Trying to stop...

[ruby_]

Okay, so I haven't cut myself for a couple of days now, but its getting really hard. It's constantly there, and I've had the worst day - been trying to hold back tears all day. I know it's self injury awareness day which is another reason not to, but I just don't know what to do with myself. Nobody knows about this and I just have no idea what to do. I know I'll regret it after, I always do but I just want to so badly

[tundravortex]

well keep your mind on something else or keep it busy and try to stay away from sharp objects

[ruby_]

I'm trying but I'm alone and it's like they're everywhere...

[Jinxxy]

Do what I did and talk to somebody you trust. Do your parents know and if so, what do they think of you now they know?

If they've judged you for it, welcome to my world, if not, then talk to the one you are closest to.

And by "welcome to my world", I mean feel free to message me about how you're feeling because I know how you feel. I constantly relapse. Just turns out my body isn't completely ready to give it up, yet...

I'll warn you now, my advice is brutally honest but it works, Ruby. There's only been one person I've never been able to help or, in a way, "fix" with my advice and I've forever hated myself for not being able to, so trust me, I know I can help.

I can't even count on both of my hands how many people I've helped with my advice :)
Trust me *lends out hand* :3

[BlueJaysGirl]

try and keep your thoughts and mind busy to relieve the stress
talk to someone who you trust who can make you feel better :)

[ruby_]

I don't feel like I can talk to anyone I know - I feel like a freak. I don't want to put my mum through that, I think she'd think I'm doing it for attention - which I'm not.

[Jinxxy]

Well, you know where I am if you want somebody to talk to that won't judge x

[xarvon1412]

You can talk to me. I'll gladly help. If you ever need someone to talk to then post on my wall and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. I'm sorry that you're falling into relapse, but it's a lot better to not cut, not to mention you'll feel a lot better about yourself if you don't cut. You have the option to cut, or to not cut, and right now the option to not cut it a lot better of an option than to cut. Listen, this will only affect you positively in the future if you don't cut.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

DO NOT CUT, you can do this. I know you can, push on!

[ruby_]

Thanks guys! :) x

[lauren1]

Ruby, I hope you realise that apart from everyone around you, there are people here who can help you too. My friend started to cut herself and I tried to help her, but she needed lots of support from friends and family.
You have all that and this site as well. So let us all know here how you get on. Just doing that should help a little too.
Good luck and try to be as strong as you possibly can.
Lauren x

[ruby_]

Thank you Lauren :) just feel so lost. I had some "things" hidden in my drawer. And I know that my mum has taken them thinking that would end it. But she didn't even mention it. Not that I want her to, but i just don't know how it can be pushed aside

[Shadow]

Ruby stay strong and keep fighting. We're here for you.

[ruby_]

Thank you, I just really want somebody like here to comfort me sometimes

[cuff]

its hard to stop,

[rocketsheep]

fffff

[ruby_]

I feel just like giving up now. I have no strength emotionally and physically. I don't even have the energy to cut, I just wanna slowly fade out.

[dontfiguremeout]

Find an alternate route! Find something that would take your mind off of cutting but also releases stress. If you're artistic maybe you can draw, dance, write poetry, just do some plain writing, ect. so you can take away most of your emotions. Trust me, it works, and it's a lot more fun to do! You'll find a secret talent you never knew you could do! Or you can find some fun activity like cooking, doing a sport, go for a jog, get a job, ect. There are many alternate routes you can do. The questions then goes to you. Are you willing to find the alternate route and stick to it? Will you not give up?