psych, they really do a good job. You said that expressing your feeling to a friend helped break through some of the depression, so if you need to most on VT are good listeners, if you feel comfortable enough to converse with a stranger I'm always keen for a chat, just send me a PM or something.
Class failure is often a result of depression however if possible study also creates a distraction from things that you are feeling. As for your friends, while it's all well and good to worry about them you have to ensure that what they are feeling isn't having an affect on you, if so it may be a wise move to encourage them to seek professional help while you sort through your issues.

Taking extra medication is a serious issue and you should defiantly bring it up with the psych, in the mean time if you are interested here is a site dedicated to braking bad habits.
http://idiotsguides.com/static/quickguides/selfhelp/how-to-break-a-bad-habit-for-good.html
Again if you feel you need to talk to someone I'll try to help in anyway I can.
Love from Australia,

-Bondi

[xarvon1412]

Yeah, I do the same thing with the pain meds. My girlfriend is constantly worrying that I'm not going to wake up one of these days. Anyway, I'm sorry to hear how you've been feeling. I think that you'll actually be doing better after spring break, because school actually brings no a lot of stress, so it'll relax you. It will also be a nice reminder that school will end eventually. Don't worry, it won't be terrible forever. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you :) Post on my wall, and I'll respond as quickly as I can.

[Sudds3]

Today was good, woke up and found $10 in my pocket...great start. And my schools hockey team just won state at the championship game i went to which was fun. I have a concert on wednesday but today my theology teacher pulled me aside and asked if i was ok, i caught on pretty quickly and said yeah. Im not a morning person (cuz i have her first period) but she insisted that we talk tomorrow. Great -_-