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crepesuzette
March 3rd, 2013, 06:51 PM
There's this one guy that I really like at school. He has two classes with me and he is very charming and handsome. The minute I see him walk into class, I start greeting him. Then I stare at him for a few minutes during break and as his eyes meet mine, I start averting mine. He looks real handsome and genuinely nice, but of course, he's got one thing that I don't like, and that's partying. No offense if you guys party, I respect you all, but it's just not my thing. (Don't get bummed out if you're reading this.)
I found out through a friend that he hangs out with this other guy and he assumes that he parties, i think, not sure and I was just like,"No way, he can't. He's so muscular." I didn't think that a muscular person like him could be such a partygoer. Hopefully what i heard isn't true. I don't think that these feelings will stay long because once i start relating them to friends, they start to disappear, which is great. I mean, I feel like I am only attracted to him because of his looks, and nothing more. I'm only 17, and I've had feelings like this since I was 12. What do you think will happen if my parents found out that I was gay? I still don't believe it, and I try to stay away from guys as much as I can. except for my friends, who aren't attractive in that way, which is great.
Don't get me wrong, but I just don't see myself being intimate with guys. Even if I were in a relationship with one, I would probably draw the line at hugging and that's it.

Misfit
March 3rd, 2013, 10:50 PM
Well first things first, no one here can tell you who you are that's up to you. All we can do is give you the information to help you come to a conclusion.
Note, people of the same gender can identify attractiveness within another member of the same sex without being gay, If that's all it is don't worry yourself.

Sexual identity is different and varies from person to person, some are able to quickly identify it while others might go nearly all their lives without knowing what gender they are truly attracted to. Sexuality can be solid in some and fluid in others meaning that some might change sexual attraction as they go through life.

During your teens the body is full of hormones which can easily cloud someones true sexual preference, that's why it's silly to try and make accurate judgments during this time. To be honest I wouldn't even worry about labeling yourself one thing or another, if you like that guy, go date him. If you like that girl, go date her. Do what makes you happy, and if you feel the need to label yourself do it when you feel ready and well informed.
As for your parents, if they seem homophobic it would generally be a good idea to keep it from them until you are no longer financially dependent on them, most non-religious families are generally ok with same sex attraction as they don't believe in the whole sin system of religion, however that being said it doesn't mean your safe just because their atheist, like my parents are non-religious but are extremely close-minded to race, sexuality, financial position ect.

Kinda just put all my thoughts out here so it's probably not structured very well but I hope you get the jist of what I'm saying. Also these are just my thoughts and may be viewed or interpreted by others in different ways.

-Bondi

SammieRose
March 3rd, 2013, 10:56 PM
Bondi's answer is better. Disregard my post.

Fixed

Misfit
March 3rd, 2013, 11:25 PM
Aphex's answer is better. Disregard my post.

Aphex is now Bondi, I changed peoples :P