hey

[Bath]

Like, I don't know what to do.

My anxiety will neeeever go away and medicine doesn't help and I don't even know what to say or how to phrase it.

I don't want to go to New Hampshire. I don't want to go up north. I want to stay here.

I don't want to be a bad girlfriend. I try my hardest to make him happy, I do everything, I give him my 100%, and yet I still manage to do something stupid, I don't want to go. I don't want to go anywhere. I feel mad and angry but I don't feel like anyone deserves it. Music is annoying me. I want to die. I want to crawl in a hole and die. What's even wrong?? I'm just going crazy. I've been trying not to. But I'm just losing grip. This sounds stupid.

I thought I wasn't going to feel this way again. I always think that, I'm always wrong. This is always going to happen. Always. I can't give good advice. I can't do good anything. I don't want to be a human, I feel very uncomfortable. I feel very unhappy. I feel feel feel feeel feeeeeeeel. I'm a weakling. It's just good old Darwinism if I off myself.

I can't take anything.

[Mynick]

I know this may sound stupid but try to calm down. Yeah, I know I give brilliant advices :)
I understand how you feel about moving to another places and changes in general. At least, to me, they scare me to death, like everything is fine how it is- why should I change anything? Sooner or later something will need to change and why not taking this opportunity? Correct me if im wrong but you are going on test right? If you donu adapt well you will be able to return.

[xarvon1412]

It is not natural selection if you commit suicide, that is not natural selection. That's the world losing another great person. I know, anxiety sucks right? My medication pretty much puts me to sleep, so that's how my doctor has "fixed" my problem. Don't worry though, it will get better. You will stop feeling like that eventually, it does go away. You won't feel bad, you'll start to feel great. You'll start to feel good about yourself and then who knows? Maybe you'll even begin to love yourself. Don't worry though, it does get better eventually. It's just that eventual part that we have to get to first. If you need to talk, I'm here for you, just wall me :)