My big brother...

[WalkingOnDisaster]

Hi...
I know some people here really hate me right now. I'm a crazy-assed jehovah chick. But at the moment I'm putting that aside.
My big brother, my only friend for THE longest time, just died in a car accident. And I'm so.... Uch. I don't know.
He was always suicidal. He used himself as an example for me to not be like. He was my step brother, his mom died when he was little and his dad married my mom before I was born. When my life started and the raping began he was there. He took beatings from our dad just to protect me. He was 13, almost 14 when I was born.
He always hung out with me before his friends. No little kid wanted a friend with cuts and bruises.
For Christs sake, he explained to me why I should wait to have sex.
Today, before he went out, our dad and mom had a big fight and blamed him. He took me out to eat and dropped me off at home... He promised he'd be back...But he never came back.

I miss Kendall.... I doubt I'll be able to go on really without him. He was one of my only friends...

[TopThrill]

First of all, I'd like to say that I feel horrible about your life. What'd I'd highly suggest is seeing a school counselor to talk things out. If your parents are abusive, I'd highly suggest asking someone outside your family for help. I don't really know how to compare what you're feeling to anything I've ever felt, but hang in there. You'll be just fine.

[PinkFloyd]

Oh, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my brother. I don't hate you at all. If you want to talk some more, you can PM me. Again, sorry about everything. Your brother... People giving you crap about your beliefs... :(

[WalkingOnDisaster]

First of all, I'd like to say that I feel horrible about your life. What'd I'd highly suggest is seeing a school counselor to talk things out. If your parents are abusive, I'd highly suggest asking someone outside your family for help. I don't really know how to compare what you're feeling to anything I've ever felt, but hang in there. You'll be just fine.
Thank you for the advice... I will go to a counsilor and some of my brothers friends. I trully appreciate your post
Oh, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my brother. I don't hate you at all. If you want to talk some more, you can PM me. Again, sorry about everything. Your brother... People giving you crap about your beliefs... :(

Thank you for your post. I will pm you... Once I fathom how I feel. I'm so mixed up right now..... I expect crap for what I believe. I just didn't expect this to happen...

[PinkFloyd]

Thank you for the advice... I will go to a counsilor and some of my brothers friends. I trully appreciate your post


Thank you for your post. I will pm you... Once I fathom how I feel. I'm so mixed up right now..... I expect crap for what I believe. I just didn't expect this to happen...

Yes. That sounds good. I am about to go to bed though, so talk to you tomorrow?

[TopThrill]

[QUOTE=WalkingOnDisaster;2160432]Thank you for the advice... I will go to a counsilor and some of my brothers friends. I trully appreciate your post


Glad I could help! And remember, help is always around the corner.

[xmojox]

Hi...
I know some people here really hate me right now. I'm a crazy-assed jehovah chick. But at the moment I'm putting that aside.
My big brother, my only friend for THE longest time, just died in a car accident. And I'm so.... Uch. I don't know.
He was always suicidal. He used himself as an example for me to not be like. He was my step brother, his mom died when he was little and his dad married my mom before I was born. When my life started and the raping began he was there. He took beatings from our dad just to protect me. He was 13, almost 14 when I was born.
He always hung out with me before his friends. No little kid wanted a friend with cuts and bruises.
For Christs sake, he explained to me why I should wait to have sex.
Today, before he went out, our dad and mom had a big fight and blamed him. He took me out to eat and dropped me off at home... He promised he'd be back...But he never came back.

I miss Kendall.... I doubt I'll be able to go on really without him. He was one of my only friends...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't want to intrude, but please PM me when you can. I'm not going to presume that I know exactly what you're feeling, but I have had similar experiences, I think. It's important that you talk with someone about this. You are in my thoughts.

[Wanderer_]

Sorry for your loss, stay brave you aren't alone

[havingfun]

So sorry to hear about your loss, just remember that you have plenty of friends here even if you might not know most of us to well *Hugs*