Hurt

[HerSecretsAreExposed]

So I have a lot going on... I'm a sexually active teen. Not proud. I can't seem to say stop unless I have something to hide. I have cuts all over my body from an episode I had last night... Why won't it go away? Why does the urge stay even though I know its so bad for me....I feel worthless, used, and hurt. I just want to run and hide... but I can't get away from myself.

[Perfect_Insanity]

I'm not the best person to be giving advice, (I'm a self-harmer myself) but I think you should try to find some help. No, you don't have to go find a counselor, (Although that can be helpful) you should try and talk to someone. Someone that you trust and someone that cares about you. A friend or trusted adult. Do you cut often, or is it just a one-time thing?

As for the sex stuff, I have no idea (I haven't even had my first kiss) but I think you just need to respect yourself enough to just say no, even if it's scary. Sorry if that wasn't helpful :/

[HerSecretsAreExposed]

No, it's helpful... sorta.. Ive had tons of counselors and stuff,,,, I can't get anymore help and it isnt helping. This isn't a one time thing I've been doing it since 5th grade (when I first started to be abuse sexually, mentally and such) I'm not a virgi and I'm not proud. I feel like when I say no I let that guy down... then I go home feeling like a whore.....

[Perfect_Insanity]

You don't have any obligations to give a guy sex. I think you should try and stand up for yourself. You shouldn't be forced to do anything you don't want to do. Maybe you should try also putting a post in abuse, you'd probably find people more experienced with this than me. Do you have any friends? If you can't find someone in the real world, people here are pretty cool. (Well, there are some creepers in puberty 101, but other than that...) I hope you find some help here. (You seem pretty new, so i'm just assuming)

[xarvon1412]

You're right, you can't get away from yourself, so make yourself somebody that you want to be around. I know, but trust me, the thoughts and urges do eventually go away. I may be speaking hypocritically, because I'm still addicted, but it will go away. Just believe that you won't cut, believe in yourself. I want you to try something okay? Try drawing a butterfly on your arm, and then naming it after somebody that you love or loves you. If you cut, the butterfly dies, if it washes away, then they live. Try that, and let me know how it goes :) Also, if you need to talk to somebody, post on my wall and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.