CastigateMe
March 2nd, 2013, 03:37 PM
Can you describe yourself as "in recovery" if, in the first place, you were not diagnosed with an eating disorder?
I struggled on and off with an eating disorder, though undiagnosed, for years. I was too scared to go to the doctor, but I fit most of the criteria for one, even spending hours of my time looking at skinny girls, exercising obsessively, counting calories and re-counting every other hour, taking a long time to find out what would hide my "fat" and what wouldn't, crying because of the number on the scale, weighing measuring myself constantly, skipping meals, restricting, fasting, etc.
As of now, I have begun to stop all of that. Sometimes, I do skip a meal or worry about calories a wee bit too much though, and I do find myself comparing myself to skinny girls and wishing I were tinier.
I never was hospitalized, and I never was diagnosed, so I'm hesitant to say I'm "in recovery," for I feel like I'm an insult to girls and boys who HAVE been diagnosed and who HAVE been hospitalized. :c
What think?
I struggled on and off with an eating disorder, though undiagnosed, for years. I was too scared to go to the doctor, but I fit most of the criteria for one, even spending hours of my time looking at skinny girls, exercising obsessively, counting calories and re-counting every other hour, taking a long time to find out what would hide my "fat" and what wouldn't, crying because of the number on the scale, weighing measuring myself constantly, skipping meals, restricting, fasting, etc.
As of now, I have begun to stop all of that. Sometimes, I do skip a meal or worry about calories a wee bit too much though, and I do find myself comparing myself to skinny girls and wishing I were tinier.
I never was hospitalized, and I never was diagnosed, so I'm hesitant to say I'm "in recovery," for I feel like I'm an insult to girls and boys who HAVE been diagnosed and who HAVE been hospitalized. :c
What think?