im alone

[RileyMarendona]

im 13 yrs old and i dont have any friends. people pick on me and call me names because of the way i look and who my family is. my family is never together and when they are, they are fighting. so, i lock myself i my room and retreat into my own world, its a place where everything is different and better and people love eachother just because. but when i wake up nothing has changed and im still alone. sometimes i wonder if i was to run away, how long it would take for them to know that i was gone. or, if they would even care. i feel like im a shadow in my own life. i walk the hall at school and dont know why im there. i love learning but whats the point. the other kids have their clicks and once the bell rings, the teachers are not payed to care. and at the end of the day i go home and sit on my bed, in my room, alone.


tears/hurt/andheartbreak let me know that im alive

[ChicagoBlackhawksFan]

Wow it sounds like you have a hard life (No offense) I would just like move in with a friend or with another family member like brother!

[tundravortex]

dont worry dude here on VT were all family,this is your second family.....online at least

[Outside The Box]

I would be lying if I told you I know how you feel, because I don't. But I do know one thing...and that nothing stays the same forever. It will change in time. Just hang in there.

[BanishU]

Well, VT, you can make some friends. I will be your friend.

[Second Chance]

It sucks big time when things at home are horrible along with everything else in life collapsing around you. Especially when one thing goes wrong it seems like a bunch of other things collapse, too.

As for your family situation, I can see why you retreat into your own world, and that probably is your best safety mechanism when things get ugly. However, if you have relatives or anyone who is responsible who you can trust whose house you can go to when your family is going downhill, then it would be a good thing to do.

Assuming you are in junior high, then know that junior high sucks so bad for a lot of folks, and you are not alone there. Why else do the Diary of the Wimpy Kid books sell so well? I think you should, if you have not done so already, talk to your school counselor. If your school counselor is a douche, then you should approach a teacher you feel is somewhat decent with your issues. If your school is public, then I can see how you might feel like you are just one person in a big crowd. However, there is always someone at even large schools who care, and at least approach the school administration since things are really this bad for you.

It would be great if all of us could make things better just with words, but at least we can give you our advice based upon what happened to us so that you get better.

[dontfiguremeout]

Puberty Boys :arrow: Depression, Loss, and Grief.
You'll find much better help here! Hope all goes well!

[xarvon1412]

I'll gladly be your friend :) Like everyone else is saying, the people on VT are like your second family, and are willing to help you get through whatever it is that you've having trouble with. So don't stress out too much, it's not worth the stress in the long run. If you ever need to talk, just post on my wall, and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. Welcome to Virtual Teen :)

[Steve Jobs]

Hey Riley! You've definitely come to the right place :) As others have said, we're all here for each other. There've been times in my life when I've done very much the same. Sometimes it's those times I have alone that are the most comforting. When you next dream a little, hang on to that hope that things will soon be better, because it will.
I'm no therapist, I'm as human as you are going through struggles of my own but it helps if we do it together :bigsmile:

[Abyssal Echo]

I have to agree with the above posters you've come to the right place. lots of helpful non judgemental supportive people here.

[Coolboi]

welcome here it's a great place to find yourself an others with the same problems .ill be a friend an can talk about anything just ask . Don't run away find new places an enjoy life .sorry to here your not happy at home at least you have your room to go to make it nice in there .

[Shadow]

This story really hit really hit close to home I used to have the same problem but I solved this by looking back and realizing what people were already nice to me. If you need a friend or someone to talk to, I'm here for you.

[rocketsheep]

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