I'm in a social mess! :(

[Overload]

Ok let me just start from the very beginning. Around two months ago one of my best friends stopped talking to me for no apparent reason. Me being introverted, I didn't have the nerve to go up to him and ask him what the problem was, if I did anything to offend him. (I mean we're GUYS, guys get mad at each other for like 20 minutes and then forget about it usually)

So after a month of us not talking to each other, he one day started talking to me, completely normal. I had no idea what was going on so i just answered back. Now, we talk and joke normally and its obvious he's not mad at me anymore. But we still have never talked about why we ignored each other for a week which makes everything awkward.

I don't know what happened but when he started talking to me again, I don't know why but I developed this weird crush on him. Currently my sexuality is undecided, but from this whole mess I now like him so much I want him to be my boyfriend. It's like this really powerful emotion I have whenever I see him. There are times when I get really angry inside because I can't stand we're friends again yet we don't have the courage to talk about it with each other. Then when I'm not angry at him I have this strong crush on him. This really messes up my friendship with him because I KNOW he's straight and that he'd never see me as someone to date. Yet, I can't think of him as a friend now, only as someone to love.

Theres no way I can just distance myself from his as we have more or less the same classes so i see him every day and I'm always interacting with him and stuff. See, he's a GUY, and for some stupid reason guys cant even have emotional discussions. So now we're in this really awkward friendship where we're both being friendly but its really tense. I have no idea what to do, he was such a good friend, but now everything's messed up with this crush and all.

Please can anyone just give me some guy advice on how to deal with this problem? I've been thinking if hundreds of conversations in my head of how I would talk it over but they all sound really awkward and stuff.

I need help with this really bad! This social crap is making my emotions get screwed up! :(

Thanks for reading this I know it was probably really boring but if you have any helpful advice I'd really appreciate reading it

[tundravortex]

now i dont kno how boys at your school are but at mine once a friendship ends its gone so if i were u would look for another friend because u dont want to piss of a man when your not friends with him but since i dont kno wat its like at your school i would say try to get him back because u need friends in school

[Perfect_Insanity]

I think you should tell him. (Carefully, not a full-out emotion burst) I think you should at least communicate how you feel and try and see if there's any chance to salvage your relationship. You should also try and decide what you want before talking to him. Do you want love, or just your friend back? Just try and be honest, if all else fails. Or, if you don't want him, there's always the option of not talking to him, I guess. Honestly, i'm not totally sure how boy friendships work, but that's what I'd do.

[metallic_pink]

It's great to be true to yourself BUT there are things to consider. Are you prepared of losing him as a friend if you choose to tell him knowing that he's straight? It would be awesome if he accepts you as you are and helps you cope up with what you're feeling but what if it's otherwise? Follow your heart. Do what you think is right and be prepared for the consequences. If he's indeed a true friend, he will not allow to ruin your friendship by that confession. Hope everything will turn out right for the two of you.

[Shadow]

I would suggest you let this cool down and distance yourself so as to avoid any violence. I would also suggest that you look into a new best friend.