Creepy or...?

[lyriclover]

My family's never been affectionate with one another. I never wanted to be close to or hug anyone anyway so it didn't bother me. I haven't had the normal family growing up and still don't. I spent most of the time being shipped between relatives and babysitters, because my parents were away most of the time. I've always hated physical contact. If you even accidently bumped me in the hall I would cringe. Now, it's all of a sudden so different. Just starting this year I've been craving contact with other people. I have a few friends who are a little older than me (18-21) and they kinda "adopted" me. I let them get closer than my real family. I let them hug me and hold me and... I like it. I like being treated like a kid. I like being able to call them mommy and to love them like a parent. Now I have no sexual attraction for them, I just love them like the family I never had. Today proved to me that something was weird. I HATE people messing with my hair. It's long and wavy but I wear it up in a ponytail every day. My school mommy asked if she could play with my hair and I decided what the heck I'll let her. I loved it purely because it was someone touching me and caring about me. Now I still am a cold heartless teen that would rather sit alone in the corner than talk during free time, but if my mommys or my sisters hug me... it just feels so right. Is it normal to feel this way or do I have another thing to add to the list of topics to bring up with the shrink?

[SammieRose]

Welcome to the realm of fell good hormones. Physical contact, specially pleasurable ones, release on our blood stream Oxycontin, also called the love hormone.

Whenever you get hug, you feel the rush of this hormone and a pleasurable sensation engulfs you.

It is actually normal to feel good and an indication you are trying to break away from the affectionate free life you actually hate. You are use to it, that is how you can cope with the lack of affection, but that does not mean you are happy not feeling affection.

Keep it up, let people hug you, start feeling good. Furthermore, I love it when someone i trust massages my forehead and scalp. You are not heartless, you left those friends in. Give it time, experience love and soon you will be giving it back. Puberty is time for changes, physical and mental changes, you could become the most affectionate being on earth ;)

[xmojox]

Welcome to the realm of fell good hormones. Physical contact, specially pleasurable ones, release on our blood stream Oxycontin, ...

You mean Oxytocin. Oxycontin is a very potent opiate pain reliever. Agree with you otherwise.

[SammieRose]

You mean Oxytocin. Oxycontin is a very potent opiate pain reliever. Agree with you otherwise.

:woot: Yes ,that one, well, Oxytocin does work as a really mild opiate. lol

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You aren't weird, and it's not creepy. It's just a really close bond between you guys that you never had with real family.

[Jess]

It's definitely not creepy. You are really close to them, that's why you feel this way

[lyriclover]

Thanks guys good to know that's normal.