how did you start with it?

[tearsdrop]

since i was 12 i've been bullied. it wasn't physical, but sometimes i'd say to the girls, hit me! because what they were doing verbally and online is so much worse.those girls never gave me an explanation for why they were bullying me one of the words they called me was a bitch. at that age, you think, Oh, so i don’t have friends because i’m a bitch (i didnt know the means of bitch). in that time i was raped by my cousin, and then i was sure that i was a bitch. that's when a lot of my issues spiraled out of control. the things they called me will stick with me for life. i had an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. with my faith, my parents and brother and a psychology (although I have never told the whole truth) i feel better now, but it still live inside me, and it's hard to have friends, because i am afraid of everything will happen again... i need help, my boyfriend always critize me because i cannot have friends and i need him all the time but i am ashamed to tell him und my family all the truth...

[xarvon1412]

I've been bullied all my life, I'm sorry that you've had to go through that. I'm glad to hear that you're doing better, but it does sound like ghosts of the past are haunting you. You won't go back to those, because you've come so far and you know that going back would only hurt you. I think, that maybe you should tell someone? Not everyone, but just one person. You don't even need to tell them all at once, but just tell them, start with something small. Don't just envelop them in your life, kind of ease them into it. Again, you don't have to tell them everything, but you also shouldn't be scared. If you know that they're your friend, then you don't need to feel as if you should hide. Again, just my humble opinion, take from it what you may. If you need somebody to talk to about anything, wall me. I'll get back to you eventually :)

[kiltipkid]

I been bullied all my life by teachers and kids and everyone. I am very dyslexia I cant spell much I am very slow at times I hate my life so much

[Emumu]

Well i like most was Bullied By Kids in School but it did not stop there When i got home They Pain Continued not bullying but being tossed aside like scum while watching my younger brother Get treated like Gold..... Over the Years i have had problems with my Weight it stays steady at 230 No matter how much i Work out or How Properly eat... so people would basically judge me by my looks and would Actually throw sticks and stones because i learnt to Ignore Nobody would help me They just said fix your own problems being emotionally abused at school then being emotionally Abused At home stung so much i tried cutting but i would stop half way my father found out and hit me saying that i was a cowered and that i wasnt worth his time.... so i started to carve the words that i was called by family and so called friends the pain would only subside for a short time i started to get better but 2 days ago i relapsed and Started again.... thats how i started.... and i wish it was different :'(